I think I'm getting whiplash
It has been a few months since my wife asked/told her lover to leave our home. It was thought that things would calm down between us, and things might have a chance to return to some level of normalcy. Within a couple of weeks of his departure, she announced that she wanted to find a new mate. Bobby was still consuming her thoughts and she felt the best way to deal with that was to find a quick replacement. And to a great extent Bobby was consuming my thoughts too, as I'm obviously still reeling from the past 21 months. But at the same time, when considering how things went down, let's just say that I'm feeling a little skittish.
To explain, I mean I want to be her cuckold, but I need time to process things a bit. Because at this point all I know is that Kristi did everything we had agreed NOT to do. She pushed every limit, ignored anything I had to say, and eventually shut me out of her sex life, right up till Bobby left for good. And this isn't the first time she has taken things too the extreme. There is a definite pattern here.
To complicate matters, I think that's what makes me so hot for her. Like a jealous-adrenalized, biological sex reflex...
Anyway, what's different is less about what she did, than about what I did. I let it happen. Of course I complained, stomped my feet, etc. but at the end of each day, Kristi gave her self to Bobby, and there was not much I could say that was going change what was happy in front of my very eyes. So I could either leave, with my dignity and manhood intact, or stay and prove to her and Bobby how pathetic of a man I really am.
Now, in the past, when things have gotten out of hand with Kristi, I have left. These events have always been a wake up call to her that she has lost control, which has been followed by 6 months of great make-up sex and a reinvigorated marriage. Albeit an emotionally painful experience, we have always come out stronger and more committed to one another. This time I opted out of the pain of separation, and replaced it with the pain/arousal of humiliation. This time, there has been no 6 months of make-up sex. No second honeymoon, no break from the lifestyle. Instead, this time it's a cuckoldress and her cuck.
But I digress....
Seeing that I was a bit reluctant to dive right back in to all this, she suggested that I start revisiting all the forums I have been trolling for years. Her reasons... Well, she says I play the part of a submissive cuck a lot better. And she is right for the most part, even if I'm simply writing on my lj. So I started surfing the forums again, looking at cuckold porn, etc. to the point of wanting to explode. It wasn't but a matter of days before I was so gacked-out on porn and our little bedtime chats, that I was already willing to agree to anything. Like a bitch agree, without objection, and she just smirks...
A few days later she finally informs me that she has found a suitable date, her boss at her new job. Despite her being married, she informs me that her boss has made it crystal clear that not only could he care less that she is married, but in fact, makes it that much harder to resist her. Of course I see Red flags immediately, but that only makes my arousal that much more powerful; something she doesn't fail to notice. As such, she releases her hand from my raging hard-on, bounces off the bed with her purse and keys and announces that she'll "be out late, no objections, no questions and that all would be revealed."
At 200 AM I get a text from Kristi saying - "Need more, b home l8tr ." I was not happy, I was tired and I felt like I had been ambushed, I think I had cum like 10xs already...lol. I was ready for the finale, i.e. her home in bed with me. But alas, I'm stirred in my sleep, and awakened to my drunken wife placing her dripping pussy squarely over my face. Its obvious that she has been fucked, her pussy gaping, and wet with a mixture of cum. Like I good cuck I lick her, suck her, bite her clit, and just when she begins to cum, she grabs ahold of my cock, tugs three times making me cum, and then grinds on my face till she has finished her climax.
The next morning she was cheerful and enegertic. It was a breath of fresh air. But after that morning, not much else was said about the night. I was too much of a pussy to say anything and didn't want an obvious good mood into a melncholoy. But despite her initial reaction, a few days after their encounter Kristi informs me that she thinks she has had a change of heart about the cuckolding. Her reasons: "she is getting older, she wants to settle down, this lifestyle is a distraction, and though she likes sex, she is a one-man woman."
To prove her change of heart, she finally relents to us having sex again. And as always, she is absolutely insatiable. I was like, "Hooray!" I get my 6 months of make up sex! After being a cuck for so long, I feel ready for another chance to settle down. Blow jobs in the shower, fucking on the dining room table, and after everything, it was surreal! But, within two weeks I went from being her lover again, fucking her every night, two or three times a night, to being "an ungrateful nuisance, who wants his wife to get him off, even though he can't get her off. And being a pussy licker doesn't count! So what's the point? Right?" She was clearly frustrated, she just looked at me and glared, gritting her teeth in what could only be described as contempt, she growls, "you're one stupid fucking cuckold." A statement that wouldn't alarm me, except that she was clearly angry. But again refuses to make sense...
So it wasn't a surprise when yesterday evening I get a call from her saying that she is going out for drinks with her team after work. My heart sinks and my cock is immediately erect. She had a change of heart about her change of heart. Which meant she was going out with Tim, and "the team". The whole time I'm wondering if they all know what's going on. I haven't met any of these people so I can only guess what she has told them. Shit, I wonder if they even know she is married.
