I’m a submissive and I feel I have been all my life. I always felt inferior, it started when I was a little boy. What happened that really helped me out was when I met a 40 year old gay black Master when I was 17. He taught me to embrace being submissive accept who I am. That I’ll always have superior people in my life and that will rule over me. He said like I am over you now, and how great you feel when you obey your Master isn’t that true and I said yes Master. You understand that it means certain sacrifices that you must make and physical and mental pain you must endure, to prove your love and obedience and this pain will become your source of pleasure, do you understand and I said yes Master . Then he said knell before me and I did and he said your going to be receiving ritual whippings and you’ll be required to do certain tasks that will get rid of any resistance to my rule over you. Master John took out his leather belt and gave me a harsh whipping on my ass and back. It hurt pretty bad when he was finished whipping me I kissed his feet and thanked him and of course Master John was right I felt great and I was so turned on when he fucked my mouth , I almost had a hands free orgasm. Each time Master John disciplined me with his belt well I just went deeper in submission to him, giving orders was just second nature to him , he demanded complete respect and attention. I just didn’t care what anyone thought of me . I kind of lost the inner dialogue in my mind I just focused on Masters words, I guess it was like a trance state of mind and I was in love with Master. He only shared me one time Master and Master Akeem tag teamed me one time. It was very hard on me when Master broke up with me after 8 months. I begged him please Master don’t make me go but his mind was made up. The bright spot was I met my Dominant wife soon after and she just took right up after Master John and she only dated black men all her life. We ran into Master Akeem and he said Master John does that all the time he gets young white boys and turns into his bitches and then he turns them lose and well they become life long sun slaves.