My true story - the realities

[XYZ11]

.There has always been a significant differentiation between real life and fantasy when it comes to cuckolding and myself. At least in regards to the cuck side of things. But I am compelled to write something here now based on my more recent experiences.*

I guess I should start from the beginning:

I am in my mid 20s. *I think I am a fairly attractive caucasian guy. I am not super ripped or anything but I certainly have an athletic body type. I look after myself and value my appearance. I am quite well endowed (8 to be exact) and never felt I had a problem with attracting or pleasing the woman I was with both in and out of bed.

About a year ago I was in a long term relationship going back to my teens. This girlfriend at the time was a cute Asian girl. As an aside, since dating this girl I have found I prefer Asian women when it comes to appearances. I am comfortable saying this. I enjoy their generally petite frame, *their straight black hair etc. It's just something I have discovered about myself. I only mention it here because all the women I am mentioning here are you guessed it, Asian.*

Anyways, when I first found this site this long term relationship I mentioned prior was in a very unsatisfactory. Things had sizzled out and we were both very young and fresh out of college. I don't think I was ready to settle down. Yet we persisted in being together for sometime despite things getting worse and worse.

*During this time I started a relationship online with a older Chinese woman named Mabel in her mid 30s. She looked 10 years younger and her frame was perfectly proportional to her 5 foot two height and she certainly did not weight more than 110lb. She originally claimed to be single, as did I. We chated online for about a week. We seemed to get along online. But when we finally met up for drinks she confessed she was married. Not only unhappily married but had a 4 year old child. I never could of guessed she had been pregnant based on her appearance. At this time I also admitted I was in a *relationship as well. *Too my surprise we both were ok with the situation. In a way the tension cleared by us being so honest so quickly and this led to great and open conversation for the rest of the night. It was clear we both had more intimate intentions. I will never forget her running her small soft hand from my knee up to just inches from my groin under the restaurant *table as I sat next to her. There was a lot of touching that night. *The night ended with us kissing passionately as we ended a walk around the city under the lights. We agreed to meet again soon.*

It turned out her husband was who was also Chinese was away a lot of business. He would leave for weeks at a time, usually to china. I learned that they had just moved to the country from there about 18 months ago. This situation enabled me to often be over at her house having the greatest sex of my young adult life. Mabel was simply amazing and I quickly learned that a woman must learn a thing or two about pleasuring a man between the ages of 25 and 36... We both had the most amazing orgasms and *often would fuck 4-5 times a night in her marital bed. I felt somewhat awkward having Mabel for myself while her husband was clueless. On one particular occasion after our first week of regularly having sex I spoke to her about this was we lay naked in her bed.

*As she lay in my arms she told me that her husband was "pathetic in bed" and that she was surprised he could even father a child and that it took a decade of trying. She explained how she met her husband as she was working as an intern in China. Apparently he was some sort of regional manager. She explained that she was attracted to his power and charisma. They got married when she was in her early 20's and was still a virgin. She went on to expain that for many years she simply believed sex must be overrated, she enjoyed it so little. Things really appeared to have changed when her husband lost his job and status. She said that by this time everything that had originally attracted her to him seemed like a "cheap illusion". Yet she loved him regardless as he was a good albeit "pathetic" man so she stayed with him. In order to make up for the lost income she began working as a flight attendent. From this expirence she found herself away from her husband for days at a time often overseas in North America. Through this work she ended up cheating on her husband and sampling her second cock ever while away. Apparently this experience blew her mind and she learned what she had been missing from her husband back in China. She shyly explained that she felt so bad and guilty but knew she could not bear the thought of never having "real" sex again. She never met up with this second man again and soon stopped working when her husbands fortunes picked up again. About a year later she was pregnant and had her daughter and soon the whole family moved to North America due to her husband's new job. With her husband being away her loneliness and thoughts of having sex like she did while working as a flight attendant drew her to to searching online and meeting me.

