As I said at the end of my last post in the "after the wedding" thread, I thought it was time to start a new thread and share some of the emerging/evolving thoughts and desires that I'm having.
I wrote some notes and thoughts down in notepad to help me try to convey what I'm thinking and feeling. I'll get to them in a minute.
Last night seems to confirm our new Wednesday routine. But before I go there I want to say that Sue and I have discussed a lot of stuff in the past few days and she's shared that since my acceptance and obvious arousal at the whole wedding thing, she says she's now much more comfortable and accepting of all of this. I'll share more later in this or a subsequent post, but what I've learned and shared explains the openness of what's now become our Wednesday routine.
Sure enough, last night after our daughter had said goodnight about 10pm we adjourned to our bedroom where we got ready for bed. She stood at the sink in just panties and looked up at me several times in the mirror and saw me smiling at her and the situation. As I'll discuss later, I have attached a lot of symbolism (is that the right word?) in my head to her panties and she knows it turns me on to think about what she's doing.
We watched some TV - something off Tivo that she wanted to watch the end of - a repeat of Bones or something like that. But sure enough, when it was over she sat up next to me and said "this really seems to have helped you the last few times" and she reached down into my boxers. She giggled when she felt that I was already hard. That may seem out of context but we'd also talked about this too and, well, it didn't seem so out of the blue. I nodded and told her that I enjoyed sharing it with her and that yes, it did make it a lot easier for me. She smiled and teased me a little bit as she stroked me and then said I should take over.
Just as I love to watch her masturbate - she seems to very much enjoy watching me. There is something about her staring intently as I pleasure myself that gets me going. She told me again that she thought it was good that I reduced my desires for tomorrow (today) and she teased me a bit asking me "are you thinking about Frank and me tomorrow?". I know at one point she said "turns you on to think about me all creamy, doesn't it?".
I was totally into it. I had my feet dug into the bed and at points in time my hand was a blur. I don't recall exactly what she said that got me totally going - but it was something like "I'll be all messy tomorrow night" or something like that. She knows me so well that just as I was about to let loose she giggled and said "let me help you tonight". And with that she leaned over, took my hand away and then sucked me till I let loose. She let me pump into her mouth several times and then as I pulled out the last time - she's learned so well from me - she put her thumb at the base of my cock and drew out the last few drops of cum. I swear I shuddered as I fell back against the bed - it felt awesome to let go like that.
Thing was, a second later she moved up and lay against me and in the split second before it happened - I realized she wanted to snowball with me. I lay back and she puckered her lips and kissed me and as we began to french-kiss - she shared my cum with me. So friggin' erotic to tongue-dance with her and feel and taste it all over. It was the first load from me and afterwards when we'd both swallowed, she said something to the effect that "your first time is always sweet" and I understood that to be her agreement that my second and if possible 3rd time dribbles are much more acrid and pungent tasting.
And so - just like last week and before that. She lay against my chest as we watched some more TV and maybe 30 minutes or so later I again felt her hand snake down and start to gently fondle me. She looked up at me and said "ready for a 2nd time?". I should add that I'd told her that I enjoyed 2nds and that the times she'd coax a 3rd time out of me, that I'd be drained for the entire next day.
She only needed to get me started up and I was into it. I actually kind of enjoy the dull ache afterwards from masturbating. Again the TV was on in the background but she was whispering/teasing me in my ear again. She again started to say thing about my cum being on my chest and stomach and Franks cum going to be in her next. Man did that turn me on. Sure enough, with just a little more teasing I was again ready to cum - and sure enough with just a little more encouragement from her (kissing my ear and cooing how "hot you look jerking off") - I again let go with whatever I had. She giggled and when I caught my breath she again leaned up on one elbow and looked at me and said "do you want it?". (I suppose I should add that in our talks over the past few days, etc. that I'd also opened up and admitted that it turned me on when she asked me to lick it off her fingers).
When we'd watched Leno's monologue last night she reached down once again and said "are you up for a 3rd time tonight?". I groaned at her and said something like "if I am, it's going to be tiny" and she smiled and said "will it feel good to cum?" when I told her yes she said she thought it was sexy and that she "always loves to watch". Despite the ache I obviously felt in my nuts and cock - again it just turned me on to slip off my boxers and let her watch me go at it.
She teased me that "you can take my panties off on Friday" and that "you can have me then". It's not just what she said but it's how she said it! OMG - she sounded so sexy and confident and comfortable! Sure enough, even with the reluctance my cock seemed to have - soon enough I had it fully hard and she seemed again entranced. Echoing more of things we'd talked about she again told me how erotic she thought it was when a guy cums - it got me going good - and sure enough, just after just a few more minutes I was as ready as I could be to cum a 3rd time.
The 3rd orgasm for me felt awesome - in some ways maybe even better than the first 2 - but when I looked down at my cock - there was barely 2 spurts before the last was just a dribble down my hand. She kissed me passionately just after I'd stroked the last bits out and as she broke the kiss she said quietly to me "do you want it?". I nodded my head and she smiled and I watched her use her fingers to scoop up what I'd just spewed. We could both smell it and I knew it was going to be really tart tasting so I prepared myself - it was erotic sucking her finger clean.
Afterwards I lifted my butt up and she smiled as she pulled my boxers back up for me. And that was followed by one of the most intense kisses and emotional moments in a while. Crazy how this 'scene' between us seems to make us feel so close to each other. She hugged me and told me several times how much she loved me.
This morning - she smiled as she did the whole panty-under-the-towel routine and as she walked by me at one point she gently patted my deflated cock and she said "feels like you enjoyed last night". And now, again, noon today - damn, my cock is barely waking up....
