So hi guys, I made an introduce yourself about a week ago and planned to make my main post sooner than i this but my mind has been all over the place and I just haven't known how to approach this. Tonight I have been having a few drinks and decided i wanted to get this off my chest and let someone else know.
I'll get the juicy part out of the way first, my Fiancée is cheating on me. We have been together since school 10 years (ME15Her16), only recently have I had the money to propose to her and pull of the wedding that not only she would want but what I wanted for her, so Last year I proposed and we decided 2017 would be the right time as some family on both sides struggle with money and we though it would be easier for them all to save over 2 years instead of just 1. Anyway enough about that for now.
About 4 months ago I started to notice a change in her behavior, her Mon,Tue,Wed turned into 12 hour shifts. For the first 2 weeks i did't really think much because it was common for her to do extra hours, especially when someone had quit work, which is what I had been told at the time. After those first 2-3 weeks she started going to the gym after work on these nights, again noting to out of the ordinary for her as she usually going to the gym after work on these days anyway, This meant it was close to 23:00 before she was getting home, 3 days a week! Not something i could do but she is in good shape so I didn't question anything.
Sometime around the middle of September i was using facebook on her phone(I don't have facebook) to check out some of my old friends from school. I don't know why but before I gave back her phone i checked her messages and recent calls. Her messages showed nothing out of the ordinary but i noticed the same call been made/received around 17:00 on Mon/Tues/Wed along with a bunch of other times during the week.
I wrote a whole lot of stuff here but deleted it because i don't want to bore you with the shit that i went through to get to the "sauce" if you will(to shorten it all down to one sentence, i seen dirty messages between her and this number). A few days before Halloween I found out she is fucking a taxi driver, specifically a taxi driver that we both know well as we have been using their firm for the past 3 years. One night I seen them kiss in his car outside our house. It took me week to see for real but eventually i caught her red handed.
The first few weeks i was devastated, not wanting to say anything for fear she would leave me straight away. In the evenings i would cry some times because i knew she was with another man while i sat at home making her dinner. She seemed to act perfectly normal around me, if i didn't know what was happening it would be impossible to tell from her demeanor that she was fucking another guy.
I spent that first month+ crying to myself in bed with what was happening to me, then one night a few weeks back i was masturbating, I don't know why but i started thinking about my Fiancée and this guy fucking. I thought about them fucking in all sorts of positions and it didn't take long for me to have one of the most intense orgasm of my life. I erupted everywhere, making a huge mess. The guilt that overcame me afterwards was so strange, i felt sick to my stomach but on the other hand I started to think about how hot it was. I started to google about my feelings and found myself searching the word cuckold.
Since then i have become obsessed with everything cuckold, I don't understand everything about it so i decided to look for a forum to talk about what I am going thought.
I need to go now but would love to answer questions, I'll try to get back on tomorrow and tell you more about what has been happening to me.
*apologies for the grammar and misspells.
I'll get the juicy part out of the way first, my Fiancée is cheating on me. We have been together since school 10 years (ME15Her16), only recently have I had the money to propose to her and pull of the wedding that not only she would want but what I wanted for her, so Last year I proposed and we decided 2017 would be the right time as some family on both sides struggle with money and we though it would be easier for them all to save over 2 years instead of just 1. Anyway enough about that for now.
About 4 months ago I started to notice a change in her behavior, her Mon,Tue,Wed turned into 12 hour shifts. For the first 2 weeks i did't really think much because it was common for her to do extra hours, especially when someone had quit work, which is what I had been told at the time. After those first 2-3 weeks she started going to the gym after work on these nights, again noting to out of the ordinary for her as she usually going to the gym after work on these days anyway, This meant it was close to 23:00 before she was getting home, 3 days a week! Not something i could do but she is in good shape so I didn't question anything.
Sometime around the middle of September i was using facebook on her phone(I don't have facebook) to check out some of my old friends from school. I don't know why but before I gave back her phone i checked her messages and recent calls. Her messages showed nothing out of the ordinary but i noticed the same call been made/received around 17:00 on Mon/Tues/Wed along with a bunch of other times during the week.
I wrote a whole lot of stuff here but deleted it because i don't want to bore you with the shit that i went through to get to the "sauce" if you will(to shorten it all down to one sentence, i seen dirty messages between her and this number). A few days before Halloween I found out she is fucking a taxi driver, specifically a taxi driver that we both know well as we have been using their firm for the past 3 years. One night I seen them kiss in his car outside our house. It took me week to see for real but eventually i caught her red handed.
The first few weeks i was devastated, not wanting to say anything for fear she would leave me straight away. In the evenings i would cry some times because i knew she was with another man while i sat at home making her dinner. She seemed to act perfectly normal around me, if i didn't know what was happening it would be impossible to tell from her demeanor that she was fucking another guy.
I spent that first month+ crying to myself in bed with what was happening to me, then one night a few weeks back i was masturbating, I don't know why but i started thinking about my Fiancée and this guy fucking. I thought about them fucking in all sorts of positions and it didn't take long for me to have one of the most intense orgasm of my life. I erupted everywhere, making a huge mess. The guilt that overcame me afterwards was so strange, i felt sick to my stomach but on the other hand I started to think about how hot it was. I started to google about my feelings and found myself searching the word cuckold.
Since then i have become obsessed with everything cuckold, I don't understand everything about it so i decided to look for a forum to talk about what I am going thought.
I need to go now but would love to answer questions, I'll try to get back on tomorrow and tell you more about what has been happening to me.
*apologies for the grammar and misspells.