New Direction For 2017?

LOL - no that didn't happen Knk.

What I can say is that there seems to be a new sense of fun with Sue and that I think she's more at ease with us easing back from the more extreme. That plus our new "schedule" of every other week is also helping her get into things with me more - something she mentioned last night several times.

So yes - last night - our Wednesday night routine continued but with a definite uptick of "fun-ness" from her. Starting with her getting undressed down to just her panties before she got into bed with me and helped me slide off my boxers. She immediately started to tease me about "having to wait a while now to get into my panties again" and she giggled about it. It felt good to talk about it more openly and I enjoyed replying to her that "I"ll surely want you by then".

I won't go into details (unless others want to hear them) but she wasn't shy including telling me about "how his thick cum feels inside me" and other things. We went back and forth for a while including her pulling my hand away and telling me "not too soon baby" and encouraging me to edge a little more before letting myself go. She did that three times to me before she seemed to let loose with a tirade of lewd and sexy comments culminating with her gushing at how she "loves to cum with him" and it was how she said it that pushed me over - and almost without any warning, her teasing resulted in me suddenly moaning out "ooooh god...." and suddenly cum gushed out of me - surprising me and bringing a squeal of delight from her. She watched me stroke out the last spurts and then with the angelic smile on her face she leaned up on her elbow a bit more and she reached down and pulled the last cum out of me and onto her fingers.

She leaned over and gave me a massive kiss and before she pulled back, she snaked her fingers with my cum into our mouths which made her moan. After which she sat up onto her knees and I noticed she'd taken her panties off and she smiled and said "I enjoyed watching you" and she giggled and put her fingers into her pussy and then showed me how wet they were before she offered them to me to lick/taste. I sat up onto my elbows and she leaned forward and said "want the rest?" and when I said "uh huh" answering her yes, she smiled and said "let me help you" and she proceeded to scoop up my cum and bring it to my mouth. As I licked it off and sucked her fingers each time she said softly at one point "you cum a lot more in the condoms honey". Just like that. God it made me so horny but my cock was drained by then....

Lying in bed afterwards last night she told me that she liked "how it felt" between us and that the "new schedule" is something she thinks she can really get into. I asked what she meant and as we talked we agreed that she could maybe spend a night with Paul and as we talked more, it seemed it might be easier to do that during the week. It was me that told her that every other week would probably work better for me and she agreed, even saying that maybe seeing him 3 times in 2 weeks might work better for "us" (referring to her and I for a change!). She did ask if she could still go away some times with him on a golf-trip or someplace else. I told her that I thought it would be okay and said "as long as we stick to our schedule too" and I told her that I thought it might be even more important to me at those times. She leaned over and kissed me and said she understood.

Well, with the crappy weather on Saturday she decided she didn't want to drive up to see him and was kind of down that she wasn't going to see him as she'd admitted she was horny. I joked with her that I was quite sure that he would offer to come over to our house. She thought "no way" but I laughed and said that ".... he would be coming to fuck you so I'm sure he'll decide to..." and sure enough when he called Saturday morning he offered to do so. She held the phone away while she asked me if afternoon or evening was better - and she had a devilish smile on her face. I told her "afternoon" and she giggled and let me hear her answer him. When she hung up I asked what made her laugh and she said that Paul had asked her if she'd really asked me when he should come over and she smiled and said that she liked being more open about it with me.

Openness continued when he got here, even in the rainy/slushy weather he showed up about 3pm. She had taken a shower not more than 30 minutes before he got here and she smiled and showed me that she knew when he'd be here because of Waze and she told me that he knows when she'll be at his place the same way. I had to laugh at a new use for Waze for cuckolds - to know when their wives lovers would be arriving.

We had been talking before and continued talking as she got dressed, for him this time. I lay on the bed and she turned to me and asked me if I was "going to be okay.... you know....." and after a pause, she turned to me standing naked in front of her dresser at the foot of our bed and said "...you know.... not having me till next weekend...." and as she turned back to continue picking out what she was going to wear she continued and said, quite casually, "... because.... you know..." and she suddenly seemed to get into mode and she continued "you know, because I'm pretty horny and I think I want to be alone with him today" as if it were nothing more than the weather. Before I could answer she turned to me holding a pair of pink panties with a little bow above the middle and decorative stitching around the legs against her hips and said "I haven't worn these in a long time do you like them?".

