Some of you know my story. It has been posted right on this site. I will re-post it here. Tragic but so erotic. I am still so addicted to this lifestyle it really does take over you.
I met my wife when she was in her 20's. She was very mature for her age. I was 12 yrs older than her and divorced and we hit it off right from the start. She was a hot little thing with a very friendly attitude, she was the life of the party. She was a bit of a pot head, but had a good head on her shoulders. I would later find out that she was a bit adventurous, or slutty whatever you want to call it and by age 18 had already been with 30 guys.
So we dated for like 4 years and had one breakup where she ran off with an ex-boyfriend to Jamaica for a week. This is where my feeling of sharing her started I think.
All I could think about was her and her younger ex-boyfriend fucking her every night. Like I said this is where I think my desires to share her started. She came back and we eventually got back together and married. She was 23-24 by then.
I was happy but I still had that fantasy of sharing her. She got lots of attention from men so that helped fuel my fantasy at the time. She got pregnant and we had a child. The fantasy was on hold while she was pregnant. After the baby was born I brought the fantasy up again. She was against it at first but slowly warmed up to the idea.
By this time she was like 25-26 when she started playing with other men. It included men from a young guy who was 19 to an older guy who was in his 50's.
The young guy was not good in bed and it was a one time thing but it broke the ice.
Now the older guy was an interesting scenario. He was a 52 yr old business owner that owned a business right next to a part-time job she had. He was friends with the owner of the place that my wife worked, so he frequently would visit. He had money and would often speak to my wife. He let her drive his new corvette one day and shortly after asked her out on a date and she agreed.
They went out to dinner and to a strip club then to his home. This guy is middle eastern and had a reputation for being a womanizer. I have to tell you this guy was not attractive at all but had that sort of no bullshit attitude about him. This became a regular thing for a while where he would buy her things in exchange for sex.
Now the one thing that really stuck in my mind was that she told me one time that he ripped off his condom and told her don’t worry I wont get you pregnant (she was not on the pill at the time maybe he was fixed). But he came inside her. Something so hot for me to know that an older guy had just cum inside my wife. He was like a sugar-daddy type for her. There was something extremely hot for me knowing that in a way she was being used. This went on for a few months.
Next there was a Latin guy she had like a one time thing with and another guy she met through that same part time job; the other guy was also a one or two time thing.
There was also I guy I introduced her to who was older in his 40's. They never really hit it off but I think he did eat her pussy once.
Oh and I almost forgot through the old sugar-daddy guy she met the owners of a strip club and they offered her a part-time job at the door. She took the job as she thought it would be fun. Shortly after they asked her if she wanted to strip. She never agreed; she said she didn’t have enough self confidence for that.
You know it's funny with no ground rules as we had I never encouraged her to do it. Who knows where that would have led. She only worked at the place for like two weeks.
At this point she decided she wanted to get more career oriented. She got a job working for a governmental agency. It was a big office that housed many departments and had a constant flow of men. While there she met this guy, we will call him J1. He was married but sort of a ladies men. He sort of had a steady thing with her for like a few months. He would follow her home and they would have a quick fuck. This guy was well hung, according to her like 9 inches and she told me once he had a perfect dick.
The one thing that stands out about this guy is that one time I came home and she managed to save his condom with his cum still in it. I was inexperienced and had no idea what to do with it. LOL This went on for a few months but she started to feel bad because he was married and she hated being the other woman.
Then something unexpected happened that caught me off guard but was very hot. There came a time that she had a chance to go for a better job within the same office but working for a contractor for that same office. So she applied for the job and she had to meet with the CEO of the contracting company. He was a black guy in his 40's.
This is what stands out to me. She was to meet this guy at a hotel in the restaurant for the interview. I remember that it took a while and I eventually called her. She answered and said sorry it's taking so long, he is showing me how to negotiate. I thought it was a strange answer but at the time didn't think much of it. Later that day when she came home she said that he asked her to come to his room to sign some papers and that she ended up giving him a blow job.
