The following is something that I've just realized and come to terms with. I'm going to post it here so I stop pestering everyone in chat with it lol. It is related to my theory that white dads getting mad when their daughters become black cock sluts because it makes their little dicks hard.
When I was 11 or 12 which is normally the age when one develops their sexual turn-ons. For me it was when I first started getting erections. I didn't know what they were at first but they sure felt good. At the same time my 17 year old sister started fucking black guys. Older black guys, trouble makers, thugs. These guys were fucking other white girls and not hiding it. In other words these girls were hooked on those big black dicks.
One night my sister sneaked two of these black boys into her room to fuck. I could hear everything through the wall while in my own bed. My little white dick got so hard, so hard it seemed like it was going to burst. This as far as I can remember was the first real boner I'd ever had. I didn't understand why it was happening, it was my sister but the sounds she was making and the things they were saying to her were so hot. I could hear their bodies slapping together violently. It sounded like they were going to come through the wall the way the headboard was banging off of it and I've never heard a bed squeak that way. It seemed to go on for hours. She literally begged for that "nigga dick", I heard her telling them that she was "a black cock slut", "your little white slut" and "I love black dick". They called her slut and ***** you name it. I masturbated for the first time that night. I came so hard, I was so ashamed and confused. After that night I would get so hard when I thought about it or when she would go out wearing a short skirt and sexy stockings, always stockings. My parents eventually had to put her on the pill. I would sniff her used panties and pantyhose and jerk off with them, they were covered in dried cum I'll never forget that smell it was so amazing to me. I thought that what I heard that night was what sex was going to be like how it was supposed to sound, how long it was supposed to last and how the girl would act boy was I mistaken.
She would tell me that black dicks were bigger and better than white dicks, that black guys were hotter and could fuck better. I don't think she knew how it would affect my sexual development. Every night I would lay in my bed hoping she'd sneak black guys in. People around town and in school would talk about her as a black cock slut and I'd get hard. She would put her pantyhose covered feet in my lap in a sisterly way and I'd get hard. All her clothes became tight and sexy and I got hard. I'd hear her and her friends talking about black guys and their big dicks and fucking them and I'd get hard.
My father was really pissed about it which I saw as a normal reaction albeit a little racist. For some reason it was different because they were black. I mean it drove him crazy, but he would never stop her from going out looking like a slut, never seemed to hear the violent fucking that was going on in his house at night. Years later when I found his interracial porn stash I understood it was because his dick was getting hard just like mine. She moved out after she graduated and I must have blocked it all out because as I got older I realized how wrong it was to be turned on by your sister and how unaccepted it was to be turned on by black guys fucking her.
In high school I suddenly found myself turned on by pantyhose, all kinds, I loved it when girls wore them and teachers. Then a white girl would start fucking black guys and I'd get turned on and it all came back to me. I was embarrassed, I was ashamed but it didn't change the fact that these things turned me on. Girlfriends cheated with black guys and I got hard. I always secretly liked the scene in the porno with the big black dick. I would secretly hook up with the biggest black cock slut at school because I liked how she acted and how her pussy tasted. Then the internet came along and blew my mind, I know what I'm into and why I'm into it. I still struggle with feelings of shame and embarrassment about my attraction to interracial sex and pantyhose but I'm getting better. One day I hope to have a gf or wife who fucks those big black dicks wearing a pair of stockings while I watch lol. I feel like I know where it all started now.
When I was 11 or 12 which is normally the age when one develops their sexual turn-ons. For me it was when I first started getting erections. I didn't know what they were at first but they sure felt good. At the same time my 17 year old sister started fucking black guys. Older black guys, trouble makers, thugs. These guys were fucking other white girls and not hiding it. In other words these girls were hooked on those big black dicks.
One night my sister sneaked two of these black boys into her room to fuck. I could hear everything through the wall while in my own bed. My little white dick got so hard, so hard it seemed like it was going to burst. This as far as I can remember was the first real boner I'd ever had. I didn't understand why it was happening, it was my sister but the sounds she was making and the things they were saying to her were so hot. I could hear their bodies slapping together violently. It sounded like they were going to come through the wall the way the headboard was banging off of it and I've never heard a bed squeak that way. It seemed to go on for hours. She literally begged for that "nigga dick", I heard her telling them that she was "a black cock slut", "your little white slut" and "I love black dick". They called her slut and ***** you name it. I masturbated for the first time that night. I came so hard, I was so ashamed and confused. After that night I would get so hard when I thought about it or when she would go out wearing a short skirt and sexy stockings, always stockings. My parents eventually had to put her on the pill. I would sniff her used panties and pantyhose and jerk off with them, they were covered in dried cum I'll never forget that smell it was so amazing to me. I thought that what I heard that night was what sex was going to be like how it was supposed to sound, how long it was supposed to last and how the girl would act boy was I mistaken.
She would tell me that black dicks were bigger and better than white dicks, that black guys were hotter and could fuck better. I don't think she knew how it would affect my sexual development. Every night I would lay in my bed hoping she'd sneak black guys in. People around town and in school would talk about her as a black cock slut and I'd get hard. She would put her pantyhose covered feet in my lap in a sisterly way and I'd get hard. All her clothes became tight and sexy and I got hard. I'd hear her and her friends talking about black guys and their big dicks and fucking them and I'd get hard.
My father was really pissed about it which I saw as a normal reaction albeit a little racist. For some reason it was different because they were black. I mean it drove him crazy, but he would never stop her from going out looking like a slut, never seemed to hear the violent fucking that was going on in his house at night. Years later when I found his interracial porn stash I understood it was because his dick was getting hard just like mine. She moved out after she graduated and I must have blocked it all out because as I got older I realized how wrong it was to be turned on by your sister and how unaccepted it was to be turned on by black guys fucking her.
In high school I suddenly found myself turned on by pantyhose, all kinds, I loved it when girls wore them and teachers. Then a white girl would start fucking black guys and I'd get turned on and it all came back to me. I was embarrassed, I was ashamed but it didn't change the fact that these things turned me on. Girlfriends cheated with black guys and I got hard. I always secretly liked the scene in the porno with the big black dick. I would secretly hook up with the biggest black cock slut at school because I liked how she acted and how her pussy tasted. Then the internet came along and blew my mind, I know what I'm into and why I'm into it. I still struggle with feelings of shame and embarrassment about my attraction to interracial sex and pantyhose but I'm getting better. One day I hope to have a gf or wife who fucks those big black dicks wearing a pair of stockings while I watch lol. I feel like I know where it all started now.