I was struck for a moment as I looked at her and all of what she'd said was sinking in and I said "yeah... yeah.... they're cute". And it was incredibly erotic to hear her say "or are these nicer" and as she did so, again as if it were nothing at all, she stood there naked - and quite bare (she touched up in the shower) and changed to the pair of lacy yellow panties that I've long seen on her and she turned herself to the mirror - letting me see her reflection - but also her butt and just the lowest edge of her pussy lips as she stood before me. She turned back and I swear her nipples were hard now. "Which ones?" and she stood there this time and pulled the yellow ones away and held the pink ones instead over her pussy. I immediately realized she was playing with me and now that she'd already confirmed that she didn't have to worry about having sex with me - that she was really enjoying this. And I called her on it - "you are enjoying this aren't you?" and she again gained that devilish smile and then laughed and said "yes, quite a bit" and she leaned over and kissed me and whispered "I love you" and then turned, pushed her butt towards me for a second and then spun back and said "yellow or pink?" I smiled at her, let her see me adjust my cock and then said "pink for a change". She smiled and, still naked, turned to put the yellow panties back in the drawer and then turned towards me. She saw me look up at her face and then back down her body and as she did - I knew she waited and then slowly she raised one leg and pulled her panty up and then did the same with the other. Slow enough that she made sure I had an eyeful. Then she repeated the slowness with pulling on the matching bra - which I'd forgotten had a bit of a push-up effect giving her the appearance of a bit more cleavage.

She teased me as she pulled on her jeans again that she was horny and let me see her adjusting her panties a bit. When she had them on she sat next to me on the bed - she looked amazing with just her bra on and I comment that I thought she'd lost a little weight (which made her smile tremendously!!!). She pushed me back against the bed and lay against me and we kissed for a little while and when she pulled back she told me she loved me and loved that "we can have fun like this". She reached down and felt my hard cock and commented that "... you can take care of this later..." and she smiled and said that she ".... liked knowing I can enjoy Paul a lot later...". As she went to sit up and finish getting dressed she leaned over once more and dangled her newfound cleavage in front of me and said ".... you going to be okay later if... you know... you aren't here with us....". And before I could answer she kissed me and said "I need him... and, it'd just be nicer... you know....". I didn't say anything but I nodded yes and she smiled and kissed my forehead.

I left her alone after that to finish dressing and whatever. While I waited for her to come downstairs I decided that I would give them the house alone and that I'd go over to Home Depot (which was quite busy despite the weather) and come back likely while he was still there. She blushed and told me she loved me and hugged me when I told her of my plan.

The house was dark when I got home but his SUV was still in our driveway and just the bedroom light was dimly lit. I came in quietly and stood by the front door and listened for any sounds. Sure enough, once my ears acclimated I could hear the sounds of "motion" upstairs, not a banging against the wall, but definite sounds of motion. I walked to the foot of the stairs and I could hear soft sounds now more clearly including her. Rather than make a commotion, I went down to our basement and kept busy for a while. I couldn't hear them clearly but was definitely aware when one (or both) of them must have cum - lol !!!.. I stayed where I was and heard sounds in the bathroom - water running/toilet flushing. It went quiet for maybe 15 minutes and I started to think maybe they'd decided to take a nap or something like that.. I was just about to head upstairs when I heard voices more clearly and footsteps. I heard the front door open - and then after a pause - the door close again. Before I could do anything I heard the basement door open and her voice yelling to me "he's gone if that's what you're waiting for".

She had a bathrobe on when I came upstairs and found her in the kitchen. She turned and hugged me and after a moment she kissed me but it wasn't sexual at all. I could feel her hugging me tightly wanting reassurance that I eagerly gave back to her. She relaxed a moment later and looked up at me and asked me "are you turned right now?" and when I nodded yes she asked me "do you need anything from me?". I was confused and I asked her what she meant and she looked at me and said she wanted this to be good for me and said that she figured I would be horny right now and that if I needed to have her or needed to be sexual with her that she wanted to know. I told her that I knew she wasn't to be mine and that I would take care of myself when I needed to. She hugged me and I whispered in her ear "the fact that you are probably all wet from him has me so horny". She looked at me with her eyes open wide not sure what I was saying until I just said calmly "I'll just have to wait till next week, won't I?". Her eyes widened even more and it took her a second before she hugged me back even more tightly than before.

Peak - yes, it was. And what she's shared with me since is that this is more of what she had wanted in terms of sex and inter-play between us. As I said, and can now see and feel more tangibly, she did not want to go to the extremes that I had asked her to with me and now that I see it more clearly - I understand that this is more of what she has wanted. As she put it, to be able to tease me about it a lot more. And she admits now too that seeing how I am when I know that I'll be having her - she admits that she is enjoying that immensely - including her teasing me yesterday to the point that I told her I needed to jerk-off and she smiled and offered to "let you see me if you want to" and when I nodded yes - she seemed almost eager to strip off her pants and panties and "let you see where Paul gets to cum ....".