I remember feeling oddly less guilty after she told me this. That night ended with me taking her from behind and commenting on how sexy and similar she looked today compared to when she was near my age in her wedding photos next to her bed. I think it is also worth noting that her reciting this story led me to *this web site. I soon was introduced to the concept of cuckolding and considered my self a bull and Mabel's husband the cuck. Her husband never knew about me. *

Mabel was a stay at home mother for the most part. She often had her 4 year old daughter fast asleep when I would come over. *I will always remember one time when her daughter awoke late at night while we had just had sex downstairs on the couch. As she wore her pink silk bath robe and hair all disheveled she explained to her daughter that I was one of her "students". She tutored mandarin for extra cash and for something to do around the house. This "close call" had me nervous for sometime... But things worked out and I later got to be on a first name basis with her daughter as one of her mother's "students".

Through this process I felt more and more distant with my current younger girlfriend. I decided to end things. I told her if I met someone else and left it at that. It was hard but better for the both of us in the long run. I only met Mabel because I was so stuck in that relationship....

I continued to see Mabel almost every day except for the weeks when her husband was home. We soon were not using condoms but she was on the pill at the time. But having that level of intamacy was a real high. It even got to the point where she was *tutoring me for fun and would come over for the afternoon and it basicly felt like I might as well be her husband. Often BBQing or helping out around the house. These days always ended in some great sex if her daughter was napping etc. We definitely were becoming emotionally attached yet both knew we could not be together. I knew I did not want Mabel's life and she would not leave her husband. And I suppose I felt like a bull, it felt pretty sweet

 

[XYZ11]

Here is where things go for a twist and get messy. Some months later at work I was paired up with a drop dead sexy partner named, Samantha. *She worked for the Chinese branch of my company (I sware this was random coincidence) but lived in my city with family back in Asia. She was rediculously sexy and was only 20 and fresh out of college only recently hired. When I first met her at head office I was stunned. She was quite tall at 5 foot eight with a thin petite frame with long below the breasts shining dark black hair with a hint of midnight blue. But what really struck me was her legs, long never ending silky white legs and her C cup breasts that looked enormous on her small frame. Then to top it off her face was adorable and had a exotic unique look to it. I learned later part of her family was from a Chinese minority group, maybe her special features are attributable to this? Her personality was amazing too. She appeared to have endless energy and always was such fun to be with. At times she could be so nerdy. Other times she could be pretty dominant and could work a room and get the attention of a huge crowd. But usually she was somewhat reserved yet always in a way which drew people together around her.

We ended up traveling together a lot for work and becoming close friends. We often took side trips here and there when time allowed. I visited her home town in China and her parents. Not surprisingly 6 months later we were in a serious relationship. *Just before things started to get serious I visited Mabel. She knew I was head over heels for Samantha. In fact she would always give me "tips" in how to win over Samantha that usually I would not follow, some where pretty weird really. But she genuinely wanted me to be happy with my new found crush.

This last time I saw her we hugged and I kissed her deeply. She asked how I was doing. I said I was great but that I had to talk to her about something important. She somehow intuitively knew it must be about me no longer being able to see her due to Samantha. She simply smiled and said, "It's about Samantha? ". *I just nodded. She then wordlessly led me upstairs to her room. She unzipped my pants and slid down to her knees and without a word proceeded to blow me. As I looked down I noticed she was wearing her wedding ring. She never wore it around me before. But god what she was doing down there felt good. I said not a word except about how beautiful she looked and how good it felt. I soon exploded down her mouth.

Moments later we were in each others arms in her bed. We then talked. I told her about wanting to commit to Samantha. I told her how much my time with her meant to me. She said the same and with tears in her eyes (I never seen her sad before) told me that she will miss me and that she is filling for divorce from her husband. She mentioned that through being with me she realized she could be happier with another although she knew it could not be me. It was a bitter sweet moment there on that bed. It ended up with us having some drinks (her daughter was away) and spending the evening there in bed together.

