I've continued this from here: http://slutwives.com/index.php?threads/new-year-new-thread.72390/page-57 Peak - I'll share that my own surprise has been that I truly felt that I couldn't and didn't want to wait till Monday to have her. For me, it was nice to feel that and know that there are apparently some limits that I have or some points that I am pushed to that I feel the need to respond in a non-beta way. And it is surely going to lead me to question her - likely tomorrow evening - about our ski-weekends and my newfound desire and need to have her afterwards and not likely to be able to wait after both weekends with a month in-between. So for me - it's revealed to me that while I thoroughly enjoy the beta status, that I still have some desires in there!!!! I understand what you are saying and you are correct, I know that while she enjoyed the sex with me, that it was mainly/more-for me and my enjoyment than hers. In the larger scheme of things, you are also correct that this is more like a grain of sand compared to a whole beach, but it does remain a physical connection between us, despite the infrequency. I took her question to be more of asking me to re-confirm my desire and need rose to the level of deviating from what we'd talked about even with the knowledge I had of how she was likely to have felt. I also felt that she asked because given the choice, she would have preferred me to have waited as we had talked - although I admit to being incredibly aroused at how she felt after having been with him that much (I think she also may have preferred to have had a bit less of a hangover maybe). I am honestly not sure how I am feeling. I mean as you said - if I cannot tolerate being denied after the way I anticipate her being - then it will likely be more than just 6 or so times this year. And honestly, I'm not sure how I feel about that as a part of me had truly wanted to be denied and yet - I also know how I felt and what I needed so - unclear about just what direction things are going to head in just yet. It remains an ever changing adventure as I think we are both still learning a lot about what we each want and need.