(So I have to stop here and say isn’t this kind of odd? Why would a CEO of a company take a chance like that unless it was expressed in some way. Am I wrong here? She later said that she felt pushed to do it and later that year he came into town and she did it again with him. According to her only a blow job again. This whole scenario seemed strange. I mean not only what I detailed above but why would he only settle for a blow job. I think more happened. Of course I never pushed for an answer because I just wanted to continue the ride.)
After this there were a couple of other men but they where mostly one time things.
None of the guys knew that I was aware of her playing around. They all thought she was cheating on me. It was easier to find guys that way she did not want to do the bar stranger thing. So at that time I never got to watch. It was her playing on her own and me just hearing the details. This went on for 5 yrs off and on.
At this point I thought I had it made a nice family a young sexy hot wife who was all about our family at home and fucking other men outside the home. By the way no one knew about our lifestyle not her family or mine. We kept it all very discreet.
At some point we had the idea that we should get a guy who could be a steady lover for her; a guy that we could both be friends with and I could watch and participate, as well as be a steady lover for her. So this guy at her work who was a work acquaintance that I knew as well just happens to break up with his girlfriend. That opened the door.
We will call this guy J2. He started talking more to my wife and became a friend of both of us. He would come over the house and I would conveniently go to bed early and take our child to bed and leave them alone in the living room. That of course lec to more.
So we slowly brought him into the lifestyle. I have to tell you he was and may still be a cool dude. Easy to get along with. He was younger than her by 6 years, he was black which was a big fantasy for me and later found out it was a big turn on for her as well.
So he starts hanging out as a friend of the family and that’s how everyone saw him. He would come over to our house when our child was at grandmas and my wife would go to his place other times. I thought I was in heaven. I had never seen my wife react like she did to this guy.
I have to admit he was in much better shape than I was he had a solid body and the way he fucked her OMG, the way he took over her was incredibly hot and shocking in a good way to me. I have to admit however that it did worry me a bit. From the first time I got to watch them together deep down I knew I was in trouble.
With in 2 months it started to get a little out of control; he was fucking her 3-4 times a week. She totally started to fall under a spell. That again was exciting but worried me. She even started to be a bit submissive to him. Most of times she was at his place because we had a child. She would leave work around 5 pm and go to his place and come home many times around midnight.
(Again in retrospect probably not a good idea. I was allowing a bond to build. But remember we had no ground rules. I was so into this lifestyle that I would allow anything as long as it fed my kink.)
So by this point I have a young wife and mother that is getting fucked by another man 3-4 times a week and I’m hardly getting any sex at all. She was on the pill so he was cumming inside her sometimes several times a night. If she wouldn’t have been on the pill she would have been pregnant right away as much cum as he was dropping inside her. Keep in mind 3-4 times a week many nights twice a night, that’s a whole lot of another mans DNA inside her. I believe this was helping the change in her. Just a theory I have.
(This really fed my fetish. at a psychological level, to know that another mans DNA was flowing inside my wife’s body was like a mental fuck)
In retrospect now it was sort of amazing the way he got into her head and started to turn her.
So I start to see a change in her she starts to become more distant. You know what I mean when you can tell that you’re no longer the one, that something is off. That was the first thing I noticed.
I then started getting less and less sex. Even though that may be the normal progression of a thing like this it started to worry me a bit but also fed into my hunger for this fetish. When she would give me a BJ she would spit me out but she always swallowed him. I asked once why she spit mine out she said your cum tastes sour and his tastes sweet.
So I went from watching and participating to taking pictures and videos to getting an occasional BJ to getting mostly hand jobs when I would complain. And when I would complain about not getting any she would tell me “Come here, let me give you some relief,” and would jerk me into a towel. Then she started to jerk me over the toilet and she knew how to get me off quickly. It was sort of humiliating for her to jerk me over the toilet like my sperm was being thrown away.
So more and more she finds things to fight about. Just like petty things, and I have to admit I would also start some arguments because I could feel her pulling away. She suggested at some point that we go to counseling but I said no like an idiot. Later when I could see we were going to split up I agreed to the counseling but at that point she didn’t want to.
She tells me one day “I’m addicted to him I can’t do with out him.” Then she said, “You got us into this lifestyle, you opened the door, and now I’m in love with him. I can’t be without him.”
