Not much "exciting" stuff to update for today, but in spite of some negative replies, I still feel it is worth journaling a little more... for those of you who are interested (and for my own record of how all of this actually happened).
My wife and I are now SUPER close to each other. And we have talked about that fact, and how weird it is that it took a black man screwing her to make our relationship better than ever. Not for the fact that he had a huge cock, but for the circumstances that we allowed to happen without fear, without jealousy, and with the fantasies that we lived - together. I know that she seduced him for me, because she knew it would get me off. And, I know that she let go of her inhibitions, was a free sexual spirit, and had great sex all while I was there supporting her. This may be the boring part for those of you just looking for the smut, but this - to me - is the most important part of the whole experience. We had sex last night for 5 hours... Now, it wasn't all intercourse, but there was a lot of everything in that 5 hours. And we have never felt more connected.
So, to all of you still wondering what can happen to a marriage: it can be a GREAT thing. At least it is so far (and this is day 3 since it occurred).
Now, I was going through all of my interracial porn (yikes, I have a lot), and organizing it into some sort of categories. I asked my wife, "Hey, what are the odds we're ever going to watch these pornos of yours with those little-dicked white guys in them? You think we're ever going to watch any of them again, ever... I mean especially now that you're a BBC lover and all?" She said, "No - I can't forsee us ever watching those again." "Can we get rid of them?" I asked. She said, "Sure. Just be sure to scratch the dvds so noone else can watch them if someone sees those in our trash." I asked, "Can you do that while I gather up the rest of the garbage in the house?" And she agreed.
Actually, I couldn't believe the amount of non-IR porn we had... there were at least 20 dvds. And she stood there at the kitchen counter with a pair of scissors, and scratched up all of those pornos that only had white men in them. It may sound trivial, but to me it was a thrill. It became official in my mind... she is strictly on a diet of IR porn; that's all we have in the house and she herself destroyed the white-only porn. Wow - what a long road it has been to get to this point. It has taken 2 years to get us to this point... to get her to this point. But we are here, and we are happy. And we don't know when or if we will have sex with another black man or not (but I want her to, so it will probably happen). She is open about talking about it, and she's even trying to think if there is any sex act she would want to see me do (and she gave the example of eating out a black woman). I have told her what Will has taught me in his "How It's Done" forum: you'd better be sure. I was sure I could handle watching her with a black man because I had lived that scenario in my mind over and over and over and over...
I told her, "Don't make up something on the spot and try to turn it into your fantasy, baby. It took me 2 years to get you to fulfill mine..." And she laughed and agreed.
Things are good - this may not be a sexy, lust filled chapter, but I think it needed to be told.
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