me and my husband are new to the wife sharing thing. My husband isn't quite the full cuckold...still the dominant male but loves to watch me have sex with well endowed black men. Here lately I am starting to feel the same way I began feeling in our relationship. I'm starting to feel neglected. Seeing how much my husband loves this lifestyle, when I'm not I to it as much he tends to go out asking others if he can watch them or starts going to other women. I'm a VERY jealous wife. I don't share my husband at all. But because I do love him so much I decided to try to make his fantasies true life visions. Regardless of my comfort zone. I still feel in ways that even though this is done together (I never do anything behind his back or without him) I'm cheating and u faithful to him. I would just love to go back to the "normal" life and him love me to not want to share me at all, but I've created a monster. But I feel neglected alot more since this has been happening in our life. We use to have a great sex life. Now since all of this our sex life is almost down to nothing. (unless hes arranged for a guy to come over). He swears he loves me and that his love is even more special and deeper than what he could ever have for any other woman because I've chosen to do his fantasies. Because I've shown a love for him that noone else has by doing this. But his fantasies have become obsession and I don't know how to feel anymore. I crave my husbands feel,touch,love,sex,and more importantly time and attention. But I feel he can only provide that when I'm with another man. how can we both fix this so that we can both feel satisfied in this relationship. Because I feel like the balance is way off and that I'm the one giving him everything while I in turn get nothin but anguish and heartbreak.
can anyone relate or at least help me understand and fix this
can anyone relate or at least help me understand and fix this