I am a married 40 year old man with 2 small children and a 37 year old wife.
I have no experience of this lifestyle however I have been turned on by wifesharing and cuckold stories and porn for LONGER than I have been in a relationship with my wife, wich is now 12 years. My wife doesnt know of my interest and I have never been brave enough to admit my interest for her, I am a coward I know
As I wrote I have been having this as a fantasy for a looong time, its almost the only thing I do watch when surfing for porn.
My wife on the other hand are pretty "vanillia" sex oriented, she is not into girls, she are only attracted to men, and me specially. Until now I have never had reason to question her, and that is also why I havent dared to tell her of my fantasies, I know how she would react, she would think that I am crazy and she wouldnt be interested.
I admit that I am somewhat of a coward in our relationship, not on everything and she wouldnt agree but in my opinion I am, she makes most of the decisions at home and are kind of bossy. Thats maybe why she is a manager at her work.
Our sexlife is dull in my opinion, we only have sex about two times a month, the children, work and all other things taker their toll. When we have sex its the normal kind of sex, we have practicly been having same kind of sex since we meet, no evolution here..
She only wants to have sex in our bed, no other place. A typical lovemaking session looks like this :We kiss, I go down on her for a while, she sucks me a little (never swallow) She hates being in 69??? Then she wants to get fucked, 6 times out of 10 its the missionary, 4 times she rides me or I take her from behind, no other positions. If I try something else she doesnt like it and wants to be taken in missionary.
She doesnt like to shave her pussy and made a point in telling me that she does it only because of me, she never shaves completely because "she doesnt want to look like our daughter down there" she says with an accusing tone when I suggests that she shave it all of.
A strange thing is that when I first meet her, she did shave her ass, she havent done that in 10 years and when I bring it up she lies straight to my eyes and says that she never shaved there, once she did however said that she did it because I wanted it, wich is a lie, I have never asked her to shave her ass.
Nevermind this is only a little background info. She doesnt wear thongs, because they are "uncomfortable" and I am basicly a pervert for suggesting that she does wear them.
Sorry for the long rant and it will be longer, but that is the background about us. Now to this:
The last month she has been shaving all her hair down there, not the ass unfortunately, When I asked her why she said that she was embarressed while showering at the gym when she has the only one with a black bush. She does go to the gym once or twice a week but she is not showering there! She always showers at home, strange?? When I asked her she got mad and just said that she sometimes go straight to work after the gym, that has happended maybe once or twice. She said with a firm tone that wasnt a question that Would I rather prefer to have her grow it out again?
Another strange detail is that the last time we had sex wich was last sunday morning, she actually allowed me to lick her ass! I have always wanted it and she has never allowed it, end of discussion "its so dirty, I dont like it" was her only reply until that morning. I just did it and didnt discuss it afterwards since we were not alone, the children were at home with us.
What makes me wonder if I have an opening and should try to steer this into desired direction is that she was out last saturday evening..
She said that she was going to a girlfriends (just friend) birthday, wich she was, I know her girlfriend so I know that is true. Her girlfriend is 9 years younger than my wife, single with no children and likes to go out partying, something my wife never does, neither do I.
My wife said that she might go out with them after the party and I said fine, do that. She was driving so I know that she wasnt going to drink, wich she isnt really fond of anyway.
She came home at 3.30 that morning, and in about 10 in the morning when we woke up she said that she had been out with a guy that is a common friend! Ok I said surprised, what? She said that her girlfriend had a little to much to drink and didnt want to go out so she called this friend of ours since she knew that he was going out that evening (we are facebook friends all three so I know that was true) but the thing is that our friend had a crush on my wife before we meet, he has actually known my wife longer than I have, but she was never interested, she viewed him as immature and he was and still is IMO. He is 5 years younger than my wife.
She asked me if I was jelaous and I said no, but I was.
They had been around on a real tour of several bars and a dancing place, just the two of them! His friends that were with him didnt want to move on so they stayed at the first bar.. I have never really liked this friend of ours, he is a little bully that thinks he is someone but I dont dislike him enough to not being friend with him. He is now married and has a 3 year old daughter. They live in the same town as we do.
