Finding out who i am...

[alnash11]

Me and my young wife have only recently been pulled into this world. Earlier at the beginning of the summer, I told my wife my desires to watch someone be with her. The idea of going out with her while she’s all dressed up, watching her flirt and bring a man home to ravage her body turned me on more than any night of sex with her. I was ashamed at first naturally, but she didn’t shut me out. A few weeks later, we got to watch porn together that was “sharing” themed. Two couples swapping out with one another. The sex that night was incredible, right on our couch while watching the movie. After the first round we took a break and she brought me back to life with her mouth. Since then on a few occasions we have watched similar movies together. Work got the best of us, as my hours have become long, so we put the fantasy on the back burner or so I thought.

Just a few weeks ago while she was working late my computer was having issues, so I started using hers. The first two days I didn’t notice anything different, but after a few times of using it, I found a program on it called second life. The user name was saved, so I logged on. All the chats were saved on it, and I was shocked what I had found. For quite some time she had been on there, having virtual sex with many different partners, sometimes several at one time. From the conversations, it was easy to tell it was quite dirty, filling a number of different fantasies I didn’t know she had. Group sex, interracial, bondage were the main themes. One of her friends paged me while I was on her account, telling me to come over, so I agreed pretending to be my wife. I wanted to know exactly what was happening. The person fucked “me as my wife” so intensely and roughly, dirty talking and even belittling me. I was surprised but so turned on by it all. I was mostly surprised at myself for going along with it, and pretending. Ive checked the history as well on her computer, finding lots of hits for group and interracial videos. Im nervous to confront her on it, but at the same time immensely turned on, knowing she has this secret dark side to her.

 

[Angevin]

Go tell her everything and be sure she knows how much it turns you on. I'll be waiting here to see what happens.

 

[Villain]

Go tell her everything and be sure she knows how much it turns you on. I'll be waiting here to see what happens.

Who needs duke when we've got Angevin?

 

[Custer Laststand]

Alnash,

.... My wife and I watched porn together that was “sharing” themed. Two couples swapping out with one another. Our sex that night was incredible, right on our couch while watching the movie. After the first round we took a break and she brought me back to life with her mouth. Since then on a few occasions we have watched similar movies together.

Sounds like you're on your way. If you continue watching cuckold-theme movies with your wife, and talking with her about doing that (at first after the movies as a fantasy, but gradually in the "cold light of day" without cuckold movies for stimulation), and if that turns both of you on (as it obviously does), your wife will soon make you her cuckold... if she hasn't already.

Work got the best of us, as my hours have become long, so "we" put the fantasy on the back burner or so I thought.

Right. If your wife is a reasonably-sexual woman, once you plant the idea in her mind of unlimited sexual freedom for her (while you remain faithful as her cuckold), the mere fact you stop thinking about it is unlikely to mean she will...

Group sex, interracial, bondage were the main themes [of my wife's online sexual adventures]. One of her friends [i.e., online fuck buddies] paged me while I was on her account, telling me to "come over," so I agreed, pretending to be my wife. I wanted to know exactly what was happening. The person "fucked me as my wife” intensely and roughly, dirty talking and even belittling me. I was surprised but so turned on by it all. I was mostly surprised at myself for going along with it, and pretending.

Sounds like you did learn some new things about yourself, as stated on the subject line of your initial post. Also, if your wife left her online pornographic footprints unprotected on her computer, she must have known that sooner or later you would discover and start following them. She's probably waiting for you to confess (which you can reasonably do now, since your computer being "down" has "******" you to use hers), so the two of you can come to agreement and she can translate her fantasies into reality.

I've checked the history as well on her computer, finding lots of hits for group and interracial videos. I'm nervous about confronting her about this, but at the same time immensely turned on, knowing she has this secret dark side to her.

I'd say don't worry about it, since you've already made clear to your wife that you have such fantasies yourself (per the beginning of your post). If you bring it out into the open and start talking with her about it, that will greatly increase the probability you'll be able to pursue your mutual sexual fantasies in some way that will make your marriage much more erotic and result in greatly-increased sexual satisfaction for your wife... and probably you as well.

Otherwise, it sounds like your wife may be on her way to cuckolding you without telling you about it (although you may suspect or know she's fucking other men), since doing it is likely to follow thinking about it continually, and that appears to be "where she's at" now.

—Custer

 

[sheplays]

Just a few weeks ago while she was working late my computer was having issues, so I started using hers. The first two days I didn’t notice anything different, but after a few times of using it, I found a program on it called second life. The user name was saved, so I logged on. All the chats were saved on it, and I was shocked what I had found.

In mid-August, my reluctant wife suggested we "live out" my cuckolding fantasies on Second Life. She stated that she was only agreeing to do it in hopes that it would put my fantasies to rest.

In four nights of playing she went from adamantly vowing that she would "NEVER HAVE SEX WITH OTHER MEN" to professing that she had to try it for real.

It was the dominant men she encountered on second life that changed her mind. Not anything I did.

By early September, she was in a hotel room riding a BBC while I sat and watched.

Second Life is powerful stuff.

 

[Saraha]

Her pandora's box got opened and her suppressed sexual desires jumped out with an energy that DEMANDED to be tried out.

I suggest you continue to have as much sex as you can with your wife, and start treating her extra well to prove you love her.

Tell her she can go out on dates with hot guys a couple of nights a week to ty it out long-term. Don't restrict who she goes out with. Her body knows which guys turn her pussy on. If she needs more nights, let her try that also.

Ask her to tease you when she comes home by telling you the details of her love affairs, and you both can watch how quickly your penis goes rock hard. She could wank your cock as she tells her stories, and time how long before you ejaculate. If you are naked, she can point your penis at your face and see if you can spray paint your chin/nose.

You are so lucky that your wife is enjoying internet sex. Once you have agreed to her continuing her internet chats, you could offer to suck her pussy under the computer desk while she is chatting with her lovers on the screen. This could make her CUM HARDER, and the guys will think their words are bringing her to orgasm (instead of your tongue).

 

[alnash11]

Yes we have talked about the idea of her going out with other people. She seems interested in the idea deep down, but is definitely nervous about it. maybe in time it will appeal, until then we have been watching movies about swapping and sharing more often. I dote on her more then usual during sex, spending more time pleasing her then i normally do. She continues to use second life for erotic chat with others. I haven't told her i know yet about second life, but i find it exciting to sneak on occasionally and view her chats. My time is short, i know i haven't gotten to respond to everyone's comments and suggestions, but i have read them all and greatly appreciate them. I'm hoping someday this moves into something bigger.