Hi,
I last posted in 07 http://www.darkcavern.com/forums/archived-posts/26221-big-breasted-white-wife.html
I have tried to ignore my desires and keep away from web sites such as this and get our sex live back on track but I just can't. I look at her curvy, voluptous body and big tits and then look at my short thin penis and know deep down that I do not deserve to even sleep in the same bed as her.
Since then our sex life has pretty much disappeared due to busy lives and work schedules but this is something that strangely excites me. I actually get so aroused at the thought of never having sex with my wife again, knowing that I am depriving myself of her buxom body and not fulfilling my duties as a husband. The worst thought imaginable that I could even one day lose her because of my reckless actions and send her into the arms of another man is also oddly arousing.
My wife has grown used to our sexless marriage and makes do with a vibrator and I spend my time masturbating my little penis thinking about her neglected vagina and what it once felt like to touch and enjoy. I now like to shamefully smell her worn panties to remind myself how much I miss her sexually and perv at her like a dirty old man when she is getting dressed and undressed. I get a kick from sneakily peeking at her panties when she is wearing her short night clothes to bed and catching glimses of her hairy vagina visible through her comfy, lacy panties.
She is a very loyal wife and committed herself to me 100% on our wedding day but I am hoping one day she finds herself in a situation whereby another man whom she finds attractive shows her some attention and she is tempted to fall for his advances. Even the very thought of another man kissing her for the first time is highly arousing.
In the meantime I would very much like to begin a relationship with another man to fully discuss my feelings and desires, find someone that can totally control my sexual state of mind, indulge my dirty naughty fantasies and make sure I can never manage to find it in myself to have sexual contact with her again. Make me fully come to terms with the fact that I do not deserve her anymore and ensure I only see her only as a sex object that deserves to have her milky white big tittied body lusted after by other men, especially strong dominant black men.
Thank you
I last posted in 07 http://www.darkcavern.com/forums/archived-posts/26221-big-breasted-white-wife.html
I have tried to ignore my desires and keep away from web sites such as this and get our sex live back on track but I just can't. I look at her curvy, voluptous body and big tits and then look at my short thin penis and know deep down that I do not deserve to even sleep in the same bed as her.
Since then our sex life has pretty much disappeared due to busy lives and work schedules but this is something that strangely excites me. I actually get so aroused at the thought of never having sex with my wife again, knowing that I am depriving myself of her buxom body and not fulfilling my duties as a husband. The worst thought imaginable that I could even one day lose her because of my reckless actions and send her into the arms of another man is also oddly arousing.
My wife has grown used to our sexless marriage and makes do with a vibrator and I spend my time masturbating my little penis thinking about her neglected vagina and what it once felt like to touch and enjoy. I now like to shamefully smell her worn panties to remind myself how much I miss her sexually and perv at her like a dirty old man when she is getting dressed and undressed. I get a kick from sneakily peeking at her panties when she is wearing her short night clothes to bed and catching glimses of her hairy vagina visible through her comfy, lacy panties.
She is a very loyal wife and committed herself to me 100% on our wedding day but I am hoping one day she finds herself in a situation whereby another man whom she finds attractive shows her some attention and she is tempted to fall for his advances. Even the very thought of another man kissing her for the first time is highly arousing.
In the meantime I would very much like to begin a relationship with another man to fully discuss my feelings and desires, find someone that can totally control my sexual state of mind, indulge my dirty naughty fantasies and make sure I can never manage to find it in myself to have sexual contact with her again. Make me fully come to terms with the fact that I do not deserve her anymore and ensure I only see her only as a sex object that deserves to have her milky white big tittied body lusted after by other men, especially strong dominant black men.
Thank you
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