Hi Ms. Cassielove,
Thanks for posting your photo. You're a beautifully-curvaceous woman with a voluptuous pussy, which appears to be softly singing "come hither..." to all of us. It's hardly surprising you feel so horny you "just get crazy" from time-to-time. I imagine you must bring out the best seductive efforts of the men around you, and some of them are sometimes... well... hard to refuse.
Cassielove said:
I see I typed wrong...I am not ready at all to have a baby...ooops I typed it wrong.... sorry guys...
Thanks also for this obviously-important correction. But, no need to apologize. From your context it seemed evident that's what you meant.
Regarding your more recent post:
Cassielove said:
It's not that I want lots of guys between my legs...I really love my hubby...
Yes, of course. You've only been married 4 years, so in that sense you're still building your relationship with your husband. Nothing I said above should be interpreted as suggesting I don't think you love your husband. I'm sure you do.
Cassielove said:
I feel guilty enough for the few times I couldn't control myself. I am so lucky my husband couldn't tell it did happen. He loves to kiss and lick me "down there" with a passion... and of course, the first time it happened he was home early...
Oh oh...
Cassielove said:
...and practically dragged me back to the bedroom, tore my dress and pantyhose off, and started to kiss and lick me all over as he worked his way "down there."
Oh no...
Cassielove said:
...I begged him to fuck me before he got "there," but he didn't listen.
Men never listen to their wives (as my wife, for instance, would assure you). You will need to educate him.
Cassielove said:
He buried his face and tongue in my pussy. I was so scared he would smell or taste Michael's semen and sperm inside me.
Sounds terrifying...
Cassielove said:
He just went crazy down there. He was his normal wild self; he never said anything.
All this does not imply your husband was ******* you were freshly-fucked by another man. From the point of view of evolutionary biology, the purpose of cunilingus is for the cuntsucking man to determine, from smell and taste, whether his woman has recently been fucked by another man. If his senses tell him she has been, he works hard... passionately, one might say... to remove as much of his competitor's sperm as he can with his tongue, then he fucks his woman vigorously to remove any remaining competing sperm with his erect cock, which functions very effectively as a suction pump for this purpose. Then, finally, he ejaculates thus replacing his competitor’s sperm with his own (he hopes… in a fertile woman, this is somewhat chancy).
Cassielove said:
This happened quite a few times after that.
Having realized, consciously or subconsciously, you had been freshly-fucked by another man (Michael) when you came home after your first tryst with him, my guess would be your husband repeated his passionate cunilingus followed by fucking you vigorously on each subsequent occasion he suspected there was even a possibility you had been fucked by another man, regardless of whether that was actually the case. (You mentioned another work colleague who also turned you on strongly…?)
For a very good explanation of all this and much, much more, I strongly recommend:
"Sperm Wars: The Science of Sex," by Robin Baker, Ph.D., 1996, BasicBooks, 319 pp (hardcover).
This fascinating 'science for the layperson' book is easy to read and incredibly informative. It contains MUCH your mother never told you, with the added advantage that it's true. (Baker is an evolutionary biologist... it's based on research carried out by himself, his students and his colleagues.) As a sexually-active young married woman, I would even go so far as to suggest you can't afford to NOT read it.
Cassielove said:
I feel so guilty about being deceitful... let alone [especially?] when my husband does that.
Please, Ms. Cassielove, don't feel guilty about your own sexuality, for the fact that the men around you are powerfully attracted to you, and for the fact that you sometimes respond because of your high sex drive (for the reason I mentioned above, among others). It's part of you. It's who you are.
Cassielove said:
Thanks guys for some of the advice but I'm not sure yet what to do... my husband did get his sperm count checked by his doctor and it was a little low, but his doctor told him he should keep trying.
From your point of view, that actually sounds like a fortunate outcome. Your husband probably thinks his slightly-low sperm count is (or may be) the reason you "haven't been able to get pregnant," so he should keep working at it rather than suspecting it's caused by some other reason like you being on the pill.
In any case, your posts indicate you have two problems: (1) what to do about your husband wanting you to get pregnant while you don't want that, and (2) what to do (if anything) about your husband's no-longer-secret fantasy and apparent desire for you to make him your cuckold.
While you're thinking about how to deal with problem (1), which will have to be resolved jointly by you and your husband, I'll note that you have, in a sense, already resolved problem (2). Your husband IS your cuckold. This "problem" should thus be stated in modified form: should you bring him to acceptance and acquiescence in being your cuckold? For this, you may find it helpful to read:
The Science of Cuckoldry Cuckold Couple and
The Cuckold Phenomena Cuckold Couple
You might also consider pointing these articles out to your husband, and mentioning now that he’s brought this up, you’d appreciate it if he would give you his thoughts on them (as part of your effort to learn more about his deep-seated sexual desires, which in principle seems likely to benefit both of you regardless of whether you decide to adopt or not adopt this style of marriage). Doing so may be revealing, but would not commit you to anything.
—Custer