Revelation
I had started an update here the other day but was interrupted. In a way it was a good thing as yesterday, thinking about things, I had a bit of a revelation of sorts.
Monday was a blast. And it made me realize something that I have since shared with Sue. I may have said it in other ways in the past but it really hit me on Monday.
I have always loved that Sue was having these tremendous sexual experiences. But what I realized on Monday was that in almost all of the past experiences, I've really only enjoyed the experience that Sue has had. And after Monday's fun with Frank, I can honestly say that I never enjoyed that it was Brad and Don who were having sex with her.
I don't know that I ever separated it all in my head before. But now after experiencing the kind of, dare I say, friendship - and camaraderie with Frank, I can now look back and separate Sue from her partner and can say as I did above, that I have always loved Sue being on the receiving end - but now, I can clearly say that I did not share an enjoyment of it being Brad or Don doing the fucking. If that makes any sense.
At points on Monday, I honestly WANTED to move out of the way and give Frank his time and turn with Sue. It was all so much easier and more natural on Monday. I did still wait in the other room while they got started - for whatever reason, those first few moments of intimacy between them still give me the queasies - but hearing their voices change to moans and such from the other room always gets me horny. Walking into his bedroom and seeing him eagerly going down on Sue was a beautiful sight. And as I said, I really enjoyed seeing them together - yes from a sexual standpoint for sure - but also because I wanted to be there as they enjoyed each other - and I do mean each other. I could only feel great about seeing Franks hands pushing her thighs back and apart and hearing him licking away at her sweetness.
Moments like that made me realize that in the past, it had always turned me on that Sue was feeling that - but also made me realize that I'd never truly "wanted" Brad or Don to be the one doing it to her - or certainly never felt a desire for their own passion and pleasure. But not this time. I could actually totally get into Franks enjoyment.
I even went back and re-read some of what I'd posted about the times I'd been with her in the past - and in thinking about it - my arousal and responses were never from the pleasure that Don was having - but it was from what he was giving Sue. I thought to how I felt seeing him pull out of her after he'd cum in her - and it seems so clear to me now - my arousal was totally from Sue's side. But this time - quite the opposite. I found myself getting almost as excited from Frank's arousal and intensity as I did from Sue's response herself.
No, I'm not excited by guys, but when Frank pulled himself away from her pussy and he knelt there between her spread legs - from how his cock looked, he was as turned on as I was. I liked that he was horny and that he was going to enjoy himself as well as Sue! And I think I was just as horny standing there watching them as if it were me kneeling there ready for her!
That was also the first he'd seen me standing there and I guess when he saw me smiling that was all he needed to be sure it was all okay. It wasn't like we needed to talk - I said something like "go for it" and I reached out to caress Sue, her shoulder and hair - she looked up at me and smiled and then seemed to close her eyes and relax. Frank pushed her legs back and I helped by holding onto one of her ankles for a moment. It just happened - her foot came back towards me and I just reached out and held it - but what a turn on to help hold her open for him! And I think that was the moment when I felt it - the revelation I'd referred to. Watching Frank lean forward and rub his cock between her wet swollen pussy lips gave me such a thrill - for BOTH of them. A second later he positioned himself and then slowly slipped into her. It seems crazy to say it but it truly almost felt as good to me to watch them as it is if I was the one in her.
The next few minutes seemed like a dream - like an out of body-experience. The two of them, except for my hand on her ankle or her shoulder, truly looked beautiful together. Seeing her body respond to him as he leaned down over and onto her was incredible - words weren't necessary as her stiff nipples gave away her excitement. I was totally content to be a bystander. Seeing her pull her own knees back and welcome Franks cock was awesome and was only surpassed by seeing their bodies moving as one.
Maybe it was the positive experience we'd already had - or maybe it was the 2 of them (or 3 of us) now relaxing about everything - but the 2 of them looked and moved like longtime lovers. From Frank pulling almost all the way out of her at times to him grinding himself against her. From Sue's head thrashing back and forth to her pushing her breasts up at him for him to suck at - it was obvious that they were lost in each other for the moment.
I know I found myself again letting my brain run wild daydreaming in a way letting the sounds of them get to me. I don't even remember when I took off all of my clothes but as Frank went at her, at some point I realized I was standing there jerking off as if I was watching my own private porno movie! I could have climbed onto the bed and joined them at any point - I have no doubt that Sue's hand and mouth would have eagerly sought out my cock if I'd presented it to her - but I honestly, for the moment wanted to watch. And watch I did. And, as I said, it felt different watching her - it wasn't so much watching her as watching them....
They moved together like the longtime lovers they are. It seemed just totally natural as Sue had her legs wrapped around him - and they seemed to just roll over and a second later - Sue had this huge cheshire-cat smile on her face as she was now on top of him. And this was probably the other moment that led to my revelation. Watching her on top of him - I was equally aroused by both her passion as well as what I knew Frank was feeling.
They were lost in each other and all I could think of was that I didn't want to miss a thing! Sue was looking at me and smiled as I moved behind them - she even leaned forward over Frank when she saw what I was doing. And yes, this was the first time that I was going to truly be welcomed to watch! It helped so much truly feeling that I wanted BOTH of them to enjoy each other and it was obvious immediately that they were! It wasn't Franks cock that turned me on - but it was the obvious arousal and passion that it represented. Same for Sue - seeing her in control as she was on top of him and seeing her move up and down on his cock was totally intense. I had to stop jerking myself or I knew I'd spew it all over! But each time she pulled herself up - seeing how wet his cock was - and the few times she lifted completely off him - how open her pussy was - was just incredible. Never mind the moaning and other sounds - it was clearly visible just how turned on they both were.
Back to that revelation - it thrilled me that our good friend had his cock buried in her. I could have easily joined them - but honestly - I wanted to watch. And watch I did. I eagerly watched as Sue's pace increased - not just how fast she pulled herself up and then plunged back down - but how deeply and firmly she seemed to enjoy him in her. After a few moments (I guess - I couldn't tell you how long all of this was going on) it became obvious that Frank was pushing up into her as she was plunging down onto him. From watching him/them last time, I started to "know" the signs from Frank that he was getting close. Sue, on the other hand, seemed to be riding one orgasm into another - it was easy to tell as she'd let out this grunting sound as each wave overtook her until she finally lay against his chest and seemed to lie still as she breathed heavily. I guess they'd shared this moment before because Frank reached around and grabbed at her butt and took control and it was incredibly watching him fuck her in this position. I watched for again what seemed like only seconds - but could have easily been multiple minutes until I saw Frank push up into her really forcefully and then pull back, take a few short strokes and then push up into her again deeply and forcefully. After maybe 2 or 3 times - he pushed up into her one last time and I watched him cum in her. Knowing the pleasure he must have been feeling - I think my eyes glassed over as I was totally lost in the moment. As he pulled back and then pushed into her - soon I could see what was obviously his cum now visible. What an awesome sight!!!! And like I said - it was both of them that turned me on, not just Sue's pussy being filled - but knowing that Frank was equally enjoying it! It took me a few more moments to come back to earth where I could start to make sense out of what my ears were hearing again - and at that moment all I could think of was my own cock now standing there throbbing, waiting for its turn.
More after lunch - but this is so incredible for me re-living it as best as I can. I only wish I could remember what they'd said to each other in more detail - but the physical stuff - burned into my brain for sure!