Thanks for the input. We have had pillow talk about the fantasy and I have mentioned, in the heat of the moment mind you, about how turned on I would be to watch such a thing. However, crossing the line from fantasy to reality is a different thing. Of course, I am here and do think about it quite a bit; probably too obsessively. LOL
I have shared a few of the pics with select gentlemen. One you probably could not call a gentleman; he disappeared after I gave him a pic. I am hesitant to post the pictures in an open forum but would be willing to share privately after I got to know the person.
Ideally, I guess I am not a true "cuckold." As I am learning, there are varying degress and it is hard to pigeonhole someone. In my case, humiliation and domination are not a turn on. Having her fucking around behind my back while I stay home is not a turn on. Having her screw 100 guys is not a turn on. Eating creampie is not a turn on. While I do not knock anyone who gets their kink on those such of things, they are not me.
In my case, which I guess is more of a "hot wife" scenario, I would like to watch her fuck another guy while I participate to some degree. Holding her hand. Sucking her tits; those type of things. The man to do it would be a total stranger and it would be a one off thing. I am not interested in an ongoing relationship with the third.
Speaking to the last point, with three people involved, I can't say I would have total control. That is, of course, where the fear lies. Pure raw fucking does not bother me. Potential emotional attachment does. I do not want the latter (and another reason why my kink is not having her going out on formal "dates"). Simply put, the third would just be a cock to please her and leave.
Not really sure what to do next. I am thinking about trying a nude/swinger beach. Thinking of Hedonism, or one closer to us I read about in Palm Springs, California. I need to do more research on the latter.
What I have tried is to post an ad on Craigslist. I was not really serious about pursuing it; I just wanted to see what kind of guys would reply. Let me tell you, it was a pure sleaze, creepy fest. Not one guy seemed to follow directions in responding and there was no thought in response. Typical response was a one liner like, "Hey, I am interested and horny." With that would typically be a cock shot. These guys really expect to get anywhere?
That is why I thought a nude/swinger beach would be better. Could actually meet the person and get her comfortable.
In any event, in the end, I am pretty confused myself. I obsess over this fantasy and want it to happen but man, it is tough!
Thanks for the response.