Partly because she saw him this past weekend and partly due to scheduling, they are only seeing each other on Thursday this week.
I joked with her that by then she'll be quite horny and she hugged me and said "you never know, you might get lucky before then!".
She also said that it won't be till next week then when they see each other again and she asked me if it was going to be okay if they were together more at his place than ours. I smiled and told her what I'd said long ago, that sometimes not being there is more exciting and I added, especially if you are willing to share like you did the other day.
Peak, if I had to guess I'm hoping she's serious and that'd be once either tonight or maybe tomorrow. I expect to have sex with her again over the weekend and if not during next week then hopefully twice more over Easter weekend as she's also mentioned making that a "special night" for us.
And yes - to be honest, this is the first time I've actually 'counted' that way and wow, I am actually a bit speechless right now as I'm typing and realize that I likely have at most 4 more times to have intercourse with her. That IS a bit sobering. But shit - my cock is growing hard as I'm typing this. I know it sounds weird but in a way, I really do just want to get on with it. Kind of like ripping that band-aid off instead of pulling it slowly.
Raks, Sue's said, in her own way, that she doesn't think it's going to last the year out with Paul. I can't be specific about her reference but I know it's quite clear. Yes, 9 months is a long time if that's how long it will be. And yes, I quite expect that I won't be invited to feel her body - perhaps she'll allow me to feel her butt - but she's made it clear that breasts and pussy (and by extension, bare-butt too) will likely be off-limits without her initiation or invitation. I understand it, crazy to say it, but I think I really do understand what she wants - it's similar to my desires, but with her direction more than mine. You also continue to ask about a safe-word but I know from her honesty that if I ever felt that I truly had to have her - and not just a drunken desire but something dramatic or traumatic or significant that I felt I needed her fully - I have no doubts that she would say "sure honey", I really don't. See, one of the things she has continued to emphasize to me is that she wants to know that this is what I want to have happen. And for now, yes, I really do want to see her give herself fully sexually (and yes, more, I know, emotion is always there) to him and yes, to deny me. But at the same time I know that if I didn't feel enjoyment or was truly miserable about what was happening, then that motivation for her would disappear and she would know that when she goes to meet him that instead of arousing me and turning me on, that it was hurting me - if she knew that I am confident she wouldn't be able to or want to go to him. I know that you think that may be thinking cavalierly about it but at the same time, I know how we've spoken to each other and what we've both expressed. She wants to work things out sexually and this is an opportunity to tweak many things all at once that we've also agreed that even if we have some slight misgivings, that this situation may never occur again. But I do honestly believe her what she says about what she wants and how she feels.
I joked with her that by then she'll be quite horny and she hugged me and said "you never know, you might get lucky before then!".
She also said that it won't be till next week then when they see each other again and she asked me if it was going to be okay if they were together more at his place than ours. I smiled and told her what I'd said long ago, that sometimes not being there is more exciting and I added, especially if you are willing to share like you did the other day.
Peak, if I had to guess I'm hoping she's serious and that'd be once either tonight or maybe tomorrow. I expect to have sex with her again over the weekend and if not during next week then hopefully twice more over Easter weekend as she's also mentioned making that a "special night" for us.
And yes - to be honest, this is the first time I've actually 'counted' that way and wow, I am actually a bit speechless right now as I'm typing and realize that I likely have at most 4 more times to have intercourse with her. That IS a bit sobering. But shit - my cock is growing hard as I'm typing this. I know it sounds weird but in a way, I really do just want to get on with it. Kind of like ripping that band-aid off instead of pulling it slowly.
Raks, Sue's said, in her own way, that she doesn't think it's going to last the year out with Paul. I can't be specific about her reference but I know it's quite clear. Yes, 9 months is a long time if that's how long it will be. And yes, I quite expect that I won't be invited to feel her body - perhaps she'll allow me to feel her butt - but she's made it clear that breasts and pussy (and by extension, bare-butt too) will likely be off-limits without her initiation or invitation. I understand it, crazy to say it, but I think I really do understand what she wants - it's similar to my desires, but with her direction more than mine. You also continue to ask about a safe-word but I know from her honesty that if I ever felt that I truly had to have her - and not just a drunken desire but something dramatic or traumatic or significant that I felt I needed her fully - I have no doubts that she would say "sure honey", I really don't. See, one of the things she has continued to emphasize to me is that she wants to know that this is what I want to have happen. And for now, yes, I really do want to see her give herself fully sexually (and yes, more, I know, emotion is always there) to him and yes, to deny me. But at the same time I know that if I didn't feel enjoyment or was truly miserable about what was happening, then that motivation for her would disappear and she would know that when she goes to meet him that instead of arousing me and turning me on, that it was hurting me - if she knew that I am confident she wouldn't be able to or want to go to him. I know that you think that may be thinking cavalierly about it but at the same time, I know how we've spoken to each other and what we've both expressed. She wants to work things out sexually and this is an opportunity to tweak many things all at once that we've also agreed that even if we have some slight misgivings, that this situation may never occur again. But I do honestly believe her what she says about what she wants and how she feels.