Regardless, of all the thoughts, I simply replied, "as long as you call or text to let me know you are all right." She says, "no problem, and that she will even call to let me listen." Score! Now, I'm excited, and completely distracted from work. The kids are with their grandparents for one more week before school starts. This is perfect timing! I decide to leave work early and get home, so I can get on yahoo and start chatting about the upcoming evening. Any reservations or misgivings I have are put on hold. Hours go by, nothing, no text no call...
12 AM, 1 AM, 2 AM, nothing! Now, I'm getting worried. I know none of these people, no way to get a hold of anyone and Kristi is not returning my texts or calls. At 3 AM she texts. "Sorry, I'm fine! All is good. Home l8tr." Followed by another text. "Sorry I can't help myself, but I do luv u." No call, no more texts. The last I remember it was 5Am and she still wasn't home. I awoke this morning at 10:30 to find her trying to pack a bag while I slept.
I'm like, "what the fuck is going on?" To which she replies, "I have to get back to Tim's."
Why?
Without responding she just sits down on the edge of the bed and the flood gates just come unleashed. Literally sobbing she explains how she wants a normal marriage, that she loves me and doesnt want to loose me, that she is sorry for everything that she has put me and the kids through, she is sorry for being a slut, and a liar. Come to find out Tim and Kristi 4 days after she started her new job, and continued even while pretending to be turning over a new leaf. She felt guilty and said that I didnt deserve the way she has treated me. With all this outpouring I lost it and begged her to stay, professing my love for her, pointing out my wrongs to try and make her feel better.
But even after several hours of much needed catharsis, and reassurance that I'm not mad and still committed, she looks at me and informs me that she has to go. Tim is waiting... She kissed me on the forehead and says she'll be back, that she loved me and thank you.
And I guess as a reward for my submissiveness. I got my first phone call, I guess Tim agreed. It was pure animal lust on the other end of the line. After they finished Kristi talked to me so more, to try and ease all the stress. She tried to make me feel better, and was very sweet, but that I was a cuckold and if I could stay happy with her as her cuckold then she could be happy with me as her husband.
Right then, I came... And now, well now I wait till she returns. But something tells me she won't be able to stay away from home too long. Fuck she is the hottest evil bitch I have ever encountered and despite the drama, I love her all the more for it.
Then again, I wouldn't doubt yet another change of heart before the week is out...
It has been a few months since my wife asked/told her lover to leave our home. It was thought that things would calm down between us, and things might have a chance to return to some level of normalcy. Within a couple of weeks of his departure, she announced that she wanted to find a new mate. Bobby was still consuming her thoughts and she felt the best way to deal with that was to find a quick replacement. And to a great extent Bobby was consuming my thoughts too, as I'm obviously still reeling from the past 21 months. But at the same time, when considering how things went down, let's just say that I'm feeling a little skittish.
To explain, I mean I want to be her cuckold, but I need time to process things a bit. Because at this point all I know is that Kristi did everything we had agreed NOT to do. She pushed every limit, ignored anything I had to say, and eventually shut me out of her sex life, right up till Bobby left for good. And this isn't the first time she has taken things too the extreme. There is a definite pattern here.
To complicate matters, I think that's what makes me so hot for her. Like a jealous-adrenalized, biological sex reflex...
Anyway, what's different is less about what she did, than about what I did. I let it happen. Of course I complained, stomped my feet, etc. but at the end of each day, Kristi gave her self to Bobby, and there was not much I could say that was going change what was happy in front of my very eyes. So I could either leave, with my dignity and manhood intact, or stay and prove to her and Bobby how pathetic of a man I really am.
Now, in the past, when things have gotten out of hand with Kristi, I have left. These events have always been a wake up call to her that she has lost control, which has been followed by 6 months of great make-up sex and a reinvigorated marriage. Albeit an emotionally painful experience, we have always come out stronger and more committed to one another. This time I opted out of the pain of separation, and replaced it with the pain/arousal of humiliation. This time, there has been no 6 months of make-up sex. No second honeymoon, no break from the lifestyle. Instead, this time it's a cuckoldress and her cuck.
But I digress....
Seeing that I was a bit reluctant to dive right back in to all this, she suggested that I start revisiting all the forums I have been trolling for years. Her reasons... Well, she says I play the part of a submissive cuck a lot better. And she is right for the most part, even if I'm simply writing on my lj. So I started surfing the forums again, looking at cuckold porn, etc. to the point of wanting to explode. It wasn't but a matter of days before I was so gacked-out on porn and our little bedtime chats, that I was already willing to agree to anything. Like a bitch agree, without objection, and she just smirks...