At one point we both were somewhat buzzed she held up her hand with her wedding ring on it and mentioned that she had now "officially cheated" on her husband and feels nothing for him. She mentioned how she always wanted a big family and that her husband let her down in this regards. This led me to do something that to this day I have a hard time believing I did. I told her that if she wants we could have sex without condoms this one last time. For the past several months she had no longer been on the pill. Apparently she was attempting to have another child with her husband. Maybe to save their marriage? Not smart.. Anyways, she smiled at me weakly in response, spread her legs and simply said that it would make her very happy and it will be something to remember me by. Looking back I think we were both quite caught up in the moment and alcohol exaggerated things. But that night ended with me passionately making love to Mabel more times than I could count each time ejaculating deep inside her. The morning arrived and I got dressed and kissed her one last time in the bed as sun shone through window on her beautiful but sleepy face. She smiled and simply told me to let myself out that she will dream about me.

This was the last time we saw each other. I often think about Mabel and what happened to her. About 2 years have since passed. I once looked her up and saw that she moved across the country.

My relationship with Samantha took off. We are now living together and talking about being engaged. But due to this experience with Mabel I have continued to fantasize about married women and cuckolding. It is hard to let such a fantasy go. I considered cuckolding to be very much a fantasy now that I am with Samantha. I ever spoke about Mabel with her.*

Sure Samantha turns many heads out in public. I notice this and it excites me and I feel proud she is mine. But my fantasies existed solely in the form of reading things online. *This is how things were until she found out about me googling cuckolding... Now my world has been turned upside down over the past month. It has been a real struggle. Nothing has happened yet. But it has been so very hard coming clean about everything.*

Maybe I will explain more later. For now it was therapeutic writing this all down

 

[XYZ11]

So I suppose I will continue where I left off...

Since discovering the fantasy of cuckolding as what one may call a "bull" with Mabel I continued to enjoy this fantasy online. I would occasionally visit cuckolding forums and read what is on here. I am sure a large purportion of the visitors to this forum do the same.

Yet a few weeks ago Samantha discovered some of the cuckold sites I was visiting online. I foolishly got sloppy and left my tracks uncovered on my browser. I never had any intention of doing this. I ONLY ever intended my visiting of these sites to be fantasy. A type of porn. Nothing more. Heck, I usually got off more on the idea of fucking a cuck's girlfriend rather than anything related to the cuckold side of things.

Samantha thought very differently. She approached me furious. She thought I did not love her. She thought that I could not possibly care for her while visiting sites about wives and girlfriends fucking other men. Like I mentioned before, she knew nothing of Mabel. All of this hurt like hell. She is quite traditional in a Chinese sense and regardless of how I tried to explain that this was all merely a fantasy she would hear none of it. At the time I didn't even try to get into the aspect of cuckolding that I had found most exciting, the me being the bull part. That would have freaked her out even more and regardless I had zero desire to be with anyone but Samatha in real life. So with all this going on I think it is easy for you to imagine how horrible the next several days were. She would not talk or listen to me. I felt like I was living in our home alone even though she was there most of the time.

Then about a week later she approached me. We had a long discussion. I told her about Mabel. She was disgusted that I slept with a married woman. I felt like total trash. I explained to her that from this expirence the cuckolding aspect of things started to be introduced into my fantasies. She was more understanding of this yet was deeply concerned that I would go sleep with other women behind her back one day in an attempt to make these fantasies a reality. I spent hours reassuring her that I had zero desire to be with anyone but her. I also promised that no pictures of her should ever go onlne, I guess she was freaked out by some men posting pictures of their misses on different pages. I never did this before and happily agreed to never do so. So sorry guys no pictures will be posted.

In the end we kissed and hugged and had some great sex in the early hours of the morning. When we woke up the next day things seemed back to normal. I felt an incredible sense of releif. She seemed to understand me. We were able to show each other that we had the communication skills necessary to navigate such a potentially awkward topic. Heck, who am I kidding, it WAS very awkward!

