Hi. I've been lurking a while. I'm 32 years old, my girlfriend is 25. We have two children, ages 1 and 3.
We have never talked about anything to do with cuckolding, I don't even think my gf knows what it means... But I think I've become one for her anyway.
I don't have a small dick, maybe about average size. But it has never been quite enough to fill her. We managed happily for some years and even got two babies. But all the time, I was able to satisfy myself into her, but then I had to use toys, or later fistfuck her to make her satisfied too. At first it seemed fun and kinky, all seemed fine.
But in time, I think it turned upside down. She didn't enjoy a normal fuck by me at all. It seemed like a necessary bad, and then I had to give her the fist fuck she actually wanted. Soon I even lost interest in fucking her because I could see she wasn't enjoying it at all. We started to skip the normal fuck and go straight to me fisting her, usually in both holes. Some time ago she still used to give me a blow- or a handjob to thank me, but she lost interest in that too. I just jerked off. Nowadays I do that in the toilet, after I'm done with her.
One summer, over a year ago I caught her cheating on me. She used to go to a nightclub with her friends "to have a few drinks and dance with the girls". Well, it turned out she gave blowjobs in the nightclub toilet to strangers and often went to some guys for sex. I caught her talking over the phone to her best friend with whome she usually went out. My gf thought I had fallen asleep after drinking much beer and she went to another room to make the phonecall. But I woke up and heard her talk.
We had a huge argument, basically our relationship crumbled apart. I kept asking why. She kept telling me that for a long time she hadn't felt anything sexual with me and she wanted to try if she could feel something sexual with someone else. She said she still loved me. I was devastated. I couldn't take it.
But I seemed to have no choice. As she gave me a choice, either I shut up or move out and end up losing my children to her. I didn't want the family to break apart, so what could I do. I smiled through my teeth and "forgave her".
Well. For many months now, I've been smiling like the happy daddy, while I have very little sexual to do with her. When I want some, I get to kiss and hug, then lick her pussy and end up with my fist up her pussy and ass. Then I am left to jerk off on my own. She goes out "with the girls" twice or more times a week, while I take care of our kids at home like the good father I try to be.
She never tells me who she's been with or what she's been doing, and that bugs me. I jerk off many times each day in the toilet, trying to imagine what she does when she's out drinking all night.
So we never got into this cuckolding thing by any kind of agreement, and I still don't think she knows what that even means, but she is a genuine slut and truly cuckolds me if I've understood what the word means. I am thankful for getting to lick her and fist fuck her, but I am very jealous of all the action I don't get to experience, or see, or even hear stories about.
Any comments?
We have never talked about anything to do with cuckolding, I don't even think my gf knows what it means... But I think I've become one for her anyway.
I don't have a small dick, maybe about average size. But it has never been quite enough to fill her. We managed happily for some years and even got two babies. But all the time, I was able to satisfy myself into her, but then I had to use toys, or later fistfuck her to make her satisfied too. At first it seemed fun and kinky, all seemed fine.
But in time, I think it turned upside down. She didn't enjoy a normal fuck by me at all. It seemed like a necessary bad, and then I had to give her the fist fuck she actually wanted. Soon I even lost interest in fucking her because I could see she wasn't enjoying it at all. We started to skip the normal fuck and go straight to me fisting her, usually in both holes. Some time ago she still used to give me a blow- or a handjob to thank me, but she lost interest in that too. I just jerked off. Nowadays I do that in the toilet, after I'm done with her.
One summer, over a year ago I caught her cheating on me. She used to go to a nightclub with her friends "to have a few drinks and dance with the girls". Well, it turned out she gave blowjobs in the nightclub toilet to strangers and often went to some guys for sex. I caught her talking over the phone to her best friend with whome she usually went out. My gf thought I had fallen asleep after drinking much beer and she went to another room to make the phonecall. But I woke up and heard her talk.
We had a huge argument, basically our relationship crumbled apart. I kept asking why. She kept telling me that for a long time she hadn't felt anything sexual with me and she wanted to try if she could feel something sexual with someone else. She said she still loved me. I was devastated. I couldn't take it.
But I seemed to have no choice. As she gave me a choice, either I shut up or move out and end up losing my children to her. I didn't want the family to break apart, so what could I do. I smiled through my teeth and "forgave her".
Well. For many months now, I've been smiling like the happy daddy, while I have very little sexual to do with her. When I want some, I get to kiss and hug, then lick her pussy and end up with my fist up her pussy and ass. Then I am left to jerk off on my own. She goes out "with the girls" twice or more times a week, while I take care of our kids at home like the good father I try to be.
She never tells me who she's been with or what she's been doing, and that bugs me. I jerk off many times each day in the toilet, trying to imagine what she does when she's out drinking all night.
So we never got into this cuckolding thing by any kind of agreement, and I still don't think she knows what that even means, but she is a genuine slut and truly cuckolds me if I've understood what the word means. I am thankful for getting to lick her and fist fuck her, but I am very jealous of all the action I don't get to experience, or see, or even hear stories about.
Any comments?