I will post more this afternoon which will include my thoughts on denial as well as the things we've talked about and brought out in the open.
I wrote some notes and thoughts down in notepad to help me try to convey what I'm thinking and feeling. I'll get to them in a minute.
Last night seems to confirm our new Wednesday routine. But before I go there I want to say that Sue and I have discussed a lot of stuff in the past few days and she's shared that since my acceptance and obvious arousal at the whole wedding thing, she says she's now much more comfortable and accepting of all of this. I'll share more later in this or a subsequent post, but what I've learned and shared explains the openness of what's now become our Wednesday routine.
Sure enough, last night after our daughter had said goodnight about 10pm we adjourned to our bedroom where we got ready for bed. She stood at the sink in just panties and looked up at me several times in the mirror and saw me smiling at her and the situation. As I'll discuss later, I have attached a lot of symbolism (is that the right word?) in my head to her panties and she knows it turns me on to think about what she's doing.
We watched some TV - something off Tivo that she wanted to watch the end of - a repeat of Bones or something like that. But sure enough, when it was over she sat up next to me and said "this really seems to have helped you the last few times" and she reached down into my boxers. She giggled when she felt that I was already hard. That may seem out of context but we'd also talked about this too and, well, it didn't seem so out of the blue. I nodded and told her that I enjoyed sharing it with her and that yes, it did make it a lot easier for me. She smiled and teased me a little bit as she stroked me and then said I should take over.
Just as I love to watch her masturbate - she seems to very much enjoy watching me. There is something about her staring intently as I pleasure myself that gets me going. She told me again that she thought it was good that I reduced my desires for tomorrow (today) and she teased me a bit asking me "are you thinking about Frank and me tomorrow?". I know at one point she said "turns you on to think about me all creamy, doesn't it?".
I was totally into it. I had my feet dug into the bed and at points in time my hand was a blur. I don't recall exactly what she said that got me totally going - but it was something like "I'll be all messy tomorrow night" or something like that. She knows me so well that just as I was about to let loose she giggled and said "let me help you tonight". And with that she leaned over, took my hand away and then sucked me till I let loose. She let me pump into her mouth several times and then as I pulled out the last time - she's learned so well from me - she put her thumb at the base of my cock and drew out the last few drops of cum. I swear I shuddered as I fell back against the bed - it felt awesome to let go like that.
Thing was, a second later she moved up and lay against me and in the split second before it happened - I realized she wanted to snowball with me. I lay back and she puckered her lips and kissed me and as we began to french-kiss - she shared my cum with me. So friggin' erotic to tongue-dance with her and feel and taste it all over. It was the first load from me and afterwards when we'd both swallowed, she said something to the effect that "your first time is always sweet" and I understood that to be her agreement that my second and if possible 3rd time dribbles are much more acrid and pungent tasting.
And so - just like last week and before that. She lay against my chest as we watched some more TV and maybe 30 minutes or so later I again felt her hand snake down and start to gently fondle me. She looked up at me and said "ready for a 2nd time?". I should add that I'd told her that I enjoyed 2nds and that the times she'd coax a 3rd time out of me, that I'd be drained for the entire next day.
She only needed to get me started up and I was into it. I actually kind of enjoy the dull ache afterwards from masturbating. Again the TV was on in the background but she was whispering/teasing me in my ear again. She again started to say thing about my cum being on my chest and stomach and Franks cum going to be in her next. Man did that turn me on. Sure enough, with just a little more teasing I was again ready to cum - and sure enough with just a little more encouragement from her (kissing my ear and cooing how "hot you look jerking off") - I again let go with whatever I had. She giggled and when I caught my breath she again leaned up on one elbow and looked at me and said "do you want it?". (I suppose I should add that in our talks over the past few days, etc. that I'd also opened up and admitted that it turned me on when she asked me to lick it off her fingers).
When we'd watched Leno's monologue last night she reached down once again and said "are you up for a 3rd time tonight?". I groaned at her and said something like "if I am, it's going to be tiny" and she smiled and said "will it feel good to cum?" when I told her yes she said she thought it was sexy and that she "always loves to watch". Despite the ache I obviously felt in my nuts and cock - again it just turned me on to slip off my boxers and let her watch me go at it.
She teased me that "you can take my panties off on Friday" and that "you can have me then". It's not just what she said but it's how she said it! OMG - she sounded so sexy and confident and comfortable! Sure enough, even with the reluctance my cock seemed to have - soon enough I had it fully hard and she seemed again entranced. Echoing more of things we'd talked about she again told me how erotic she thought it was when a guy cums - it got me going good - and sure enough, just after just a few more minutes I was as ready as I could be to cum a 3rd time.
The 3rd orgasm for me felt awesome - in some ways maybe even better than the first 2 - but when I looked down at my cock - there was barely 2 spurts before the last was just a dribble down my hand. She kissed me passionately just after I'd stroked the last bits out and as she broke the kiss she said quietly to me "do you want it?". I nodded my head and she smiled and I watched her use her fingers to scoop up what I'd just spewed. We could both smell it and I knew it was going to be really tart tasting so I prepared myself - it was erotic sucking her finger clean.
Afterwards I lifted my butt up and she smiled as she pulled my boxers back up for me. And that was followed by one of the most intense kisses and emotional moments in a while. Crazy how this 'scene' between us seems to make us feel so close to each other. She hugged me and told me several times how much she loved me.
This morning - she smiled as she did the whole panty-under-the-towel routine and as she walked by me at one point she gently patted my deflated cock and she said "feels like you enjoyed last night". And now, again, noon today - damn, my cock is barely waking up....
I will post more this afternoon which will include my thoughts on denial as well as the things we've talked about and brought out in the open.