I have always been conservative when its come to relationships. I'm 30 and have always dated white guys growing up. But within the last year I've begun to wonder what other unexplored aspects of life exist. I'm currently dating a very nice decent white guy and if the truth be known, I think he's considering marrying me. Although our sex life is quite good, I've recently relied on deep fantasies of a black guy pounding me instead of my boyfriend. This thought brings me to orgasm everytime, and infact my sexdrive has increased immensely, I find myself craving for the moment during our lovemaking where I can close my eyes and let my bbc fantasy wash through me in the form of a violent orgasm. I love my boyfriend and have decided to keep my fantasy a secret. I have always had a fairly attractive body, I do turn heads when dressed in sexy jeans and things, and gym 3 times a week. I used to be conservative at gym, but I've noticed that my shyness is fading away. I like guys to look, and just 2 weeks ago I noticed a sexy black guy eyeing me. I felt relaxed and started teasing in a sutle way. I know he is enjoying watching me. It does turn me on too. He hasn't said anything to me, but I found a note on my car saying that I have perfect childbearing hips. Is this an insult or meant as a compliment??? I need some reassurance, so please have a look at my pic and give me your comments. Am I worthy of bbc and should I persue my fantasy and turn it into reality?