Well, we all shared a cup of coffee together watching the rain together for a while and then Sue told me that they were going to go back upstairs for a while. The door just clicked shut and to be honest, I've watched them enough that I think they too want some alone time.
What can I say. Maybe it's true, maybe there's more between them than she is thinking there is, maybe she doesn't notice it. So I guess I'll ask and we'll continue talking. Squirm and Peak - yes, I guess there could be more. It was far from just sex last night as I do not deny that they were truly making love last night. But is that so bad? I loved watching them. Actually I loved watching her. They got started downstairs in the den when I'd left them alone for a while and had gone to do some stuff for work. When I came back, he'd undressed her almost all the way and he was lying against her kissing her and caressing her with the TV on in the background. I didn't realize at first but he was in her as they lay there and only when I came in the room and she rolled off of him could I tell that they were lying there fucking as they watched TV. I can't explain it but I like seeing that she was that comfortable with him and when she looked at me I think she was a little worried at first until I smiled and said "oops, sorry, I'll leave you guys" which he replied "thanks" and she rolled back towards him as I left them.
My cock was so hard at that moment that I just wanted to whip it out and jerk off right then but I resisted. I was in the kitchen when she came in. She'd left her bra off and I wasn't sure she had panties on underneath either. She told me thanks for being so good with them just a bit earlier and she reached down and felt my hard cock and smiled. I heard Paul go by in the hallway and she leaned in and kissed me and said they were going to go upstairs and she asked me if I wanted to join them. I told her maybe and she smiled and she said "he's not going to care that you're bare if you're worried". I didn't ask if she'd told him or not but she smiled and said she loved me and would see me later with this giddy giggle in her voice.
By the time I went up and peeked in from the hallway she was lying on her back naked and he was eagerly licking her pussy. Maybe she knew I was there, maybe not but she pulled her knees back and apart as I watched and I just have to say for everyone here - I loved watching her do that - open herself up and give herself to him fully. Hearing her soft moans and her motions, I know he was on the verge of making her cum and I can't explain it - but at that moment I so wanted him to do that. Her moaning got louder and louder and her knees and legs began to shake and I honestly loved knowing what he was doing to her at that moment. I can't explain it but I loved that he was having her like that and I wasn't - that he was tasting the sweetness that oozes from her when she cums like that. And I loved that his face and fingers and tongue were in her. A moment later her hand went the back of his head and she let out a shriek and a squeal that could not be mistaken. As she calmed down all I could hear was him softly moaning "mmmmm" at times.
Do I want to never have sex with her again. No. Hearing her upstairs right now knowing what she's doing after her again being in just a bath-robe at breakfast - no the answer is that I do plan on fucking her at the end of October. While i am truly enjoying this gentle torment right now - after last night watching them and now them going back again - I'm coming to the conclusion that by the end of October that I am going to need and want her. That's a nice feeling for me to have right now as I too admit I was a bit concerned by how my desires were leading me.
But that said, to answer Squirms question. I think I have accepted that it may already be the case. As part of when she told me she thought she would always want a lover, I also know that for almost 2 years now, that we both have enjoyed that I am using condoms with her. So could I give that up for the long-term, my answer is yes. I think that if I'm already feeling the physical desires to be with her returning, that perhaps the total celibacy thing isn't going to work for me. But at the same time, I do love feeling like the beta for her and I have to say that not cumming in her was really meeting that need I seem to have. If that becomes the outcome of all of this, then I think I can be okay with it.
I went into our bedroom last night and I can say two things. First is that I didn't really get naked but rather left my boxers on and would reach in and stroke my cock in them. I did slide them down at the end but by then the two of them were too far gone to notice anything. And second is that I might as well just say it - I loved being there and watching him cum in her. But before got to there - as I said she lay back as if it were nothing to be lying there totally ******* for him. I could recall a time when she'd never leave her legs open like that even with me as she didn't like how it felt - but now, I know how she feels and I love that she feels that way. I know she loves to give herself fully to him and I can say it feels good to want her to do so.
He moved to the side of the bed and it was as she was sucking his cock and he was fingering her pussy that I walked in and sort of stood near the foot of the bed. They were both too busy with her sucking his cock to really notice me. He gently held her head in place as he pushed in and out of her mouth - I love how she used her hand on his cock to limit how far he would push into her mouth (same as she does with me) but how it feels like its her mouth the whole time. But what I actually liked and got very horny about more was watching his fingers between her legs. She pulled her knees back for him and he had the freedom to do as he liked. He'd rub her clit - and I watched and he knows just how she likes it - all around the sides and then very gently on the tip of it - and then he'd use his index and ring fingers to spread her lips apart and he'd effortlessly finger-fuck her with his middle finger. I noticed he'd curl his finger and she'd moan each time so I knew he was hitting the right spots. I watched his finger grow wetter and wetter and I knew how she must be feeling inside. A moment later she pulled him out of her mouth and she moaned something about "your turn" and as I stood there, again I don't think he even knew I was there - he moved between her legs and rubbed the tip of his cock up and down and then - as if it were nothing at all - he just lined it up and began to push into her.
