So Ive got a very weird weird dilemma here and finally decided to join a chat group to discuss things.
Ive always been more of an alpha and the only people I would ever share my wife/Gf with would be another female (which was very rare)
About 10 years into my current marriage I began cheating- It was dumb, because my wife is a gorgeous woman and fantastic in bed- keeping things exciting even after the 10 yeas marriage. Truth is, there was no reason I should have cheated since my needs had been met at home but it was a situation of opportunity and availability and one that I took.
Long story short- I began an affair that lasted a couple years and my wife found out and it was a bad scene.
She was going to leave to leave me and we separated (her idea) but were still living in the same home and she started revenge fucking and coming home a total mess- Her hair messy, makeup running and clothes missing type situation and it infuriated me but in some way really, really turned me on.
Ive always been into trading pictures and such but never sharing or swinging and at this point even though we were still sleeping together , we were for all intents and purposes broken up (although I was trying to reconcile and she was not)
So... (again, I'm trying to make a very long story into a short one) we ended up fixing our marriage, I learned my lesson about cheating (I mean that sincerely, I almost lost my best friend and my world over some pussy) and we got on with our lives.
We've now been married about 14 1/2 years-
But I cannot forget her coming home like she had, knowing she had been drinking and fucking - Her hair totally fucked up and makeup all smeared- Turns out she was fucking a few (yes like at least 3) people and went total slut and purposefully was coming home like that so I would know what she had been doing- And now when when I fuck her years later- I still think about how hot that was - Especially now that things are fixed in our marriage and it no longer pisses me off.
Now that we're back to being best friends and our trust is back I actually want her to come home like that again- She recently went on a business trip and I hinted around that she should take that time to fuck someone (made for some great pillow talk) because I cannot get those images of what she looked like (and what she had done) out of my head - But she didnt seem receptive beyond just pillow talk.
The whole thing is now driving me a bit nuts- When this all was happening it was horrible because I thought I was losing her but now that I know we're secure I want her to come home like that occasionally because she wanted it (and not to make me jealous)- especially at her work where she will have to deal with it on a day to day basis.
I've spoken with her about swapping or swinging and she claims she "couldn't deal with me being with anyone else" and then ive talked to her about her just lying about working late one night, fucking her brains out and coming home like she did before (ive told her how it did turn me on) and that I wouldnt say a thing and she said "its a fun fantasy but I dont want anyone but you"
So I'm in a dilemma I never thought I would find myself in- years ago I would have killed someone and now I would shake their hand lol- I mean, not really since I dont want to know the person but the idea of her having non-emotional sex and coming home a total wreck and late and lying about it is something that really is turning me on and driving me crazy.
I know she fucked at least 3 people (perhaps more but 3 for sure) when we were having issue and the thought of her being a total slut like that drives me up a wall. And now, I wouldn't be jealous or mad and I cant get her to do it.
Any suggestions or questions? I never imagined this would turn me on at all and was always even opposed to swinging because of another male and now that things have went down like they have I just cannot get those images out of my head at how hot she looked when she was out being a slut and coming home walking funny , slightly ***** and in total dissaray.
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Ive always been more of an alpha and the only people I would ever share my wife/Gf with would be another female (which was very rare)
About 10 years into my current marriage I began cheating- It was dumb, because my wife is a gorgeous woman and fantastic in bed- keeping things exciting even after the 10 yeas marriage. Truth is, there was no reason I should have cheated since my needs had been met at home but it was a situation of opportunity and availability and one that I took.
Long story short- I began an affair that lasted a couple years and my wife found out and it was a bad scene.
She was going to leave to leave me and we separated (her idea) but were still living in the same home and she started revenge fucking and coming home a total mess- Her hair messy, makeup running and clothes missing type situation and it infuriated me but in some way really, really turned me on.
Ive always been into trading pictures and such but never sharing or swinging and at this point even though we were still sleeping together , we were for all intents and purposes broken up (although I was trying to reconcile and she was not)
So... (again, I'm trying to make a very long story into a short one) we ended up fixing our marriage, I learned my lesson about cheating (I mean that sincerely, I almost lost my best friend and my world over some pussy) and we got on with our lives.
We've now been married about 14 1/2 years-
But I cannot forget her coming home like she had, knowing she had been drinking and fucking - Her hair totally fucked up and makeup all smeared- Turns out she was fucking a few (yes like at least 3) people and went total slut and purposefully was coming home like that so I would know what she had been doing- And now when when I fuck her years later- I still think about how hot that was - Especially now that things are fixed in our marriage and it no longer pisses me off.
Now that we're back to being best friends and our trust is back I actually want her to come home like that again- She recently went on a business trip and I hinted around that she should take that time to fuck someone (made for some great pillow talk) because I cannot get those images of what she looked like (and what she had done) out of my head - But she didnt seem receptive beyond just pillow talk.
The whole thing is now driving me a bit nuts- When this all was happening it was horrible because I thought I was losing her but now that I know we're secure I want her to come home like that occasionally because she wanted it (and not to make me jealous)- especially at her work where she will have to deal with it on a day to day basis.
I've spoken with her about swapping or swinging and she claims she "couldn't deal with me being with anyone else" and then ive talked to her about her just lying about working late one night, fucking her brains out and coming home like she did before (ive told her how it did turn me on) and that I wouldnt say a thing and she said "its a fun fantasy but I dont want anyone but you"
So I'm in a dilemma I never thought I would find myself in- years ago I would have killed someone and now I would shake their hand lol- I mean, not really since I dont want to know the person but the idea of her having non-emotional sex and coming home a total wreck and late and lying about it is something that really is turning me on and driving me crazy.
I know she fucked at least 3 people (perhaps more but 3 for sure) when we were having issue and the thought of her being a total slut like that drives me up a wall. And now, I wouldn't be jealous or mad and I cant get her to do it.
Any suggestions or questions? I never imagined this would turn me on at all and was always even opposed to swinging because of another male and now that things have went down like they have I just cannot get those images out of my head at how hot she looked when she was out being a slut and coming home walking funny , slightly ***** and in total dissaray.
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