A sleepless night gives me a chance to write a post. I have fallen behind, sorry, so I'll try to catch up. Things have been happening.
Even if it didn't end up going very far, or maybe because of that, Sunday afternoon was fun for both of us, both as a tease and as a generally fun afternoon with friends, and when Min-Ju and I got back home we had a close evening together, a quiet dinner and hangout that led to some very intimate cuddling on the sofa, which in turn led us to the bed for some hot and fun time in each other's arms. We talked about Darren, which is when Min-Ju confirmed that she wasn't all that into him, and we talked through our feelings and experiences at the picnic. She was really interested in hearing what it was like for me to get up and leave her when Darren arrived, and she loved hearing how distracted I got during my frisbee game trying to watch if and when she would take off her top for him. She loved that. Learning I missed her moment of reveal though, when she took her top off, disappointed her almost as much as it did me. She really had wanted me to get to see that. In turn, she described what it was like for her to put herself on display for him. She explained that it was exciting for her to be waiting for him and to know she was wearing her bikini top underneath her shirt with the goal of showing him. When he showed up, she got nervous and jittery in a fun way and was trying to decide for herself when she should take her top off. Sadly, she also confessed that the cooler weather and her self-consciousness in front of her other friends made it not as fun as she'd hoped.
At that point, we were sitting together on the sofa facing each other. She had her legs up on the sofa, and my legs were on either side of her so we could sit face to face. My arms were around her as we talked, caressing her shoulders and occasionally pulling at her gray tank top so that it fell half-off her shoulder. She wasn't wearing a bra. Her nipples stood out clearly through the worn fabric, little hard beads from the arousal of telling her story. In between details we kissed and touched each other's face. From Darren, conversation turned to Caleb. She wanted to be reassured that I was enjoying what she was doing with him, and in turn I pressed her to tell me more about how she felt about being with him. She was a little quiet, and for the hundredth time and always understandably, she wanted me to reassure her I didn't think of her as a slut, at least not in the bad way. For myself I said I was surprised they hadn't been texting since their last night together. I was actually worried a little that they hadn't, that maybe something had happened. If and when he stops texting her, or when she discovers he's also seeing some other woman, you know that Min-Ju is going to be pretty hurt, not because she's hung up on him -- she's not -- but because it will still feel like a rejection. And for all her adventures, which still frankly astound me, she's still pretty insecure and vulnerable about that kind of rejection. So I've been bracing myself for some rough times emotionally. Well, it turns out they have been texting. Some, not a lot. He actually texted her to come over Saturday... but she didn't reply. She felt weird about it, and conflicted. She said she likes the idea of being called over for a blowjob, it really gets her slutty desires going... but she also really doesn't like it. She doesn't like that it makes her feel guilty and bad about sex, all those complex ways women are trained to feel ashamed of sexual desire. So she feels conflicted, understandably. And of course the other dimension is that by ignoring his text (and he texted again earlier on Sunday) she feels stressed out and guilty toward him... and afraid of letting me down or disappointing me, which is why she hadn't told me.
So things got pretty serious for a while. We talked through a lot of stuff. For myself, I really wanted to make sure she genuinely enjoyed being a slut for Caleb. I love the idea of her going off to be his little blowjob slut, and I made sure to tell her that. But I also hate the idea of encouraging her to do things that she doesn't genuinely enjoy for herself. And on her part, she really wanted to be sure that I was ok with things, that it really turned me on, and that this wasn't changing the way I thought about her as my wife. I assured her that the only way my impression of her was changing was in the positive -- that I was amazed by how confident and sexy she was becoming, and how much I loved seeing that confidence and sense of adventure in her.
Somewhere along the line our serious talk started turning back into erotic talk, and things heated up between us. We started touching each other more, and kissing, and kissing passionately. As I kissed her and pushed my tongue into her willing mouth, I told her how much I wanted her to text him back... but only if she really wanted to. She worried that he would be mad at her for ignoring his texts, to which I had to chuckle and in a humorous way said, "Love, you still don't understand male sexuality, do you?" If she just texts him again, he will immediately forget the past and be more than ready for her to come over. She laughed hearing that, and kissed me back. Things went on that way for a while as we worked ourselves back up to feeling confident and aroused by our play. Finally, too hot and bothered, we got up from the sofa and headed to the bed. And I'm thrilled to say that she was the one who took my hand and led the way.
In bed, we pressed ourselves against each other. My thigh was between her legs grinding against her now very wet and very hot pussy. Our dirty talk focused on Caleb and how she wanted to suck his cock. She made me crazy by describing the way she felt kneeling in front of him and how she would open her mouth to let him inside her. She also took great delight in teasing about how long it had been since she's sucked me -- she clearly really enjoys getting to be lovingly cruel like that. But the biggest tease, the tease that made my poor cock ache and made me finally break down and beg, was when she described how it felt when he came in her mouth. She talked about how it felt when the first spurt of his sperm shot into her mouth and how her mouth was suddenly filled with the taste and smell of his sex. How she swallowed and how she felt the sperm travel down her throat. She talked about how she gagged a little and struggled to keep up. How more sperm filled her mouth and spilled onto her lip... spilled down her chin and onto her chest. She talked about how submissive it felt to have him cum in her mouth... and to swallow him. And how powerful it made her feel to please him this way. I don't know how much of what she said was real or how much was just dirty talk to excite me, but the effect was electric in a way I can't fully describe. It felt like it was all happening right in front of me -- someday I did want it to happen right in front of me -- and it triggered such a powerfully submissive feeling... and a powerful need to be inside her.
I started humping on her desperately and her legs were open wide, urging me on. I begged her, saying "God, baby, I need to fuck you so badly." And she said, "Yes! Yes!... But you can't." She teased me cruelly even as I begged, her teasing punctuated by her own begging for me to fuck her. She wanted it... I wanted it... we were both desperate. Her eyes were wide... watery. I can only imagine how wild I looked. So I broke down and begged her to unlock me. And somewhere in there she said, "Well, there's this problem..." And that's when she zinged me in a way I was not expecting. "I don't have your key." She had been teasing me and egging me on, asking me if I wanted to be unlocked, and cleared loved watching me beg, and now she refused. It was... so frustrating! But also so hot!
That surprise she and SooYun had been cooking up? It turned out she sent the key back to SooYun to hold. Not the only key, mind you, so don't panic. She still had the back-up key in its safe spot, so ultimately this was a symbolic gesture. But she bit her lip, looked up at me all hot and desperate, and said, "So if you want to be unlocked, I guess you'll have to ask her." Wow. I was taken aback, but also turned on. I also felt pretty foolish. She used to be wearing the key on her charm bracelet, and I had noticed she wasn't wearing that recently. I had assumed, foolishly it seems, she had stopped wearing it with Caleb because she wasn't ready for him to ask questions if he noticed the key. But no, she'd taken it off and dropped it in airmail. So again, here she was telling me that if I wanted unlocked so I could fuck her, something I desperately wanted to do right then, I would need to ask SooYun for permission. Her "bitchy" persona broke a little then. She asked in a dreadfully earnest way, "Am I being too mean?" I chuckled, and we both kind of laughed, breaking the tension and the spell, and I assured her no. She said she really could go get the other key for us to have sex, and we both thought about it. Maybe we should have. No doubt the sex would have been amazing. As I'm writing this up, I regret that we didn't. Not out of any fear of "needing to claim her," I know she's mine as I am hers, but because it would have been a fun and electric encounter for us. But oh well, the moment is past. We didn't. I wanted to follow her rules, to play her game as best I could. Right or wrong I didn't want her to feel hurt or feel her plan wasn't fun for me. She'd obviously put a lot of thought into her idea of sending SooYun the key, and had been waiting silently for over a week to find the right time to spring it on me. And damn if she didn't find that perfectly cruel way to spring her surprise!
So yes, I told her I would wait. Well, first what I said in the heat of the moment was "Let's skype right now!" which made her laugh. And she did promise to set up a skype time soon. (More on that later.) So I stayed locked. And we had a fun night, with her cumming... hard... while she got to enjoy her cruel little surprise for me.
More later.
