Do you secretly crave for Susan and Joe to become fully committed lovers WITH YOUR APPROVAL?
Would you like to tell Susan that it would make you incredibly happy if she were to date her ex-boyfriend who "handled her firmly with a "Long and hard" performance?
She is safe inside your marriage, so it could be your gift to her to get involved with both Joe and her ex-boyfriend. IS THIS SOMETHING YOUR PERSONA NEEDS FOR YOU TO BE COMPLETELY HAPPY AS A CUCKOLD?
Delivering the alimony in person fortnightly, definitely lets you keep your ex-wife in your life, even though you can't actually kiss/fuck her any more. You can keep re-running the "what if things had been different?"
What John does not realise, is that you can mentally fuck your ex-wife everytime you see her. You can pretend she is naked when you arrive to give her your alimony money, and when you leave, you can whisper to yourself, "that was a fantastic mind fuck". You can picture in your mind everytime you fucked her in the past.
"how you touched her body, how you fucked her, how you had showers with her, how you put your hand in her panties and felt her up, where you placed your kisses, what you said to her, where you took her, even your wedding day".
John is married to your ex-wife, but in a sense he is now fucking a second-hand rose. You got at her pussy before HIM. You probably fucked her a few thousand times.
Everytime your ex-wife fucks John, SHE IS ****** to compare John with you - she can't stop thinking your name - this is called, "to death do us part". She can't defrag you out of her brain, her mind is full of pictures of everything you and her have ever done together - and when you deliver the alimony money, SHE HAS TO STORE THAT EXPERIENCE INTO HER MEMORY BANKS AS WELL.
If John thought about it this way, he wouldn't want you within a 100 miles, because you are still part of your ex-wife's life every fortnight. She keeps looking forward to you coming with the money, and you entertain her on each occasion as she is ****** to give you more humiliation.
She might think she is winning, but actually it is you who is in the winner's circle. You get to see what she looks like again, what she is wearing, what mood she is in, how tidy her home is, whether she is happy or pissed off with life.
So when you take her the money, she has no choice but to keep the "story going", and your mind is photographing the new memory.
If your ex-wife was 100% happy with her new husband, she would tell you to set up an automatic payment from your bank account to hers. But the truth she NEEDS you as well as John - he may be hot in bed but there are things about you which she misses.
Susan craves for "cock from the past", but she has also told you that her love for you is true and that there are things about you that make her want to stay with you. It is these things that your ex is missing, even if she is addicted to John's cock.