We talked pretty openly as I got undressed and she smiled when she saw how hard I was. She asked me if I hadn't jerked off while she was with Paul the day before and I told her that I'd wanted to make it better and had hoped that maybe we'd have some fun as it turned out we were. She asked me to tell me how I felt and I told her honestly how horny it made me to not only have heard a little from Saturday but to now be seeing her like she was. She told me she loved how hard and big my cock looked and "how you already know you just have to wait for me". I told her what I'd long been saying but at the moment it felt intensely arousing to tell her that I loved seeing her pussy and knowing she was probably still wet from him. She let me watch as she stuck a finger deep into her pussy and she brought out and offered it to me and said "you tell me". It was so erotic to lick her finger and to yes, taste the definite tang of his cum. She smiled as I nodded and said yes.

I told her how knowing I was going to wait to have her was really turning me on and she smiled and let out a soft moan when I told her that when she saw him again later this week that it was going to make me want her even more. She taunted me about "feeling him when he cums...." and ".... how warm...." it makes her feel. And it honestly felt good when I was able to say that I hoped he fills her up with his cum just a few moments before we both knew I was about to cum. She moved over and at the last minute she reached out and held my balls just as I started to cum and she moaned how she loved to feel them when I "or Paul" starts to cum.

LOL - it has been a hectic period of time for sure as again, companies are looking to make cuts and decisions need to be made.
All of which actually worked well within our personal lives because with this preoccupation with work, my mind is far from sex and that's somewhat helped things.

To answer Peak's earlier question about Pauls expectations regarding having things gone too far. Sue says she's been very honest with him including, as I'd earlier discussed, him being aware of her intentional escalation early last month. As she said, "sure he liked all the sex" but in the end, she said that even he admitted that perhaps "less is more" and I asked her what that meant and she merely answered that like she and I, that they too are finding their way and she indicated to me that Paul continues to not view her as "mate material". She says that they've talked about it and that he still says that she has spoiled him for other women, but that he has asked her about how she would feel if he started seeing other women at times. Granted this was after our redirection so perhaps it is his response to it. She looked at me and told me that the only thing she asked of him was that he keep her safe healthwise. I am not prying further into this because it seems she's handled it herself so far.

For me - I filled my second condom with her this past weekend and I have to honestly say that it was probably the best and most intense sex I've had with her in a long time. The more open teasing and arousing between us during foreplay and while we're fucking is intense when we can both get into it including her continuing to openly tease me about how wet her pussy is and how Paul gets to cum in her and "you don't baby" - just hearing her say that and knowing how she intends it - to turn me on - is amazing and she again held the condom up afterwards and implored me to look at it - and I do have to say myself - there is a LOT of cum in there. Of course she never misses the occasion to rub it in how it's too bad "all that cum" from me wasn't in her.

and if I'd have to say that there's one thing that's come out of this that is quite amazing is just how relaxed and more open and fun we can be about this now, as she says, "it's our thing that we do together". I told her honestly that it was probably one of the most intense orgasms I'd felt with her in a long long time. She cooed about how it turned her on to know she'd done that for me and then of course added that she "didn't want 'all that' in me".

Gotta run

LOL - winter isn't over yet and we are contemplating a trip away, just the 2 of us, either this weekend or next to get one last bit of skiing in before the warm weather takes over for good. But the 2 of them will still likely still have time away together as I am sure she will want to accompany him on a golf-weekend if she can. I guess it wont' surprise anyone here if I say that a part of me still wants her to do so. Even now with our somewhat resumed sexual interaction, I still thoroughly enjoy knowing how she shares herself with him and I do want her to have him come and stay over our house at least a few more times in the next month+ until one or both of our kids return home for the summer.

Work in the IT industry is and always will be a perpetual challenge so this is nothing new in that sense, but it is mentally consuming to the point that it does dampen any sexual ardor I may have. On the positive side, we are very close, if not there already, to being financially comfortable that we could entertain retirement even at this age - so while others have fear and trepidation, we look at it with curious interest.

Well, she is out with him tonight and I don't expect her home for another few hours.
We talked a lot last night as I masturbated with her - yes - with her. She admitted she was horny for him tonight and told me that "I'll play a little while I watch you". I didn't hear her really climax hard but I did hear her moan softly when I started to cum. But it was really nice - it feels strange to say it - but perhaps it's even easier to talk as I loved feeling comfortable enough to tell her that I couldn't wait to jerk-off with her watching me.

