Long story short, my wife after 8 years of marriage and two kids recently confessed that she was basically a complete slut the whole year preceding our marriage while we were engaged. I was working overseas for that year so we didn't see each other much that year. She had a few full time boyfriends and did all kinds of crazy and wild things.
This hurt me a lot since I always saw her as a very sweet innocent girl. I was her first in every way. During that year we talked daily on the phone and she constantly told me how important I was and how much she loved me, all the while she was getting banged at least twice a day. A few times her lovers condoms broke and she almost got pregnant.
After a few years of calling her a 2 faced bitch and a ***** to the point of it getting physical several times. I hated her f..king guts but we both stayed in it for the kids.
Now after a few years I still hate her at least once a day but the thoughts of the details she told me really turn me on now. The fire has subdued and we have burnt each other out with anger and fighting. Now I have come to terms with the fact that she really is truly a slut and a *****. Looking back it all makes sense now. Even when I called her a ***** during sex, she used to say "you have no idea". I thought she was just role playing but she really meant it. She admits now that it is such a turn on for her to leave me clueless. She gets really turned on by just plain cheating and not telling me. Also, she admits that at least half of the guys she was with had thicker cocks and she has had to think of them sometimes to reach orgasm. She said the thicker guys made her come almost immediately whereas it takes me up to an hour sometimes if I can make her come at all. When she does come with me its only because of the power she feels by fucking a small cock.
Anyway, now I want her to cuckold me and I have been asking her for over 2 years now and she says she will but just won't. In general she has been having a "Mary Poppins" attitude like she some virgin angel. She used to be a real perverted little ***** into everything and everything. Now she shy's away from the slightest request of anything kinky or perverted. Now all she wants is extended foreplay, a lot of petting, a lot of cuddling, etc... All kink is out the window. She used to hate foreplay and just wanted me to "stick it in".
I don't even know if I really want to be cucked. Most of the time I am fine with it but for the few minutes after I cum I really don't. So what's the true feeling? Does everybody hate being cucked or temporarily hate their wife for the few minutes after orgasm for being such a cold hearted slut?
How should I handle these feelings and this dilemma? She we go forward with cucking or do I need to check myself first? If I want to go forward how do I get her back to being horny and perverted again? It's like she's trying to prove to me after all that, that she's some sweet angel, instead of the true slut I know she is.
This hurt me a lot since I always saw her as a very sweet innocent girl. I was her first in every way. During that year we talked daily on the phone and she constantly told me how important I was and how much she loved me, all the while she was getting banged at least twice a day. A few times her lovers condoms broke and she almost got pregnant.
After a few years of calling her a 2 faced bitch and a ***** to the point of it getting physical several times. I hated her f..king guts but we both stayed in it for the kids.
Now after a few years I still hate her at least once a day but the thoughts of the details she told me really turn me on now. The fire has subdued and we have burnt each other out with anger and fighting. Now I have come to terms with the fact that she really is truly a slut and a *****. Looking back it all makes sense now. Even when I called her a ***** during sex, she used to say "you have no idea". I thought she was just role playing but she really meant it. She admits now that it is such a turn on for her to leave me clueless. She gets really turned on by just plain cheating and not telling me. Also, she admits that at least half of the guys she was with had thicker cocks and she has had to think of them sometimes to reach orgasm. She said the thicker guys made her come almost immediately whereas it takes me up to an hour sometimes if I can make her come at all. When she does come with me its only because of the power she feels by fucking a small cock.
Anyway, now I want her to cuckold me and I have been asking her for over 2 years now and she says she will but just won't. In general she has been having a "Mary Poppins" attitude like she some virgin angel. She used to be a real perverted little ***** into everything and everything. Now she shy's away from the slightest request of anything kinky or perverted. Now all she wants is extended foreplay, a lot of petting, a lot of cuddling, etc... All kink is out the window. She used to hate foreplay and just wanted me to "stick it in".
I don't even know if I really want to be cucked. Most of the time I am fine with it but for the few minutes after I cum I really don't. So what's the true feeling? Does everybody hate being cucked or temporarily hate their wife for the few minutes after orgasm for being such a cold hearted slut?
How should I handle these feelings and this dilemma? She we go forward with cucking or do I need to check myself first? If I want to go forward how do I get her back to being horny and perverted again? It's like she's trying to prove to me after all that, that she's some sweet angel, instead of the true slut I know she is.
