Hi, just jumping in with my two cents...
I never thought about sucking cock until my wife cheated a couple years ago.
Learning about her cheating initially triggered my own cuckold feelings, curiosity, identification etc.
But I wasn’t willing to risk my regular/normal life/marriage by talking to my wife about it, or tell her that I’d begun masturbating imagining her with the guy.
When my wife and I were first dating, one night when she’d been drinking and was horny, she’d told me how she really loved giving BJs…how unlike some girls who did it just to make the guy happy, she really got turned on by giving them.
Anyway, since we’ve been married, BJs are far less often, and after she cheated, I imagined my wife, with the guy that weekend, on her knees lustily sucking him off.
Some of her close friends from home were also aware my wife cheated, so I felt additionally humiliated, like I’d been publicly cuckolded.
I imagined having to run into the guy who f’d my wife at some other event in the future, where I’d meekly watch him seduce and fuck her again.
And then in one out-of-the-blue moment, I imagined myself on my knees in front of the guy and found myself hard at the idea of being told to suck it.
Masturbating to the idea eventually led me to looking online and I met an otherwise heterosexual guy, who was only interested in getting BJs from married guys or guys w/gfs.
He also wanted to be viewing pictures of my wife as I blew him, so I made a whole slide show of photos for him to scroll through. He was 10+ years older than me, like the guy my wife cheated with, and part of it was projecting like he was the guy who f’d my wife.
He also dirty-talked a lot as I blew him, like how I was a cocksucker now, how he’d be fucking my wife’s pussy soon, and it all just added to the whole mental surealness. It also felt like I was getting this whole other kind of cuckold experience, submitting to a more dominant man, without my wife & the real world being involved.
I don’t know if it’s the physical aspect of doing it, or all the mental-pre & post thinking/imagining that was more of the turn-on for me.
Like with the guy from last year, I was shy & didn’t touch myself during it, and it was mostly just the adrenaline and the wildness of what I was doing, that had me pretty rock hard as I was sucking.
But it was afterwards alone, thinking about what I’d just let another man do, the things he’d said, looking at the photos I’d showed him…it became what I masturbated to, for the next couple months afterwards.
My wife had a zoom with her friends from home recently (some of whom know my wife cuckolded me), which was a bit awkward for me having to join my wife’s zoom.
So that had me thinking about it again lately and saw the recent post & just figured I’d say hi & share.
