I have come here for some help. Most places that I have posted have either called me a phony or made fun of my situation. For many years my wife and I had a great sexual relationship. We often would fantasize about me sharing her with another man. She seemed hot for the idea although it was always in the heat of her coming but never really talked to much about it outside the bedroom other than to say some day she would try it.
Okay here is what probably makes me different from the rest of you. I am currently 38 and my wife is 29. Five years ago I had what they call a partial penectomy (removal of the penis) due to penile cancer. They called it partial...al they left me with was part of my glans (head) and the nerves. A plastic surgeon told me that he could take muscles from my leg and make me a penis that would for the most part function as my real one. After alot of councelling, depression and almost losing my wife I came to a decision. Basically through surgery I have what looks and functions like a vagina. Now understand this I AM NOT Gay. I love my wife thoroughly. The surgury for the reconstructed penis is supposed to very painful and 80 percent of the time even with inserts sexual intercourse is not possible. I currently take a daily regimen of testosterone to keep my manly appearance. Okay now onto my question....if you want to chastise me please dont respond. I have endured more over the last 5 and half years than you will ever know.
I have been pushing my wife to seek out married men to have sex with. I figured if she was going to leave me she would have by now anyways. Recently she has hooked up with a black guy that she works with. Even though my equipment is for the most part gone...I still have strong sexual desires and do often climax. She always tells me about here dates with him. Two weeks ago she came to me and said that we need to talk. Oh boy here we go...I am thinking that she is going to leave me....this was not the case. She proceeds to tell me that she told Mel (her lover) about me. All about me! It seems that she wants me and Mel to be together with her. I am not really ready for this. Although the thought of watching her is hot...I will feel like the odd man out. My fears are that if I agree an am there she will try to coax me to have intercourse with him. If I say no...I feel like I am pushing her away. I like the fact that I am sharing her and allowing her to control pretty much about everything in our lives. I just dont know about this situation at all! Any good thoughts or ideas would be greatly appreciated. Negative comments will be ignored.
Thanks
Okay here is what probably makes me different from the rest of you. I am currently 38 and my wife is 29. Five years ago I had what they call a partial penectomy (removal of the penis) due to penile cancer. They called it partial...al they left me with was part of my glans (head) and the nerves. A plastic surgeon told me that he could take muscles from my leg and make me a penis that would for the most part function as my real one. After alot of councelling, depression and almost losing my wife I came to a decision. Basically through surgery I have what looks and functions like a vagina. Now understand this I AM NOT Gay. I love my wife thoroughly. The surgury for the reconstructed penis is supposed to very painful and 80 percent of the time even with inserts sexual intercourse is not possible. I currently take a daily regimen of testosterone to keep my manly appearance. Okay now onto my question....if you want to chastise me please dont respond. I have endured more over the last 5 and half years than you will ever know.
I have been pushing my wife to seek out married men to have sex with. I figured if she was going to leave me she would have by now anyways. Recently she has hooked up with a black guy that she works with. Even though my equipment is for the most part gone...I still have strong sexual desires and do often climax. She always tells me about here dates with him. Two weeks ago she came to me and said that we need to talk. Oh boy here we go...I am thinking that she is going to leave me....this was not the case. She proceeds to tell me that she told Mel (her lover) about me. All about me! It seems that she wants me and Mel to be together with her. I am not really ready for this. Although the thought of watching her is hot...I will feel like the odd man out. My fears are that if I agree an am there she will try to coax me to have intercourse with him. If I say no...I feel like I am pushing her away. I like the fact that I am sharing her and allowing her to control pretty much about everything in our lives. I just dont know about this situation at all! Any good thoughts or ideas would be greatly appreciated. Negative comments will be ignored.
Thanks