For weeks she was very happy and her normal self. Then last week in bed she brought up an interesting topic. She mentioned how she was chatting with one of her yoga friends that morning. (This friend is another smoking hot Asian girl btw, almost as sexy as Samantha her self, but 50 times less traditional) She mentioned how this particular friend was looking at meeting up with this guy she met online. The only catch was that she never met this guy and they were suppose to meet up with a group of 3 his friends. Samantha's yoga buddy wanted my girlfriend to accompany her to this gathering for the sake of comfort and support. Normally this would not be a big deal. I trust Samantha. Yet, she continued with her explanation. She noted how her yoga friend was quick to brag about how ripped and sexy these apparently Spanish guys were and quickly began to show my girlfriend pictures on her cell phone. Samantha told me that she was really quite blown away by how "gorgeous" these men were. This enthusiasm struck me as odd. She never really showed such clear attraction to other men before while with me. If she did she would play it down very obviously. She was after all very traditional and conservative when it came to relationships.

It should be said that I know many men are attracted to Samantha. Many times they obviously fleet with her when I am not around. Often if I leave for the bathroom at a bar I will return to see some guy trying to make advances on her with pretty disml success. She is so loyal that she never makes any impression that she is interested. But I know she is quite the sexual creature and heard stories from her friends from back in her college days. I truly believe that she is quite traditional only when it comes to public displays or our relationship. Heck, I know she is very kinky behind closed doors...

Anyways, this description of these men struck me as odd. Was she testing me? So I straight up asked her if this business had anything to do with our fight in the previous weeks. She said no, but that she merely felt more comfortable talking about other people in a sexual manner. She said she loved me and kissed me and we had some slow passionate sex cumulating in an orgasm each.

After recovering in bed she began to get worked up again. At this moment she leaned in to whisper in my ear, "so you are ok if I go for drinks with these guys I mentioned?". I hesitated for a second and something in my brain knew what I was doing represented at least a partal departure from my "only fantasy" stance on cuckolding. I said, of course you can go. She answered by biting my ear and asking me if I was sure. She mentioned that these guys will make a move on her. This blew me away. She never made such akwledge mention of other guys noticing her. Yet, I knew she knew other men longed for her attention. I simply nodded and reminded her that if nothing happens but drinks than what's the harm. At this moment her face lit up she promptly fell asleep.

In my stomach I had a real sinking feeling. I felt like I had let out a can of worms due to the sudden change in behavior in the context of the events of the past month. But what surprised me the most was the hard on I had digging into her as she held me and slept.

 

[Susan's Slave]

Damn dicks can't keep a secret!

 

[duke9555]

marvelous narrative old bean

 

[XYZ11]

So a few days passed. I half expected her to flake out on her plans to go out with her friend and meet these random guys. A big part of me feels as though she must have been testing me that night. I had mixed feelings about how I responded. Part of me believed she was hoping I would "put up more of a fight" for her. Maybe she wanted me to act concerned and possessive? By the time the day she was suppose to go out rolled around any of the feelings of excitement I had were largely gone.

I came home late that night due to unexpected delays finishing up at work. When I arrived at our home and opened the door I heard music playing from the bathroom with the shower running. It was Samantha. It was unusual for her to shower at this time, normally she would be working on dinner or watch tv or something. I instantly knew that she must be getting ready to go out and she must still be planning on meeting up with her friend and those guys she thought were hot.

When I opened the door to the bathroom there she was. I actualy remember looking at her 22 year old thin body and her perky tits with her wet shampooed hair ending just inches above that perfect ass. I remember feeling a sense pride. My girlfriend Samantha really was gorgeous. I have never been so happy and so sexually satisfied by a woman before. I knew I wanted all of her for myself.

