Ex-girlfriend went black....serious questions
I'm not sure where to start on this so I'll just go from the beginning. A few months ago, I started going out with this gorgeous blond Taylor. I'm not sure what I did to deserve her, she looks like a human Barbie doll. She has a beautiful face, nice breast, and absolutely world-class ass. I am a decent looking guy and all, but I knew immediately she was way out of my league.
I was so happy to be with her, I really treated her like a queen. Made dinner all the time, always took her to shows, etc. I really couldn't stand to be away from her. Every part of our relationship seemed great.
One of the only uncomfortable parts started about a month in. On the weekends, she started wanting to party with a crowd I didnt feel comfortable with. It was at this guy Ty's house, who was an older black guy. I had partied before, but these guys would drink and smoke up all weekend long.
I argued to her that this was a bad crowd, and people we didn't want to get involved with. But she and her best friend Britney said i was just overreacting, and they were good guys. I didn't really like going there, but I eventually sucked it up and figured, well free beer can't be all that bad.
Before long I noticed that Ty would flirt with Taylor obviously in front of me. At first I made an issue of it, but she told me it was nothing to worry about--I was the one she was dating.
Well, a long story short, about a month later, she suddenly breaks it off with me, and tells me some bs about she's just not ready for a steady relationship.
I continued to hang out at Ty's, hoping that Me and Taylor would get back together. Then one night, Ty comes up to me and tells me to leave--that I make Taylor uncomfortable. And I'm thinking--what the hell? I'm the one that used to date her....you're the shady one here. But I wasn't about to fight Ty, so I just left pissed off.
Well, it wasn't long before I find out that Taylor started dating Ty--a mere two weeks after we broke up. A first I was angry, and my immediate reaction was to go after Britney, her best friend, to get back at her. Britney had flirted with me even when I dated Taylor, so I knew she was attracted to me.
This plan was quickly shot down when I discovered that Britney began dating one of Ty's best friends--another black guy. Seeing the two couples together, I didn't understand it. Why would two pretty white girls be dating rude, black thugs? I treated Taylor like a queen, and those guys treat their girls like shit. It didn't make sense.
Over the course of weeks, my anger towards Taylor dating Ty has turned into arousal. I don't know why...I still can't explain it, but the slight of that little blond girl next to that black asshole Ty turns me on. I have found myself picturing them together, visualizing scernarios....I almost can't get them out of my head.
The other day I saw them together, and they saw me. Ty whispered something in Taylor's ear, and they both laughed. I just stood there watching, again with some disbelief. As they walked away, I saw Ty's big black hand reach down and squeeze Taylor's little bubble ass. Just the sight of that was so incredible--I couldn't take my eyes of it. Ty turned around, caught me nearly with my mouth open and laughed cruely. I would have cried if I didn't find it so arousing.
My question is....Why do I find this a turn-on? At first I was so pissed I couldn't stand it. Now suddenly, its the biggest turn-on I can imagine. Is it me wanting what I can no longer have? I don't understand why this is such a big turn on for me.
Also, why is she interested in him? On the outside, he just seems like a thug. She even seems to almost hate me now--even though I did nothing but good for her.
Here is a small picture of us when were together. I have a few others if anyone is interested.
I'm not sure where to start on this so I'll just go from the beginning. A few months ago, I started going out with this gorgeous blond Taylor. I'm not sure what I did to deserve her, she looks like a human Barbie doll. She has a beautiful face, nice breast, and absolutely world-class ass. I am a decent looking guy and all, but I knew immediately she was way out of my league.
I was so happy to be with her, I really treated her like a queen. Made dinner all the time, always took her to shows, etc. I really couldn't stand to be away from her. Every part of our relationship seemed great.
One of the only uncomfortable parts started about a month in. On the weekends, she started wanting to party with a crowd I didnt feel comfortable with. It was at this guy Ty's house, who was an older black guy. I had partied before, but these guys would drink and smoke up all weekend long.
I argued to her that this was a bad crowd, and people we didn't want to get involved with. But she and her best friend Britney said i was just overreacting, and they were good guys. I didn't really like going there, but I eventually sucked it up and figured, well free beer can't be all that bad.
Before long I noticed that Ty would flirt with Taylor obviously in front of me. At first I made an issue of it, but she told me it was nothing to worry about--I was the one she was dating.
Well, a long story short, about a month later, she suddenly breaks it off with me, and tells me some bs about she's just not ready for a steady relationship.
I continued to hang out at Ty's, hoping that Me and Taylor would get back together. Then one night, Ty comes up to me and tells me to leave--that I make Taylor uncomfortable. And I'm thinking--what the hell? I'm the one that used to date her....you're the shady one here. But I wasn't about to fight Ty, so I just left pissed off.
Well, it wasn't long before I find out that Taylor started dating Ty--a mere two weeks after we broke up. A first I was angry, and my immediate reaction was to go after Britney, her best friend, to get back at her. Britney had flirted with me even when I dated Taylor, so I knew she was attracted to me.
This plan was quickly shot down when I discovered that Britney began dating one of Ty's best friends--another black guy. Seeing the two couples together, I didn't understand it. Why would two pretty white girls be dating rude, black thugs? I treated Taylor like a queen, and those guys treat their girls like shit. It didn't make sense.
Over the course of weeks, my anger towards Taylor dating Ty has turned into arousal. I don't know why...I still can't explain it, but the slight of that little blond girl next to that black asshole Ty turns me on. I have found myself picturing them together, visualizing scernarios....I almost can't get them out of my head.
The other day I saw them together, and they saw me. Ty whispered something in Taylor's ear, and they both laughed. I just stood there watching, again with some disbelief. As they walked away, I saw Ty's big black hand reach down and squeeze Taylor's little bubble ass. Just the sight of that was so incredible--I couldn't take my eyes of it. Ty turned around, caught me nearly with my mouth open and laughed cruely. I would have cried if I didn't find it so arousing.
My question is....Why do I find this a turn-on? At first I was so pissed I couldn't stand it. Now suddenly, its the biggest turn-on I can imagine. Is it me wanting what I can no longer have? I don't understand why this is such a big turn on for me.
Also, why is she interested in him? On the outside, he just seems like a thug. She even seems to almost hate me now--even though I did nothing but good for her.
Here is a small picture of us when were together. I have a few others if anyone is interested.
