Peak, you're right and I called her on it last night when she came home and later on she mentioned "maybe going away for a weekend with Paul". I won't say that it ruined the evening but it did change our course for a little while as I told her that I thought that was going to happen and I told her it's like a slippery-slope with her, that once she starts to want to and then starts to see him more often, that it seems to cascade into her wanting more and more.
She asked me if I was upset that she'd been with him earlier and I told her no, that wasn't it and I told her that it was more the feeling of going from extreme to extreme so quickly. I told her that we'd been away "just us" last weekend and now, it's seeming like "just Paul". Of course she noticed my cock had started to get hard as we were talking and she said that it's not this weekend but maybe they were thinking about it before the kids get home, so in the next few weekends. I told her that would be better to which she answered, half laughing but half serious, that "you're still not having me this weekend honey". I looked at her and she smiled and said "you'll still have fun honey... " and she made a slurping sound with her mouth and then added "just not down here" and she patted the front of her panties. We talked and she said that last weekend was for us and yes, while it was partly because Paul was golfing, it was also because she wanted to be with me (I did not ask more as I didn't want the answer to chicken/egg to annoy me) - and she said again how wonderful it was. She even giggled and said "I left it all in me too" (which I later understood her to say that she didn't douche before she was with Paul last night) but she looked at me and said "but if I'm going to spend Friday night with him, then, well, you know, I just don't think I'm going to want to have sex with you". She paused and said "come on honey, you have to give me some time to enjoy just being with Paul, you know that I want a bit more of that before we can't". She slid over to me on the bed and unclasped her bra and told me that "you can feel them if you want". Her breasts were so warm and I could feel her nipples hardening under my fingers. She smiled and reached over and pulled my cock out of my boxers and said "there, that's better" and she started to stroke me.
She moved close to me and talked to me and asked me "it still turns you on, you know, where I was earlier... right baby?". And I told her an honest "yes" and I even told her that "knowing you and he had sex earlier" and she smiled and cooed back as she held my hard-on and said "I can tell honey, so what's wrong then?" and as she stroked me she just said that it's not like she wants to run off with him "but with the kids coming back home soon, you know, it's not something I can just do any time". She pulled my face up toward her and told me she loved me and kissed me passionately. But, when she moved back she smiled and teased me and said "come on honey, you know how I feel after I've been with him and I know I'm going to see him again soon......" and she held me tight and she continued "it just makes me want it to just be him for right now honey, that's all, it doesn't mean anything about you or us" and she giggled and said "I told you, I'll still make it really good for you on Sunday, just you know, with my mouth, that's all that'll be different for you honey". She leaned in and began to kiss my cheek and lick at my ear and started to whisper in this sexy voice that "you know you like it when I'm all horny for Paul baby". She was still stroking me and she could feel me responding and she continued and teased "I know you like thinking about it baby, I think it's soooo sexy that my being naughty turns you on" and she kissed my ear and neck again.
I did stay with my earlier thoughts and concerns despite her attention and I told her "yes, but it always seems like it becomes something more baby". She again turned my head towards her and said "baby, it's not going to be that way. I know you don't believe me yet, but I promise". And then she did something that surprised me. She reached down and slid off her panties and turned to me and said "you can have me if you want honey" and she lay back on the bed and spread her legs for me and said "if you need it honey, then I am here for you". I have to admit she looked incredible and even as I stared at her pussy and saw how she looked, I realized that she was being as honest with me as she could be. I turned onto my side and looked at her and I just asked her "but you would rather I didn't, right?". She was quiet for a second and then said softly "yes.... are you okay with that?". She held my hand and said "it has nothing to do with me loving you honey, it's just that sometimes..." and I shushed her and kissed her forehead and I told her "I do understand". I lay back against the bed and she rolled over with me and resumed stroking me. She still had her panties down by her knees and I could feel the warmth from her body as she lay against me and told me how sexy I looked and how she loved seeing how hard and big my cock gets when I'm very turned on. She leaned over and kissed me again and told me she loved me and that she hoped all of this was something that turned me on instead of getitng me upset. As she started to stroke my cock more and more firmly she smiled at me and said "tell me baby...." and I started to talk to her. I told her that I loved that she was lying next to me and "that your pussy is likely full of his cum right now" and that I can understand her wanting to "enjoy him" the way she's talking and I just told her that I needed her to remember about me and I told her that last weekend was wonderful but that I didn't always need to have sex with her to feel close and that the way we were talking was what I needed to hear and share. She smiled and leaned into me more and she said "baby, I love turning you on like this" as she kept stroking me. She told me that she loved me and that she wouldn't ever want to hurt me in anyway and that she loved sharing moments like this with me when we would really talk and really communicate.
At some point during those last few minutes she reached for my hand and took in hers and she was stroking my cock with my hand and then she whispered so sexily in my ear as she removed her hand that "I love watching you baby.... I love seeing how big your cock gets and thinking about how you feel in me". Wow, I was really hard and really going at it. She leaned into me a bit more and continued whispering "I am wet from him if you want to know......" and a moment later she added "we did it twice so it's very wet...." and before I could say anything she added "and yes honey, I'd like to have him again before you.... its just how I feel right now.... you understand..." and I guess she re-focused on my cock after that because she reached out and wiped away the drool of pre-cum that was there and she brought it to my mouth and she said "let me see you lick it off baby" and as I did she let out this moan like "ooooooohhhhhhh" and she told me that she loved teasing me like that and said "let me see you cum baby, let me watch you". I was close and she moaned and encouraged but it was when she said ".... I just want Paul to cum in me right now...." (there was more but that was what I heard) that set me off.
I do love letting her watch me cum. And last night as I started I seemed to really get into it and she got up on one elbow and moaned with each spurt that came out of me. I could feel her rubbing her pussy against my hip as I took the last few strokes. I lay there catching my breath and as she leaned over and kisssed me I loved that I felt her hand between my legs and then as I showed her, even she admits she likes taking her thumb and drawing out the last thick drops of cum - which always makes her moan along with me.
I was lying there and literally was waiting for her to start to scoop up my cum and share it with me when she surprised the heck out of me and I felt her mouth on my cock - gently sucking and cleaning it off. I thought she'd kiss me but again she surprised me when I felt her tongue on my stomach along with her fingers as she cleaned me off - and it was then that she moved back up and shared a snowball kiss with me.