In that steamy room I asked her what she was upto that night. She responded simply by saying she was going out for drinks. I asked her with who. She played a long and said with her yoga friend. I told her that I did not think she was still planning on doing that. She simply responded by telling me she had an obligation to help her friend. Knowing her friend I knew she could handle three guys easily on her own in a public place. I kept that part to myself. She then said something that was very uncharacteristic of her. She told me, "you are aware that these guys will flirt with me. There is not much I can do. I just want to tell you this for we don't feel guilty". I remember mumbling something about how I trust her and that she has handeled herself well in the past. But my head was spinning. She never acted like this! It was like she was taunting me... She must have been testing me!

I left the bathroom. I was in disbelief that her discovery of my internet fantasy of cuckolding could cause her to act this way... I convinced myself that I must he reading into things too much. I calmed myself down and had a beer out in the back yard. About 30 min later I hear samantha calling my name from upstairs. I go up stairs and she is all dressed up. She had this tight form fitting one piece strapless black dress on that fit her body like a glove. It ended very high above her knees and showed her long thin milky white legs off beautifully. She was looking stunning. The way she looked reminded me of our time in Shanghai last summer when we would go out to enjoy the night life.

I couldn't help it. I told her that I don't feel comfortable with her going. Is this what she wanted to hear? No it was not. She became aggravated. "What do you mean you don't want me to go?!" She told me angrily. I told her I felt uncomfortable by the way she was acting and how I worried her discovery of my online activities has caused her to act this way. She responded in a very cold manner that was unlike her. She simply said that she was not canceling at the last minute and that it was unreasonable to expect things to be exactly the same as they were before.

My jaw hit the floor. Was she for real? Her behavior was being influenced by knowing my cuckolding fantasy??? She was acting so different. I don't think I liked it. Her cute friend from yoga arrived in the dtiveway. She was dressed up similarly... Also looking amazing. She then gave me a quick kiss on the cheek and left the house to meet her while saying that I now know how it feels to have her leave the house dressed up for other men.

This last statementment struck a cord. I was so upset. But underneath it all I was turned on. I imagined these two sexy young Asian girls teasing and taunting this group of men over drinks. I imagined them all wanting to have their way with Samantha's small body so badly. I knew her yoga friend would only encourage them, she already was quite sluty. But I still also felt horrible. I could not believe that my cute lil' Smantha could be doing this.

 

[becontree2001uk]

Please continue - this sounds hot

 

[Hank jones]

Great xyz thanks for sharing.
Wife is on a business trip again with her co worker. I don't think on of the rooms won't be slept in again.

 

[XYZ11]

Without one bit if exaggeration this night was one of the longest in my life. I was thankful that she replied to text messages I sent her. She did not seem mad with me. After our initial fight this was a relief. She told me when she arrived at the restaurant. She told me what she ordered for dinner by text. I felt reassured. Then about two hours later I got message from her saying that her group was going out for drinks at a popular local club. I texted back asking who was going. No reply immediately. No reply 4 hours at 1AM. I text again. No reply. I started to get concerned. Even under my wildest most extreme predictions about how this night would go I never seriously believed she would not come home. I call her. No answer, straight to voice mail. I repeat a few times this ritual. Nothing. I go brush my teeth and go to bed. I am defeated, worried out of my skin. No part of me is turned on. I am worried Samantha may not be safe.

Then just as I am getting into bed at about 3AM my phone rings. It is Samantha. She tells me that she lost track of time. In the background I hear who I think is her yoga friend's voice giggling. I ask her where she is and that I can pick her up. Samantha replies that she is "wonderful" no need to pick her up. She is clearly wasted. Samantha is not one to drink heavily. She is your stereotypical small Asian girl in this respect. A single strong drink and she is quite affected. She usually avoids drinking much because of this. She proceeds to tell me that she is in a cab. I ask her to come home and that her friend can crash at our place. She then says okay. I am relieved. But a moment later I head her friend speaking with her. I can't make out what her friend is saying. I can make out Samantha clearly. She is saying things about "how they are like sisters" and how "she needs privacy" and "she deserves time with the new hottie". Instantly I feel a low I never felt before but at the same time I notice a raging erection. She then gets back to me and says, "sorry hun, change of plans. I am going to crash at Z's (her Yoga friend's place)." Just as she hangs up I hear what I think is a male voice along with her friends voice. I can't make out what they said.

