I'm wondering what people's thoughts or experiences have been with emotional affairs within the context of cuckolding. My wife has known that this has been a huge fantasy of mine for almost a decade now (I am 30, she is 29). We have been together since high school. While she was 'almost' considering it for a short time early on in college, I fell in love with a great traditional woman who is faithful -- not because of religion or expectations, just because she feels it to be right.
I've told her why I believe that this is a natural fantasy for us: When she tries to be, she is an insanely sexy woman who is so out of my league; I have a small cock and to make it worse, a cock that rarely works; I am not a confident or good lover; and she deserves the full satisfaction of real men. She simply disagrees.
Now, at one point in our long engagement, we hit a sour period but I was still trying to spice things up after being together for so long (8 years). I was neglecting our relationship and focusing on, what she has termed, 'using her as my own personal toy or pornstar'. I had been introducing her to different guys that I wanted her to cuckold me with, and she often never bit on any of them.
However, she was very attracted to one of them and without fulfilling my cuckold fantasy, carried out a very extensive and intimate emotional affair. It lasted for 5 years until we fully patched up many issues but the affair went very deep. She is now very committed to our marriage with no interest in going down 'that dark road' again. We are truly on the right track, if you judge as a traditional married couple.
She has shared with me the emails, conversations, etc. I was shocked and so jealous. But as a wannabe cuckold expected, the jealous turned me on in many ways. Plus, there were many things to be humiliated by in the chats, the other part of cuckolding that turns me on. She has admitted that she was being honest and she truly felt that way in the chat, and it turns me on so much. However, being such a great woman, she won't humiliate me or be mean to me about the past.
I guess my question, other than getting people's thoughts overall, is where should I go from here? Why am I turned on by knowing my wife cheated on me emotionally with another man? Why does it turn me that she planned to meet him for rendezvous' about 6 times? I can give more details if you all are very interested in this, but I wanted to keep it as general as possible for now.
I've told her why I believe that this is a natural fantasy for us: When she tries to be, she is an insanely sexy woman who is so out of my league; I have a small cock and to make it worse, a cock that rarely works; I am not a confident or good lover; and she deserves the full satisfaction of real men. She simply disagrees.
Now, at one point in our long engagement, we hit a sour period but I was still trying to spice things up after being together for so long (8 years). I was neglecting our relationship and focusing on, what she has termed, 'using her as my own personal toy or pornstar'. I had been introducing her to different guys that I wanted her to cuckold me with, and she often never bit on any of them.
However, she was very attracted to one of them and without fulfilling my cuckold fantasy, carried out a very extensive and intimate emotional affair. It lasted for 5 years until we fully patched up many issues but the affair went very deep. She is now very committed to our marriage with no interest in going down 'that dark road' again. We are truly on the right track, if you judge as a traditional married couple.
She has shared with me the emails, conversations, etc. I was shocked and so jealous. But as a wannabe cuckold expected, the jealous turned me on in many ways. Plus, there were many things to be humiliated by in the chats, the other part of cuckolding that turns me on. She has admitted that she was being honest and she truly felt that way in the chat, and it turns me on so much. However, being such a great woman, she won't humiliate me or be mean to me about the past.
I guess my question, other than getting people's thoughts overall, is where should I go from here? Why am I turned on by knowing my wife cheated on me emotionally with another man? Why does it turn me that she planned to meet him for rendezvous' about 6 times? I can give more details if you all are very interested in this, but I wanted to keep it as general as possible for now.