Hello. I've been lurking here for a bit. I'm finding myself recently drawn to cuckoldry...or something at least akin to it.
My wife and I have been together for many years. We are happy, and both sexually fulfilled. Several years ago we started swinging. It was mutual, we both enjoyed it immensely and got great satisfaction from it.
Through it all, it's clear to me that, while I certainly enjoy the aspect of swinging that has me fucking other women, the BIGGEST draw is watching her get fucked. It's satisfying in ways that I'm unable to articulate fully.
But I don't really consider myself a cuckold. Our sexual relationship is great. She's doesn't go out looking because she's not satisfied (you'll have to trust me that I know her well enough that, no, she's not going behind my back. As close to 100% sure of that as can be). I feel no humiliation or anything while she's fucking others. Just pure delight that she is exploring her full sexuality. And the more she explores that, the better our sex has become.
So I'm not really sure where we fit. It's hard to look for people to connect with that don't come at it from the, "You're too pathetic to please your wife" angle, because that's not at all the draw for us. Even though there is no doubt she gets hornier and cums harder when fucking someone else, it's the thrill and excitement that's simply not available with someone you've been with for > a decade, not any shortcoming on my part.
Not sure what I'm looking for by posting this. I guess just looking to get down in "writing" the disjointed feelings I have.
My wife and I have been together for many years. We are happy, and both sexually fulfilled. Several years ago we started swinging. It was mutual, we both enjoyed it immensely and got great satisfaction from it.
Through it all, it's clear to me that, while I certainly enjoy the aspect of swinging that has me fucking other women, the BIGGEST draw is watching her get fucked. It's satisfying in ways that I'm unable to articulate fully.
But I don't really consider myself a cuckold. Our sexual relationship is great. She's doesn't go out looking because she's not satisfied (you'll have to trust me that I know her well enough that, no, she's not going behind my back. As close to 100% sure of that as can be). I feel no humiliation or anything while she's fucking others. Just pure delight that she is exploring her full sexuality. And the more she explores that, the better our sex has become.
So I'm not really sure where we fit. It's hard to look for people to connect with that don't come at it from the, "You're too pathetic to please your wife" angle, because that's not at all the draw for us. Even though there is no doubt she gets hornier and cums harder when fucking someone else, it's the thrill and excitement that's simply not available with someone you've been with for > a decade, not any shortcoming on my part.
Not sure what I'm looking for by posting this. I guess just looking to get down in "writing" the disjointed feelings I have.