wsh said:
My women is happy with my performance.
That's good, of course.
wsh said:
And in our last vacation she found a chubby but nice lady for FFM. I fucked her doggy style while my women was cheering me on. The lady enjoyed it as much as we did.
Sounds very erotic.
wsh said:
I just did not expect that it is so much more difficult for me alone to find a women only for sex, than 15 years ago. Back then there were much more women my age single and open for causal. Women who today are in my age range are divorced, want sth...
What is "sth"?
wsh said:
.... [are] serious and are out when I tell them I have a partner and just want a fuck relationship for half a year.
This sounds like an apparently-common way that "swinging marriages" turn out. An unspoken competition tends to develop between the man and the woman as to who can bed more people of the opposite sex. The woman wins this (unspoken) competition easily, because clearly it's greatly to the advantage of single men to fuck a woman who's married to (or in an LTR relationship with) another man. I.e., obviously, it gives him a chance to pass his genes along to the next generation, at no cost to himself. There is no comparable advantage, however, to a single woman in fucking a man who is married to (or in an LTR relationship with) another woman. The resulting tension can lead to the end of the "swinging relationship" (i.e., divorce). If the couple stays married (or together, if they aren't married), the "swinging relationship" fairly often evolves (apparently) into a "hotwife / cuckold husband"relationship.
wsh said:
I also figured out that prostitutes are not so much my thing.
Seeing prostitutes with any regularity can become expensive.
wsh said:
That's why I am currently not having much sex.
Per the paragraph above.
wsh said:
Anyway the "FFM" was great, just did not expect that the price [would be] so high and my girl [would] start fucking around like crazy (I always thought it was one time thing and [would] stop.
Once you let your woman's sexual genie out of its bottle, you found you could not put it back in.
wsh said:
She had a ONS with a stranger, another ONS with another stranger, an older guy at a work-related senior position, who had a vasectomy, fucked her bareback and used her pussy as a cum dump.... 6 times (!). and now guy no. 4, who moved into a hotel in the city she works for one week, and she moved in with him and spends his vacation with him.
You should be proud of your woman for her ability to easily attract and fuck other men.
wsh said:
We are really unlucky. I am also sitting at home now with vacations. Actually, she wanted to come home, and if not, I wanted to fly to her place. Both did not work out, so instead of spending holidays with my girl, I can only watch her spending it with another guy.
Although you are not married, it sounds like you have, in effect, become the cuckold in a "hot woman / cuckold boyfriend" relationship. Since you are facing a holiday season with some time to yourself, it might help you to gain more insight into relationships of this nature if you were to order and read:
Ley, David J., 2009, Insatiable Wives: Women who stray and the men who love them (Roman & Littlefield Publishers, Inc., 291 pp.).