A few days later she finally informs me that she has found a suitable date, her boss at her new job. Despite her being married, she informs me that her boss has made it crystal clear that not only could he care less that she is married, but in fact, makes it that much harder to resist her. Of course I see Red flags immediately, but that only makes my arousal that much more powerful; something she doesn't fail to notice. As such, she releases her hand from my raging hard-on, bounces off the bed with her purse and keys and announces that she'll "be out late, no objections, no questions and that all would be revealed."
At 200 AM I get a text from Kristi saying - "Need more, b home l8tr ." I was not happy, I was tired and I felt like I had been ambushed, I think I had cum like 10xs already...lol. I was ready for the finale, i.e. her home in bed with me. But alas, I'm stirred in my sleep, and awakened to my drunken wife placing her dripping pussy squarely over my face. Its obvious that she has been fucked, her pussy gaping, and wet with a mixture of cum. Like I good cuck I lick her, suck her, bite her clit, and just when she begins to cum, she grabs ahold of my cock, tugs three times making me cum, and then grinds on my face till she has finished her climax.
The next morning she was cheerful and enegertic. It was a breath of fresh air. But after that morning, not much else was said about the night. I was too much of a pussy to say anything and didn't want an obvious good mood into a melncholoy. But despite her initial reaction, a few days after their encounter Kristi informs me that she thinks she has had a change of heart about the cuckolding. Her reasons: "she is getting older, she wants to settle down, this lifestyle is a distraction, and though she likes sex, she is a one-man woman."
To prove her change of heart, she finally relents to us having sex again. And as always, she is absolutely insatiable. I was like, "Hooray!" I get my 6 months of make up sex! After being a cuck for so long, I feel ready for another chance to settle down. Blow jobs in the shower, fucking on the dining room table, and after everything, it was surreal! But, within two weeks I went from being her lover again, fucking her every night, two or three times a night, to being "an ungrateful nuisance, who wants his wife to get him off, even though he can't get her off. And being a pussy licker doesn't count! So what's the point? Right?" She was clearly frustrated, she just looked at me and glared, gritting her teeth in what could only be described as contempt, she growls, "you're one stupid fucking cuckold." A statement that wouldn't alarm me, except that she was clearly angry. But again refuses to make sense...
So it wasn't a surprise when yesterday evening I get a call from her saying that she is going out for drinks with her team after work. My heart sinks and my cock is immediately erect. She had a change of heart about her change of heart. Which meant she was going out with Tim, and "the team". The whole time I'm wondering if they all know what's going on. I haven't met any of these people so I can only guess what she has told them. Shit, I wonder if they even know she is married.
Regardless, of all the thoughts, I simply replied, "as long as you call or text to let me know you are all right." She says, "no problem, and that she will even call to let me listen." Score! Now, I'm excited, and completely distracted from work. The kids are with their grandparents for one more week before school starts. This is perfect timing! I decide to leave work early and get home, so I can get on yahoo and start chatting about the upcoming evening. Any reservations or misgivings I have are put on hold. Hours go by, nothing, no text no call...
12 AM, 1 AM, 2 AM, nothing! Now, I'm getting worried. I know none of these people, no way to get a hold of anyone and Kristi is not returning my texts or calls. At 3 AM she texts. "Sorry, I'm fine! All is good. Home l8tr." Followed by another text. "Sorry I can't help myself, but I do luv u." No call, no more texts. The last I remember it was 5Am and she still wasn't home. I awoke this morning at 10:30 to find her trying to pack a bag while I slept.
I'm like, "what the fuck is going on?" To which she replies, "I have to get back to Tim's."
Why?
Without responding she just sits down on the edge of the bed and the flood gates just come unleashed. Literally sobbing she explains how she wants a normal marriage, that she loves me and doesnt want to loose me, that she is sorry for everything that she has put me and the kids through, she is sorry for being a slut, and a liar. Come to find out Tim and Kristi 4 days after she started her new job, and continued even while pretending to be turning over a new leaf. She felt guilty and said that I didnt deserve the way she has treated me. With all this outpouring I lost it and begged her to stay, professing my love for her, pointing out my wrongs to try and make her feel better.
But even after several hours of much needed catharsis, and reassurance that I'm not mad and still committed, she looks at me and informs me that she has to go. Tim is waiting... She kissed me on the forehead and says she'll be back, that she loved me and thank you.
And I guess as a reward for my submissiveness. I got my first phone call, I guess Tim agreed. It was pure animal lust on the other end of the line. After they finished Kristi talked to me so more, to try and ease all the stress. She tried to make me feel better, and was very sweet, but that I was a cuckold and if I could stay happy with her as her cuckold then she could be happy with me as her husband.
Right then, I came... And now, well now I wait till she returns. But something tells me she won't be able to stay away from home too long. Fuck she is the hottest evil bitch I have ever encountered and despite the drama, I love her all the more for it.
Then again, I wouldn't doubt yet another change of heart before the week is out...
