Welcome back! And great blog!
Hi M. Mom,
Good to see you back! I was beginning to wonder what happened to you, and how you're doing.
Motivated by your return, I read your blog. Several thoughts occurred to me.
1. Re. "I have no idea how many read this; I assume no one does." I did, and I would guess quite a few others on this forum have read it. It's good, very good. You're a talented writer, and I say this with confidence. My profession causes me to be aware that people who can even be described as "reasonably good" writers are few and far between.
2. Re. your age: in fact, you are relatively young. Apparently women tend to reach their sexual peak in their mid-30's, while men tend to reach theirs around 18 (or so I gather). Your writings suggest you are near or not far beyond your own sexual peak. You have *many* years of intrigue, steamy romances and highly erotic "illicit sex" ahead of you. Your son's friend was right. You ARE a hot MILF. His saying that, I would say, strongly implied HE would like to fuck you if only he could.
3. Re. Trevor, and (i) your erotic thoughts and dreams about him which are so vivid you even remember them after waking, and (ii) your interactions with him: excellent! You are ahead of the game. You have identified the man you want to seduce, are acting on your desires, and have made substantial progress. Obviously, you have subtly induced him to begin thinking along the same lines.
4. Re. your husband: your skill in inducing him to beat his weenie in response to the fantasies you are slipping into his consciousness (despite him fucking you, conventionally, only about 3 times per year) has been masterful. This is direct evidence that you have identified what turns him on and are moving him in the desired direction... toward acknowledging verbally, actually saying it out loud to you, that he wants more than anything for you to make him your cuckold. When he asked you directly if you wanted other men, your response... which kept him hanging... was also masterful.
5. Re. protecting your son from gaining any insight into your sexuality: I'd say that isn't something you need to worry about nearly as much as you are. Teenage boys are intensely interested in their own sexuality, which they can hardly contain, and in the sexuality of women. They badly want and need to learn about that, and our society does everything possible to keep them in the dark — mostly for misguided religious reasons. If you try to pretend you have an idyllic marriage (when you don't, at least not yet), and that you are perfectly content and happy with your husband (when you aren't, at least not yet), he will see through that. Teenagers, like children and adults, need to know the truth. You can temper it, but if you try to pretend you are someone you aren't, you will not be doing him any favor... and you may damage your relationship with him in a long-lasting sense.
6. Re. the recommendation of Tupp (who seems to have a lot of real world experience, his recommendations tend to be pretty good) that you step out as a cuckoldress only after securing your husband's permission... his blessing, as it were... waiting too long for that may put you in the unfortunate position of "Lynsdesire," who posted on this forum a while back. See:
http://cuckolds.com/forums/showthread.php?t=4784
I don't think you want to end up like her. If you don't continue moving forward on your own hook, that could happen.
In my view, you are proceeding optimally with seduction of your intended lover while subliminally bringing your husband along. If, however, you find you reach a point where you can't seem to bring him along any further, I suggest you will be best off to carry your seduction of Trevor through to completion (if you haven't already), on the assumption you'll be able to bring your husband along eventually. You are in the drivers seat here, and that's where you want to remain.
Forge ahead, M. Mom! You're an inspiration to other women (and to many of us men, as well).
—Custer
*BTW, what did you mean by "I feel bad for doing exactly like you said but it was a crazy holiday time..."? I didn't say much prior to this. What did you do? You've made me curious... please fill us in...