She teased me about how he was going to fuck her tonight and I told her honestly that I liked knowing that. And as I said, it just felt really nice to tell her that. We talked about how we were both feeling and I told her that I had loved having sex with her and making love with her as we did - she smiled when I told her that I felt it was one of the most satisfying times too. I think she too feels more comfortable now too knowing and feeling more secure and comfortable in how we are together. I was hard already and she had slid off her panties as she told me how it turned her on to see how much cum was in the condom. It will sound weird to say that this was a very close moment for us as she had the most beautiful look on her face as I told her that what we were doing "felt good to me". I can't recall our exact conversation but it included her telling me several times how much it turned her on "now that you don't cum in me any more" and in turn - my god was my cock hard and dripping away as I told her how erotic it was to me that "only your lover will leave his cum in you". I don't know if I'm conveying how erotic it was to be talking like this with her but it was amazing to me to feel so comfortable about it. Her fingers were between her legs by this point and as I said, when I finally did cum I am sure she did too.

Afterwards we talked about her seeing him tonight and she repeated how horny she was for him and joked with me that maybe I'd gotten her started-up on Sunday. She told me so many times that she loved me and that I needn't worry or be concerned about her and when I asked she confirmed and took some time to explain to me that she feels better about how things are with Paul and that she can "put things in their proper place". I asked her what that meant and she explained as she got ready for bed that she just felt better about how she felt about Paul since we changed things back. When she got in bed I hugged her and we kissed and I told her that I was turned on thinking about her enjoying him tonight. She turned back towards me and kissed me back and reached down and felt my cock was getting hard again and she asked me if I needed to jerk-off again (and she added that she she loved that I was hard again thinking about her) and I told her honestly that I was going to wait till Thursday night (tonight) so I can enjoy myself while she's with him. She kissed me again and told me that she loved hearing me tell her that.

Unfortunately I had to leave before her this morning so I didn't get a chance to see what she picked out to wear.

LOL, yes, amongst other things. She did not see him this weekend as she'd hoped as he called her on Friday and said that he was invited on a golf-weekend with the weather having cleared for Saturday and today was beautiful.

It isn't my week for sex with her and she was quite open with me earlier when she told me I should "ignore what you hear later" and she told me that she planned on using "several of my toys" and she giggled that "after I'm done with Jim" that I can come to bed. She hasn't teased me about "Jim" her favorite dildo in a long time - I laughed and told her I hoped he was as good as she remembered and she giggled and said "it hasn't been that long honey....". So hot to hear that she still masturbates with her toys when I'm not around or maybe even when I'm asleep next to her.

Peak - we've talked about this, Sue and I, and she continues to tell me that if what we're doing turns me on that I shouldn't think twice about it and that we should both just enjoy it and not over-think things. I agree that once every other week is possibly a bit less frequent than I would probably like - but at the same time I can so feel the need and desire building already for next weekend that it is incredibly fulfilling to feel that.

She's very content right now too agreeing that if using condoms with her is what I need to put the cuckold/denial edge on sex with her, then so be it. Of course, as she giggles and reminds me, it affects me more than it does her! But we have talked about it and she seems to totally understand that I need to feel that there is something that she gives to Paul and withholds from me - and yes, for me it needs to be something intimate. As she's said and repeated, my arousal and satisfaction is part of what drives and pushes her to fulfill my desire and pretend, or to truly feel, that she doesn't want me to cum in her either.

I know it seems weird to be saying this, but at the same time.... I posted this before here - that I used to look at some of the cuckold postings/rantings/stories/experiences and I would always wonder how someone would let themselves be put in such a position - and even more so - to read about how a cuckold could feel satisfied. But now I truly feel it and am experiencing it. It feels strange to say it but giving up something sexual with her seems to have invigorated how I feel and how I feel pleasure and satisfaction. I would surely love to - and hope one day to still have the opportunity to - feel her body bare and raw and wet and hot and sticky - and to leave her with my own semen oozing out of her most sexual orifice. But for right now - my god I wish I could explain how empowering it feels to have sacrificed that for right now - and yes - I'll even say it - possibly for good. It scares me to say that but at the same time I know how I am feeling and I know how she is feeling. The thought that perhaps we will always use condoms from here out is intense to think about. That we have now settled in on using them for the foreseeable future - with yes, special occasions excepted - is something I seem to feel quite strongly about - and I would even say almost more strongly about now that we have settled in that this is where the edge will be for us.

Anyway - I am rambling. It was beautiful to see her last night as she got herself started. Her fingers glistening with both lube and her own wetness were just gorgeous. She got herself to a few smaller orgasms before she let me watch her with Jim but she asked me to leave her alone while she finished herself off. I know she likely used her other, smaller toy, in her ass - she has told me that she plays with herself like that but that she's reluctant to let me watch when she's really into it and really horny so I just have to enjoy the pic I have of her from long ago of her masturbating with her earlier favorite toy.

More later perhaps.