We separate. She said she was going to her sisters house to try to figure things out but she never stopped fucking him during that time and within six months while we are separated but not divorced she got pregnant by him. I can remember getting the phone call. She said, “Do you have a minute…I have to ask you to please let us go through with the divorce; I’m pregnant.”
I was devastated and turned on at the same time again, a very serious head fuck. We divorced like 8 months later. She had a big pregnant belly when we had our court date for the divorce. It was kind of humiliating; it was obvious it was not my child.
I wanted to add this as well. This is a conversation I had with her about our past not too long ago. I asked her:
ME: So what was the different. We know emotions came after. Was the sex better?
HER: Your right I didn't fall in love right away, but honestly I absolutely enjoyed the sex, I cant say exactly why, it was just so good. So yes to be honest the sex was better. Sorry.
ME: Was the black thing a turn on for you?
HER: Yes, the black thing was a turn on. Can't explain why, I just wanted him all the time. I don’t know I just like the contrast of our skin together and how aggressive he was in bed. I even felt intimidated when he fucked me sometimes. Turned me on so much.
ME: So you didn't say if you were always attracted to black men?
HER: No not always attracted to black dudes not at all. But you saw us together can you blame me. You have to admit that there was a big difference between you and him. I'm sorry it just got to the point I couldn't imagine you touching me anymore. You wanted this for me. You wanted me to have a steady lover. You encouraged us to fuck all the time and he took full advantage of that. I mean you know we were together almost every day and you got off on it. Do you remember? Sorry. He became my main man the only man I thought about. I craved to have him inside me all the time. Sorry you asked me to be honest.
I also asked her this:
ME
id you think of me as submissive in any way? Because in regular life I don't like to be pushed around.
HER: Yeah, I could see you being submissive.
ME: OK wow, submissive how?
HER: I just meant that I could see you enjoying a sexually submissive relationship. I really don't know though. I mean you did give me up to another man right. You allowed him to take me over and over. That's pretty submissive!
This lifestyle can be dangerous; make sure you go into it with eyes wide open.
I met my wife when she was in her 20's. She was very mature for her age. I was 12 yrs older than her and divorced and we hit it off right from the start. She was a hot little thing with a very friendly attitude, she was the life of the party. She was a bit of a pot head, but had a good head on her shoulders. I would later find out that she was a bit adventurous, or slutty whatever you want to call it and by age 18 had already been with 30 guys.
So we dated for like 4 years and had one breakup where she ran off with an ex-boyfriend to Jamaica for a week. This is where my feeling of sharing her started I think.
All I could think about was her and her younger ex-boyfriend fucking her every night. Like I said this is where I think my desires to share her started. She came back and we eventually got back together and married. She was 23-24 by then.
I was happy but I still had that fantasy of sharing her. She got lots of attention from men so that helped fuel my fantasy at the time. She got pregnant and we had a child. The fantasy was on hold while she was pregnant. After the baby was born I brought the fantasy up again. She was against it at first but slowly warmed up to the idea.
By this time she was like 25-26 when she started playing with other men. It included men from a young guy who was 19 to an older guy who was in his 50's.
The young guy was not good in bed and it was a one time thing but it broke the ice.
Now the older guy was an interesting scenario. He was a 52 yr old business owner that owned a business right next to a part-time job she had. He was friends with the owner of the place that my wife worked, so he frequently would visit. He had money and would often speak to my wife. He let her drive his new corvette one day and shortly after asked her out on a date and she agreed.
They went out to dinner and to a strip club then to his home. This guy is middle eastern and had a reputation for being a womanizer. I have to tell you this guy was not attractive at all but had that sort of no bullshit attitude about him. This became a regular thing for a while where he would buy her things in exchange for sex.
Now the one thing that really stuck in my mind was that she told me one time that he ripped off his condom and told her don’t worry I wont get you pregnant (she was not on the pill at the time maybe he was fixed). But he came inside her. Something so hot for me to know that an older guy had just cum inside my wife. He was like a sugar-daddy type for her. There was something extremely hot for me knowing that in a way she was being used. This went on for a few months.