I am so very turned on at this point. She is safe. But I am disgusted by my reaction. How can I enjoy this? To me this type of response was suppose to be pure fantasy. It felt so bitterly real now. I reassured myself that maybe I am looking into things too much. The male voice could be the cab driver. They were both ***** and making no sense. I probably should not place much weight on what she said, I thought. This numbed the guilt and allowed me to comfort myself with a feeling that I was firmly still within the realm of fantasy. My mind was seeing what it wanted to see. I should just enjoy the fantasy and I did.

I awoke the next morning very late. I had little sleep that night. What actually woke me up was Samantha's warm naked body sealing around mine in bed. She looked terribly disheveled. I asked how she was doing. She told me she was good but tired. She kissed me passionately and told me to wake her in an hour. She still wanted to sleep off the alcohol. Minutes later she was asleep purring softly curled up next to my neck.

I lay next to her for a bit. I was relieved she was home safe. She still seemed like the Samantha I knew. But my mind was racing. Did she betray me last night? Suddenly the idea to check her cell phone occurred on me. I got up. She remained sleeping. I noticed her phone in her purse. I removed it flipped it open and checked it. The text messages were only from myself and female friends. Looked all innocent. I must be paranoid. I am freaking out here I thought. Then I suddenly got the idea to check her photo album on her phone.

Yes, there were photos dated from the night. Most were garbage. Blurry dark photos from the club. Samantha dancing with het friend. They looked pretty sexy. The next fee seconds I remember so vividly. I actually remember momentarily thinking that it was a shame they both didn't come over last night. Maybe I could have been lucky and had some fun with both of these drop dead sexy Asian women. Reality hit me, Samantha would never allow that. Crazy horny male thought. I dismissed it. But then like it was scripted into a movie I flipped to the next photo.

The next photo appeared as though it was straight out of a porn shoot. There was Samantha and her yoga friend on a bed. Both were kneeling on the sheets. The unbelievable part was that Samantha was naked with a towel wrapped around her. Her yoga friend was the same but wearing some sort of sports bra with a towel. First thought. Wow that's hot. Second thought, did Samantha have a night of sex with her female friend. Third thought, no way, probably just them after taking a shower and having a girls night. Then my last thought, who the hell was taking the photo?

Again this question was answered like it was something straight out of a porn movie. Next photo. There was her yoga friend in a very blurry photo. You couldn't make out details but her friend was clearly totally naked and now kneeling on the floor next to the bed her head positioned directly between two standing obviously well built male legs. The photo was obviously taken by Samantha and showed her friend blowing a guy. I suddenly felt detached from reality. I knew what to expect.

Next photo. Yes, here was my sexy Chinese girlfriend. She was naked. She lost the towel. The photo quality was a tad better than the previous. Guess her yoga friend had a more steady hand. This photo showed my Samantha on all fours. The male legs were now laying on the floor. She had a dick in her mouth. She had betrayed me. I felt numb and had an erection. Oddest feeling of my life.

There were only three photos on the phone.

I managed to download the photos to a USB key. I contemplated how to confront Samantha. When she woke up a dropped hints. I asked her about the night. I asked her what she did. She said she crashed in her friends bed. Ok, maybe true I thought. I asked her how the "hot guys" were. She said they were pretty "dull" and "not the type of company she enjoys". I then asked her who the

 

[XYZ11]

"hottie" was. She answered that it was an inside joke between her friend and herself. Further questioning was useless. Before she went to bed that night I rechecked her phone. The photos were gone.

I have still not told her I saw the photos.

