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If you decide not to tell her, you may have a good relationship for a while, but you will end up hiding your thoughts and desires. On the other hand, if you do tell her and she acts on your desires and decides to cuckold you, you may not be able to take it well. Life is full of chances and opportunities. Take a chance once in a while.
Any relationship is based on communication, but especially a hotwife/cuckold relationship. Without the communication there is no trust. If this is something you want, you're going to have to work on your communiccation. I think you should tell her how you feel. What really turns you on and how insecure you feel about it. Hopefully that will be the beginning of the two of you sharing and communicating on a different level.
If you decide not to tell her, you may have a good relationship for a while, but you will end up hiding your thoughts and desires. On the other hand, if you do tell her and she acts on your desires and decides to cuckold you, you may not be able to take it well. Life is full of chances and opportunities. Take a chance once in a while.