I didnt ask her anything more and everything was the usual between us, exept for one thing.. I got turned on when she told me this, we were still in our bed so I made an attempt at having sex with her and she was horny as hell!
She usually only likes sex in the evenings, never in the mornings. We fucked and she was wild, as I wrote she even let me lick her ass, wich she never allows otherwise. She rode me and we even had her vibrator in the game, something she never liked before but more and more have started to use in the last months.
Later that day I logged in on her facebook account (ok, I know I shouldnt have done that but we both have each others passwords...) and sees a message in her mailbox from the guy she was out with! I couldnt read it since it was new, she would have noticed so I didnt do that. But i did try check into her hotmail account and then she had chaged her password! Later that evening I checked into her hotmail again and then she had read the message so I also read it, it wasnt anything direct exept that he wrote that he did have a really nice evening and he wanted to go aout again with her. What was her reply??? She also had a nice time and wants to go out again, but to another club in particular and that time she wants to drink! Nothing more, nothing less, how should I interpret that??? She doesnt like to drink, that I know after 12 years with her. The day after i checked her account again and she had deleted their conversation in her message inbox! All other messeges were there, she never deletes anything but this one was deleted.
I checked her cellphone and there was only one call to this guy that eveneing, she called him at 8 pm that night!
I cant ask her and dont want to, but she said that they are only friends and she just went out with him.
I suspect and somewere inside me hope that they did something, I have accepted the fact that I would lik my wife to have an affair with this guy, but I dont know how to react or encourage it.
I belive that if I theoreticly just told my wife that I wanted it she would be suspicious that I were having an affair wich I dont and never go out with him again.
I know that openess and straight communication is good when starting a cuckold relationship but I dont think that would work here. I dont think my wife would respond positively.
I guess that IF my wife are having an affair and I cought her, she could MAYBE at that stage could come to term with the fact that it turns me on. But for now I dont dare say to her that.
I have tried to watch some porn with her with two males and a woman to introduce the idea in her brain and its ok, she gets a little turned on for a short wile and then the movie unfortunately always move on to DP or assfucking and she doesnt like that so we stop watching.
Sorry for the LOOOONG post and I need your advice
I have no experience of this lifestyle however I have been turned on by wifesharing and cuckold stories and porn for LONGER than I have been in a relationship with my wife, wich is now 12 years. My wife doesnt know of my interest and I have never been brave enough to admit my interest for her, I am a coward I know
As I wrote I have been having this as a fantasy for a looong time, its almost the only thing I do watch when surfing for porn.
My wife on the other hand are pretty "vanillia" sex oriented, she is not into girls, she are only attracted to men, and me specially. Until now I have never had reason to question her, and that is also why I havent dared to tell her of my fantasies, I know how she would react, she would think that I am crazy and she wouldnt be interested.
I admit that I am somewhat of a coward in our relationship, not on everything and she wouldnt agree but in my opinion I am, she makes most of the decisions at home and are kind of bossy. Thats maybe why she is a manager at her work.
Our sexlife is dull in my opinion, we only have sex about two times a month, the children, work and all other things taker their toll. When we have sex its the normal kind of sex, we have practicly been having same kind of sex since we meet, no evolution here..
She only wants to have sex in our bed, no other place. A typical lovemaking session looks like this :We kiss, I go down on her for a while, she sucks me a little (never swallow) She hates being in 69??? Then she wants to get fucked, 6 times out of 10 its the missionary, 4 times she rides me or I take her from behind, no other positions. If I try something else she doesnt like it and wants to be taken in missionary.
She doesnt like to shave her pussy and made a point in telling me that she does it only because of me, she never shaves completely because "she doesnt want to look like our daughter down there" she says with an accusing tone when I suggests that she shave it all of.
A strange thing is that when I first meet her, she did shave her ass, she havent done that in 10 years and when I bring it up she lies straight to my eyes and says that she never shaved there, once she did however said that she did it because I wanted it, wich is a lie, I have never asked her to shave her ass.
Nevermind this is only a little background info. She doesnt wear thongs, because they are "uncomfortable" and I am basicly a pervert for suggesting that she does wear them.