Next there was a Latin guy she had like a one time thing with and another guy she met through that same part time job; the other guy was also a one or two time thing.
There was also I guy I introduced her to who was older in his 40's. They never really hit it off but I think he did eat her pussy once.
Oh and I almost forgot through the old sugar-daddy guy she met the owners of a strip club and they offered her a part-time job at the door. She took the job as she thought it would be fun. Shortly after they asked her if she wanted to strip. She never agreed; she said she didn’t have enough self confidence for that.
You know it's funny with no ground rules as we had I never encouraged her to do it. Who knows where that would have led. She only worked at the place for like two weeks.
At this point she decided she wanted to get more career oriented. She got a job working for a governmental agency. It was a big office that housed many departments and had a constant flow of men. While there she met this guy, we will call him J1. He was married but sort of a ladies men. He sort of had a steady thing with her for like a few months. He would follow her home and they would have a quick fuck. This guy was well hung, according to her like 9 inches and she told me once he had a perfect dick.
The one thing that stands out about this guy is that one time I came home and she managed to save his condom with his cum still in it. I was inexperienced and had no idea what to do with it. LOL This went on for a few months but she started to feel bad because he was married and she hated being the other woman.
Then something unexpected happened that caught me off guard but was very hot. There came a time that she had a chance to go for a better job within the same office but working for a contractor for that same office. So she applied for the job and she had to meet with the CEO of the contracting company. He was a black guy in his 40's.
This is what stands out to me. She was to meet this guy at a hotel in the restaurant for the interview. I remember that it took a while and I eventually called her. She answered and said sorry it's taking so long, he is showing me how to negotiate. I thought it was a strange answer but at the time didn't think much of it. Later that day when she came home she said that he asked her to come to his room to sign some papers and that she ended up giving him a blow job.
(So I have to stop here and say isn’t this kind of odd? Why would a CEO of a company take a chance like that unless it was expressed in some way. Am I wrong here? She later said that she felt pushed to do it and later that year he came into town and she did it again with him. According to her only a blow job again. This whole scenario seemed strange. I mean not only what I detailed above but why would he only settle for a blow job. I think more happened. Of course I never pushed for an answer because I just wanted to continue the ride.)
After this there were a couple of other men but they where mostly one time things.
None of the guys knew that I was aware of her playing around. They all thought she was cheating on me. It was easier to find guys that way she did not want to do the bar stranger thing. So at that time I never got to watch. It was her playing on her own and me just hearing the details. This went on for 5 yrs off and on.
At this point I thought I had it made a nice family a young sexy hot wife who was all about our family at home and fucking other men outside the home. By the way no one knew about our lifestyle not her family or mine. We kept it all very discreet.
At some point we had the idea that we should get a guy who could be a steady lover for her; a guy that we could both be friends with and I could watch and participate, as well as be a steady lover for her. So this guy at her work who was a work acquaintance that I knew as well just happens to break up with his girlfriend. That opened the door.
We will call this guy J2. He started talking more to my wife and became a friend of both of us. He would come over the house and I would conveniently go to bed early and take our child to bed and leave them alone in the living room. That of course lec to more.
So we slowly brought him into the lifestyle. I have to tell you he was and may still be a cool dude. Easy to get along with. He was younger than her by 6 years, he was black which was a big fantasy for me and later found out it was a big turn on for her as well.
So he starts hanging out as a friend of the family and that’s how everyone saw him. He would come over to our house when our child was at grandmas and my wife would go to his place other times. I thought I was in heaven. I had never seen my wife react like she did to this guy.
I have to admit he was in much better shape than I was he had a solid body and the way he fucked her OMG, the way he took over her was incredibly hot and shocking in a good way to me. I have to admit however that it did worry me a bit. From the first time I got to watch them together deep down I knew I was in trouble.
With in 2 months it started to get a little out of control; he was fucking her 3-4 times a week. She totally started to fall under a spell. That again was exciting but worried me. She even started to be a bit submissive to him. Most of times she was at his place because we had a child. She would leave work around 5 pm and go to his place and come home many times around midnight.