She has not said anything else about that night. She has been acting normal. If not for seeing the photos I never would have expected a thing.

My feelings about this change everyday. They fluctuate between disgust and being turned on. The reality is this. Transitioning into a cuckold reality is hard. It must be one of the most confusing experiences one can have.

 

[woodshed]

I know exactly how you feel, X. I wanted my wife to be with another man very badly, but when she actually did it, whoa, conflicting emotions. My advice is to enjoy this, it is an awesome feeling. Your girlfriend let another man fuck her. Just think about that, she willingly let another man make love to her. I know that after my wife had sex with other men the sex between us was extremely good and I could not believe how much I wanted her. Good luck

 

[Cuckold87muc]

No matter how you look at it, you have to confront her about it. And you also have to search your thoughts/feelings about all this. Do you really enjoy her cheating on you? Or is it just the thought in general that an engaged woman is cheating on someone? The way I see it it's more probable that the latter is the case.

As I understand it you made it very clear to her that you do not want her to cheat on you and that it's the bull part about cuckolding that excites you. That being the case I do think that she made a serious mistake and shouldn't have betrayed your trust like that.

Sorry to say this but all other guys in this thread that have responded so far seem to be absolutely blinded by their horniness. If this is indeed all true, which I expect it to be, then this is a serious matter and responses like "just relax and enjoy it" or "post the photos d00d" are really inappropriate imho.

Bottom line is, you should sort out your feelings and then have a serious talk with your girl. What she did was wrong as far as I'm concerned.

 

[soulassssns]

Anything new? Would love to hear more about her adventures.

Pix?

 

[mystTiger]

would love to hear more of this story! keep us updated!

 

[wooha]

Wow, so well written! I can imagine myself in the exact situation! I do hope to learn from your experiences though, so please! continue and let us know what has happened!

 

[Saraha]

You have enjoyed cuckold websites for some time, so you can't blame her for flirting with other guys. You have been fantasising, and she has been making it more like true reality.

Many husbands would like to be in your position, with their woman dating other guys in sexy clothing and coming home sloshed and tired out in the early hours.

If you have an argument with her, you will do a lot of damage to your relationship with her. You need to be on the same page as her with your thinking. She obviously felt she couldn't tell you the truth of what happened.

If you truly care about her, you will understand that she is just trying out some of the things you have been looking at on cuckold sites, out of curiosity. If she had not found your internet records, she would never have let herself go out with a hot girlfriend.

Your powerful erections give your thoughts away, and show you are needing her to continue gaining experience with other cock for the emotional thrills it gives you.

You need to have an honest followup talk with her about whether you are going to keep reading and posting about being a cuckold. If you are, then you will have to let her continue (with your permission) to meet men she finds horny.

You are not wise to keep secrets from her, because it just means you will never really find out what she thinks about in her mind. It is better for her to go on dates rather than hide them from you.

 

[Hank jones]

Her not telling you is a problem. You can't build a lasting relationship when one won't be honest. I hope you two work this out she really seems to be yourdream girl good luck.

Use other stories to convy this to her if you can think it out first. Don't start without bejng in control of your feelings.

 

[troutstream]

a heck of a story, seems like u were on an emotional rollercoaster! i have had similar feelings about my wife, but fantasy & reality are to different birds, on one hand the thought of her with other men is a great turn on, but then jealously & dispair can enter the picture, we are very complex animals to say the least

 

[RichCC]

Get your boundaries clear dude

Either you want to live the fantasy, or she cheated and crossed your boundary and that needs to be addressed

I know it's even more of a turnon to have the fantasy become reality out of your control... you'll regret it though. Be mature about things and figure out what you actually want.

 

[XYZ11]

Wow, a lot has passed since June. It was an unreal roller coaster the next several weeks since I last posted here.