Sorry for the long rant and it will be longer, but that is the background about us. Now to this:
The last month she has been shaving all her hair down there, not the ass unfortunately, When I asked her why she said that she was embarressed while showering at the gym when she has the only one with a black bush. She does go to the gym once or twice a week but she is not showering there! She always showers at home, strange?? When I asked her she got mad and just said that she sometimes go straight to work after the gym, that has happended maybe once or twice. She said with a firm tone that wasnt a question that Would I rather prefer to have her grow it out again?
Another strange detail is that the last time we had sex wich was last sunday morning, she actually allowed me to lick her ass! I have always wanted it and she has never allowed it, end of discussion "its so dirty, I dont like it" was her only reply until that morning. I just did it and didnt discuss it afterwards since we were not alone, the children were at home with us.
What makes me wonder if I have an opening and should try to steer this into desired direction is that she was out last saturday evening..
She said that she was going to a girlfriends (just friend) birthday, wich she was, I know her girlfriend so I know that is true. Her girlfriend is 9 years younger than my wife, single with no children and likes to go out partying, something my wife never does, neither do I.
My wife said that she might go out with them after the party and I said fine, do that. She was driving so I know that she wasnt going to drink, wich she isnt really fond of anyway.
She came home at 3.30 that morning, and in about 10 in the morning when we woke up she said that she had been out with a guy that is a common friend! Ok I said surprised, what? She said that her girlfriend had a little to much to drink and didnt want to go out so she called this friend of ours since she knew that he was going out that evening (we are facebook friends all three so I know that was true) but the thing is that our friend had a crush on my wife before we meet, he has actually known my wife longer than I have, but she was never interested, she viewed him as immature and he was and still is IMO. He is 5 years younger than my wife.
She asked me if I was jelaous and I said no, but I was.
They had been around on a real tour of several bars and a dancing place, just the two of them! His friends that were with him didnt want to move on so they stayed at the first bar.. I have never really liked this friend of ours, he is a little bully that thinks he is someone but I dont dislike him enough to not being friend with him. He is now married and has a 3 year old daughter. They live in the same town as we do.
I didnt ask her anything more and everything was the usual between us, exept for one thing.. I got turned on when she told me this, we were still in our bed so I made an attempt at having sex with her and she was horny as hell!
She usually only likes sex in the evenings, never in the mornings. We fucked and she was wild, as I wrote she even let me lick her ass, wich she never allows otherwise. She rode me and we even had her vibrator in the game, something she never liked before but more and more have started to use in the last months.
Later that day I logged in on her facebook account (ok, I know I shouldnt have done that but we both have each others passwords...) and sees a message in her mailbox from the guy she was out with! I couldnt read it since it was new, she would have noticed so I didnt do that. But i did try check into her hotmail account and then she had chaged her password! Later that evening I checked into her hotmail again and then she had read the message so I also read it, it wasnt anything direct exept that he wrote that he did have a really nice evening and he wanted to go aout again with her. What was her reply??? She also had a nice time and wants to go out again, but to another club in particular and that time she wants to drink! Nothing more, nothing less, how should I interpret that??? She doesnt like to drink, that I know after 12 years with her. The day after i checked her account again and she had deleted their conversation in her message inbox! All other messeges were there, she never deletes anything but this one was deleted.
I checked her cellphone and there was only one call to this guy that eveneing, she called him at 8 pm that night!
I cant ask her and dont want to, but she said that they are only friends and she just went out with him.
I suspect and somewere inside me hope that they did something, I have accepted the fact that I would lik my wife to have an affair with this guy, but I dont know how to react or encourage it.
I belive that if I theoreticly just told my wife that I wanted it she would be suspicious that I were having an affair wich I dont and never go out with him again.
I know that openess and straight communication is good when starting a cuckold relationship but I dont think that would work here. I dont think my wife would respond positively.
I guess that IF my wife are having an affair and I cought her, she could MAYBE at that stage could come to term with the fact that it turns me on. But for now I dont dare say to her that.
I have tried to watch some porn with her with two males and a woman to introduce the idea in her brain and its ok, she gets a little turned on for a short wile and then the movie unfortunately always move on to DP or assfucking and she doesnt like that so we stop watching.
Sorry for the LOOOONG post and I need your advice
