So this will be a bit of a long story. My wife and I have only been married over a year but we have been together for 12 years. We have 2 beautiful children and we are best friends truly. We have had some issues over the years but our greatest was sexual, she described me as boring. The issue has not all been me she is a woman with little confidence so it took her years to be will to try things like receiving oral sex, I can now make her cum consistantly with my mouth and we have several toys. These sexual issues or maybe it was something deeper lead to several incidents of infidelity over the years of a mostly minor nature until recently.
I have had a cuckold fantasy as far back as I can remember in this relationship. I finally mentioned this to her just after our second child was born. We started slowly with talking about it durring sex but about six months later we found a prospect on aff and meet our first Guy in a dirty hotel room. It was hot for both of us and we were hooked. The problem became I wanted to move slow and for now limit her to encounters with me present. She however was being quickly drawn into this world experiencing big boosts of confidence and a feeling of power. She wanted to meet men without me regardless of my lack of consent. Next thing I know she leaves me and spends an evening with one of her guys. The marriage almost ended at that point and we ended up in couples counseling and the next 6+ months we stopped the cuckolding and worked through some shit and for a while we were both very happy.
The sex however was still dry and we were both still interested in the fantasy, so we started again. This time with firm rules and promises to progres slowly. One rule was again nothing without me. I had intended to be more open to her seeing people away from me as things progressed and we became more comfortable in our new roles but I may not have vocalized that. Once again she was quickly sucked back into the life and the power. And with what seemed to me to be with no warning of a change in her she decided to see someone without me. She told me immediatley the next morning (I work nights). She expected me to be turned on by it but I felt just betrayed. By the end of the day she promised to try and salvage things but instead she went out and went home with another subject. At this point we are basically seperated because she disappears eventually ending up at her moms. She is now trying to get me back. But she was gone a week fucking a total of 4 guys while I was left in misery and heartbreak like I have never felt.
She does not come back with out conditions she wants within a year a complete cuckold relationship the ability to fuck who she wants with or with out me. This lifestyle does appeal to me but how can i do this or even stay in a marriqge with a woman i cannot trust. Yet I want her and the family we built so much. I also want to be in the cuckolding world and not sure if any future lover would be ok with it. Any advice would be great. Thank you
I have had a cuckold fantasy as far back as I can remember in this relationship. I finally mentioned this to her just after our second child was born. We started slowly with talking about it durring sex but about six months later we found a prospect on aff and meet our first Guy in a dirty hotel room. It was hot for both of us and we were hooked. The problem became I wanted to move slow and for now limit her to encounters with me present. She however was being quickly drawn into this world experiencing big boosts of confidence and a feeling of power. She wanted to meet men without me regardless of my lack of consent. Next thing I know she leaves me and spends an evening with one of her guys. The marriage almost ended at that point and we ended up in couples counseling and the next 6+ months we stopped the cuckolding and worked through some shit and for a while we were both very happy.
The sex however was still dry and we were both still interested in the fantasy, so we started again. This time with firm rules and promises to progres slowly. One rule was again nothing without me. I had intended to be more open to her seeing people away from me as things progressed and we became more comfortable in our new roles but I may not have vocalized that. Once again she was quickly sucked back into the life and the power. And with what seemed to me to be with no warning of a change in her she decided to see someone without me. She told me immediatley the next morning (I work nights). She expected me to be turned on by it but I felt just betrayed. By the end of the day she promised to try and salvage things but instead she went out and went home with another subject. At this point we are basically seperated because she disappears eventually ending up at her moms. She is now trying to get me back. But she was gone a week fucking a total of 4 guys while I was left in misery and heartbreak like I have never felt.
She does not come back with out conditions she wants within a year a complete cuckold relationship the ability to fuck who she wants with or with out me. This lifestyle does appeal to me but how can i do this or even stay in a marriqge with a woman i cannot trust. Yet I want her and the family we built so much. I also want to be in the cuckolding world and not sure if any future lover would be ok with it. Any advice would be great. Thank you