I admit to moving closer and moving down to my knees and leaning at the foot of the bed as I know I felt "well,if I'm here....". As I knelt there I think they realized I was there and she slid down the bed a bit more towards me which pulled her legs up and back more opening her up fully right in front of me. I can't explain it in any other way than to say it was just amaizing, exciting and yes, beautiful, to see her respond to him. Her lips spread apart revealing her now quite stiff clit at the top - but also the dark pink almost red and wet inside of her vagina. The tip of his cock pushed in and then pulled back leaving her even more open. He did this a few more times until he pushed into her fully one time and then pulled back gently. So incredible to see her inner lips cling to his cock as he pulled it out - but far from being in pain, she was moaning deeply and would let out a loud "oooh" as he'd push into her over and over until it seemed effortless and I suppose, she was just open for him. With one last push in - I watched as he began penetrating her. I saw her finger slide down between their bodies and her painted fingernails slide down the sides of his cock and I guess, rub herself and spread herself more open for him.
Obviously I was stroking my cock by this point as he was now eagerly fucking her and each stroke was pushing him further and further into her. He pulled out all the way a few times with almost a popping sound and time she'd moan out loud and thrust herself upwards to try to keep him inside. I guess once he was in her fully he stopped pulling that far back and I watched the two of them grind against each other and kiss as he would thrust rapidly a few times and then, push deep into her and then stay still. After a few times of this I realized as he did it once again that this time she let out a loud "uhhhhhh" and I realized that she must have been cumming each time he'd pushed in and stayed in.
The thing I have to say is that I felt totally turned on and loving it - I did not feel concerned or threatened in any way - almost like watching a custom made live porn movie right in front of me.
I thought for sure he'd cum in her soon but instead was surprised and jolted a bit when he abruptly pulled out of her and rolled over onto his back on my side of the bed with his wet cock standing straight up in the air. Without missing a beat - she simply rolled over on top of him and again, without acknowledging I was there, she reached behind and slid herself right down onto him - bring in a huge moan from both of them. His hand cupped her butt cheeks as he seemed to almost lift her up and then let her slide back down at her own pace. Achingly slow at first but then, a moment later, almost dropping herself down onto him with all her weight. It was then I realized she really wanted him. She did that again and again almost to the point where I thought she'd hurt herself and then with the last one, she slid herself down slowly and then ground herself against him until her back arched and her head shook about and she shrieked out loud and then collapsed forward onto his chest. When her body unclenched, she leaned forward more fully and I could see his still very hard cock imbedded in her with a glistening ring of wetness around the base and that was all that was visible.
A moment later, had I been stroking myself I'd have cum on the spot, when she caught her breath and she lifted herself off of him. To see his cock emerge drenched in her wetness but still rock hard and fully stiff - geez - it just drove me crazy to think of her clenching down on that buried in her as she came on him. But there she was - pulled herself off of him and now - if she was a dark pink in color before - her pussy was crimson red now and the outer edges of her labia were also very darkened in color.
If I thought she was spread open to him before, it was nothing compared to how she was this time and how she raised her arms to welcome him with her proclamation that "it's your turn". Which was followed by Paul surely taking her the way he wanted and I guess, needed to by that time. After some 20+ minutes of her squealing away - it was now his turn. And the most intense thought I had was that I so wanted to be there when it would be his turn. He hooked her legs in his arms and I can honestly say he fucked her the way I would have wanted to at one time - pulling her open and apart for himself. She squealed and opened her eyes wide each time he'd bang into her body as he'd be in her so deep that even I could see how he could fit inside her.
I can say they went on for at least 10 minutes and I'm quite sure she came again at least once from how her pussy sounded - slushy - after a while - but then, even to me it became apparent that he was getting close. I moved to the side a bit to see her body - her breasts were almost standing proud up on her chest as she lay there but her nipples gave away how she was feeling as I could see they were rock hard and so darkened in color that I could just tell she had one more orgasm in her. She opened her eyes right around then and I know she saw me and smiled.
I did move back to the foot of the bed before he came in her. And yes, for everyone reading this - I wanted to be there when it was his turn. And I didn't have to wait long - just a moment or two later I remembered the tell-tale signs - deep thrusts followed by shallower ones but faster and faster - and sure enough - I almost was going to jerk my own cock in time with him - but as I thought about it, I watched him and heard him grunt and moan and at that moment I saw and felt his final thrust into her before he made her his once again. I watched his body and his butt clench at least 4 or 5 times after which he began to move again and fucking her again but more slowly. A moment later she let out a loud cry and thrashed her head beneath him and I watched her body tremble for just a few moments and then go calm again. As soon as she went calm, he pushed gently back into her one last time and leaned against her and ran his hands up to her head and pulled her close.
As I said- very much making love. And I have to say that as crazy as it sounds, I loved seeing her let go with him like that. I left them after that but I know they went at it at least once more if not fully then at least her cumming at some point later on. That's why when she came to breakfast with her robe on, I just knew how she must have felt and been underneath. I haven't gone upstairs now to hear or see if they opened the door - all I can say is that even after jerking off before bed last night, that seeing her this morning and now knowing where they are has my cock hard once again.
