I'm a 60 mwm in KY. I'm wealthy. I've run companies for 30 years - International C-Suite Exec. I've had many women - single and married, (mostly married) throughout my career. I met the woman who tamed me finally when I was in my 50s. She was exotic, smart, savvy and by far - by far - the hottest woman I've ever had in my life. She made me swear off being unfaithful - swear off other women - for the first time in my life. I was in heaven. I got stricken with ED - bad. The kind of ED that pills don't help. The kind of ED that prevents me from fucking her properly for 4 years. The kind of ED that has her no longer looking at me with respect but looking at my wallet. She loves the 0's in my bank account but needs a real man. Not being stupid, and not being a man without options, let's just say I have access to her phone and laptop. I know she has cheated. Not often but I know. I let her. She doesn't know I know. When it happened, it brought into the forefront that I am no longer man enough for her. It broke me. It moved me from Alpha to Beta. From Dominant to Submissive. For the first time in my life I see myself sucking a cock - not because I'm attracted to men, but because I realize I am no longer a man. She is gone and don't blame her. I pay the bills, I buy her cars, jewelry and real estate but I can't buy her love. What I can do is find a man to seduce her (long term) and have him give me ALL the details so I can live the white hot pain of humiliation and loss the rest of my marriage. I will never let her know I know - and I seek a man who will never tell her I set her up - and will give me ALL the details. This has been a tragic, hurtful journey looking for the right man. So many men want to play this one way - they won't even share a pic and want contact info of the love of my life. Doesn't work that way. I'm still looking for that one man who is worthy and when I find him, I will update this post