It took me about a week of mulling over what happened in my head before I felt comfortable confronting Samantha. I was very hurt by the whole thing. I hated that she lied. I hated that she did not talk to me about her thoughts before making a decision to be with another man. I was angry and I seriously considered breaking up with her during that first week. I began acting distant. She in turn acted more distant. Things were going downhill fast.

Then my anger started to die down. I thought about the mixed messages I sent her through my internet history. I realized that I had not been honest with myself or with her. We both were uncomfortable but longing to expand our sexual horizons, we both really wanted the same things! Well, maybe we did. I had to have a real conversation with her first to find out.

So I ordered some take out. We ate together, first in awkward silence. But then I finally just spilled the beans. It was the pink elephant in the room after all. I told her I saw photos she took while she was clubbing in June. She acted quite innocent at first, but her cheeks were bright red. "Oh, yes we had some wild dancing that night." she said. But I was not letting her off. I said I am disappointed. I told her she betrayed my trust. She started to cry. It was a long long night. But it ended early in the morning with me saying that it turns me on for other men to want her. She was very confused but she suspected that I liked this. I explained my time with Mabel the Chinese wife I cucked prior to meeting her. She had so many questions about my experience with Mabel prior to meeting her. At first the questions which were innocent. What was she like? Was she the first asian woman I was with? Did she have children. But then her questions turned more R rated. What positions did you try? Did you fuck her while her husband was around? What did her pussy feel like? Did the husband watch us fuck? Etc.

Soon her hand was at my dick and she was rubbing me off as she asked me about Mabel. We were both getting turned on. I was feeling so liberated by telling her about this part of my past. Soon we were swaping stories. She told me that she kissed a girl for the first time the night she went out to the club in June. She said she had several drinks and the guys she were with started to encourage her yoga friend and her to kiss. They were reluctant and shy at first. But after more alcohol and more encouragement they kissed. At first it was a pick on the lips. A second later they were tongue tied together. Soon they were making out in a dark corner with a few of the guys with them looking on. She said she felt so sexy and turned on. She said kissing her girlfriend was unlike anything she experienced before. She noted her friends soft lips, the way the held her waste and touched her face. She noted her gentle smell. She said it was a different kind of sexy. She also enjoyed turning these attractive men on. Soon they were touching her legs her ass as she was with her yoga friend. This created what she described as a "flood of good feelings".

When the club closed her friend and her agreed to invite on particularly sexy guy from the group back to her place. There the guy watched for a bit as my gf was eaten out for the first time ever by a girl. She said that this was in the top three most intense experiences of her life. She noted that soon the guy who was previously just sitting on a chair enjoying a beer was called over by her yoga friend. She noted that her friend was like another person by this point. She was in such a state of pleasure that she could only think about one thing. She quickly ripped the clothes off the other guy and gave him a quick bj and then rolled on her back for the guy could fuck her. My gf noted that it was beautiful seeing her friends small soft body wrapped around this muscular male as she moaned. My gf said she kissed her friend as she was being fucked and could feel her body twitching in ecstasy.

Soon this guy finished inside her yoga friend and told my girl friend to lay down next to her friend and spread her legs. She was initially resistant she said. But upon further questioning she quickly admitted that she hesitated only for a few second and that her friend reassured her that she should let herself go. She did. She said that this man fucked her. She said that his cock felt thicker but did not penetrate as deeply as mine. She said the biggest turn on was having her nipples licked while this thick dick fucked her. In the end the guy finished on my gf stomach upon her urging and then she sucked him off...

It was an amazing night. We fucked like rabbits for weeks after that. We also agreed that we both are turned on by the thought of us playing with others. After more talking we realized that we probably don't fit into the category of cuckolding. But we are probably both certainly swingers.

In Aug we posted a profile on a swingers web site. We have had one great adventure together so far. I think this has confirmed our original thoughts. We have never been happier. It has been a hard emotional journey. But as we learn to communicate better everyday we feel closer and more free than ever before.


Since Aug Samantha has given you "okay" to the phone pictures I discovered in June being posted. So here they are.