(Again in retrospect probably not a good idea. I was allowing a bond to build. But remember we had no ground rules. I was so into this lifestyle that I would allow anything as long as it fed my kink.)
So by this point I have a young wife and mother that is getting fucked by another man 3-4 times a week and I’m hardly getting any sex at all. She was on the pill so he was cumming inside her sometimes several times a night. If she wouldn’t have been on the pill she would have been pregnant right away as much cum as he was dropping inside her. Keep in mind 3-4 times a week many nights twice a night, that’s a whole lot of another mans DNA inside her. I believe this was helping the change in her. Just a theory I have.
(This really fed my fetish. at a psychological level, to know that another mans DNA was flowing inside my wife’s body was like a mental fuck)
In retrospect now it was sort of amazing the way he got into her head and started to turn her.
So I start to see a change in her she starts to become more distant. You know what I mean when you can tell that you’re no longer the one, that something is off. That was the first thing I noticed.
I then started getting less and less sex. Even though that may be the normal progression of a thing like this it started to worry me a bit but also fed into my hunger for this fetish. When she would give me a BJ she would spit me out but she always swallowed him. I asked once why she spit mine out she said your cum tastes sour and his tastes sweet.
So I went from watching and participating to taking pictures and videos to getting an occasional BJ to getting mostly hand jobs when I would complain. And when I would complain about not getting any she would tell me “Come here, let me give you some relief,” and would jerk me into a towel. Then she started to jerk me over the toilet and she knew how to get me off quickly. It was sort of humiliating for her to jerk me over the toilet like my sperm was being thrown away.
So more and more she finds things to fight about. Just like petty things, and I have to admit I would also start some arguments because I could feel her pulling away. She suggested at some point that we go to counseling but I said no like an idiot. Later when I could see we were going to split up I agreed to the counseling but at that point she didn’t want to.
She tells me one day “I’m addicted to him I can’t do with out him.” Then she said, “You got us into this lifestyle, you opened the door, and now I’m in love with him. I can’t be without him.”
We separate. She said she was going to her sisters house to try to figure things out but she never stopped fucking him during that time and within six months while we are separated but not divorced she got pregnant by him. I can remember getting the phone call. She said, “Do you have a minute…I have to ask you to please let us go through with the divorce; I’m pregnant.”
I was devastated and turned on at the same time again, a very serious head fuck. We divorced like 8 months later. She had a big pregnant belly when we had our court date for the divorce. It was kind of humiliating; it was obvious it was not my child.
I wanted to add this as well. This is a conversation I had with her about our past not too long ago. I asked her:
ME: So what was the different. We know emotions came after. Was the sex better?
HER: Your right I didn't fall in love right away, but honestly I absolutely enjoyed the sex, I cant say exactly why, it was just so good. So yes to be honest the sex was better. Sorry.
ME: Was the black thing a turn on for you?
HER: Yes, the black thing was a turn on. Can't explain why, I just wanted him all the time. I don’t know I just like the contrast of our skin together and how aggressive he was in bed. I even felt intimidated when he fucked me sometimes. Turned me on so much.
ME: So you didn't say if you were always attracted to black men?
HER: No not always attracted to black dudes not at all. But you saw us together can you blame me. You have to admit that there was a big difference between you and him. I'm sorry it just got to the point I couldn't imagine you touching me anymore. You wanted this for me. You wanted me to have a steady lover. You encouraged us to fuck all the time and he took full advantage of that. I mean you know we were together almost every day and you got off on it. Do you remember? Sorry. He became my main man the only man I thought about. I craved to have him inside me all the time. Sorry you asked me to be honest.
I also asked her this:
ME
id you think of me as submissive in any way? Because in regular life I don't like to be pushed around.HER: Yeah, I could see you being submissive.
ME: OK wow, submissive how?
HER: I just meant that I could see you enjoying a sexually submissive relationship. I really don't know though. I mean you did give me up to another man right. You allowed him to take me over and over. That's pretty submissive!
This lifestyle can be dangerous; make sure you go into it with eyes wide open.
Last edited:
