Hi, I've been in a long-distance relationship for the better part of 6 years. We met online when we were in high school, met in person when we graduated, and made it all the way through university. Now we have plans to get married and live together come next May.
Ever since we've been together, I've had this cuckold fantasy. Only with her--never with any other woman I have been with. She has only slept with 4 other men, and we've never cheated on each other.
She has playfully entertained my fantasy for all these years, but last Friday she sent me a text and said she would be fully willing to screw a guy who works with her if I still wanted it.
Suddenly my emotions went haywire. I never thought she would give in, to be honest. In my mind, it was just bed talk. I would plead and beg, but something inside me figured that if it hadn't happened yet, it wasn't going to happen.
After days of arguing back and forth with myself, I told her no...that I needed to have her as my own the day we get married. However, since then our sex life has really dropped off. Every night on the phone, we would take turns pleasing each other. We might have regular phone sex for a night or two in a row, and the next she would "cuckold" me. Now she has said that if we aren't going to do it, she doesn't want to fantasize about it at all.
Now she asks me what I want, and I have no answer for her.
I am too scared to get into the lifestyle because I fear it may just be a fetish that I have due to the long distance (I can't have her every night, so another guy should).
However, we both seem unhappier now without it. Should I bring it back up, make it a strict fantasy, and keep it that way? Should I let her go ahead and nail her coworker? Should I wait the remaining months and see what happens?
Just not sure.
Ever since we've been together, I've had this cuckold fantasy. Only with her--never with any other woman I have been with. She has only slept with 4 other men, and we've never cheated on each other.
She has playfully entertained my fantasy for all these years, but last Friday she sent me a text and said she would be fully willing to screw a guy who works with her if I still wanted it.
Suddenly my emotions went haywire. I never thought she would give in, to be honest. In my mind, it was just bed talk. I would plead and beg, but something inside me figured that if it hadn't happened yet, it wasn't going to happen.
After days of arguing back and forth with myself, I told her no...that I needed to have her as my own the day we get married. However, since then our sex life has really dropped off. Every night on the phone, we would take turns pleasing each other. We might have regular phone sex for a night or two in a row, and the next she would "cuckold" me. Now she has said that if we aren't going to do it, she doesn't want to fantasize about it at all.
Now she asks me what I want, and I have no answer for her.
I am too scared to get into the lifestyle because I fear it may just be a fetish that I have due to the long distance (I can't have her every night, so another guy should).
However, we both seem unhappier now without it. Should I bring it back up, make it a strict fantasy, and keep it that way? Should I let her go ahead and nail her coworker? Should I wait the remaining months and see what happens?
Just not sure.