Last night was eye-opening in a different way. To put it bluntly, Sue admitted she's nervous. Nervous about everything. Putting it bluntly, as if the longer she's gone without another boyfriend, in a way, she said the more she's feeling like she's drifting back. And now that this "stranger" (her words) has approached her, she's feeling conflicted at times and in a way, scared.
It obviously wasn't a terribly sexy conversation so we both sort of got up on elbows and turned to each other to talk. I asked her some things that I think are what the earlier posts here were saying. I asked her why she's not taking a more aggressive approach to finding another guy. I again mentioned Ashely Madison or even Craigslist, if nothing that to have some fun with. As I talked to her it suddenly became much clearer to me and I don't even think she even realized it until a few more minutes. She's never had to look for a guy before. Simple as that. Everyone so far approached her and as we talked she began to lament that "I gave into every one of them too". I hadn't really thought about it, I mean I liked that she slept around but hadn't thought that she'd never said no to a guy who asked her out and that she seemed to go along with what each wanted, etc. I told her that she'd been selective around them and not simply jumped into bed with them right away, but I saw her point. Thinking about it this morning - I guess you could say she'd never met a guy she didn't like.
I didn't want to tell her or play up that she's "easy" and that there's nothing wrong with enjoying sex. I also thought about reminding her about the old saying that "bad sex is better than no sex" but decided that wasn't a good thing, lol.
I told her that I was sorry for bringing it up and that I was happy about this guy Paul and I tried to lead the conversation back towards there, but she wanted to talk more about what she was feeling. She said that except for long ago, she'd never chased guys or had to "come on" to a guy to get his attention. At one point she even said she felt sorry for anyone who gets divorced later in life. The more she talked, the more I realized that it must have taken a lot for her to come up to saying she wanted to take that class and to take a step in that direction and she agreed that it did make her feel better about things (and I laughed at her and said "made Glenn feel better too" to which she punched me in the arm) but that me asking her about it brought it up as something she finally wanted to talk to me about. I looked at her and told her that I understood what she was saying and it made a bit more sense to me. I laughed and told her that the best cure for this was to "get back in the saddle again" to which she said she knew that and that she still wanted me to know that nothing had changed in terms of what she still wanted and she looked at me and said "you too, same feelings and desires?" to which I gave her a "duh, what do we do every Wednesday night...." reply and I added "do you need more convincing?" or something like that. She giggled and hugged me and said "I'm crazy sometimes, aren't I?" and a second later she said "sorry, it's just a lot" and she admitted that our-baby, our daughter going off to college may have affected her more than she thought (and in my head it just said that it reinforced the mom/wife stuff with her).
So when we talked about Paul, she said that she liked how things started with Robert and that she wanted to see if Paul felt the same way about her. As we talked she said that rather than lunch this week, he was going to take off early as Sue's company closes at 3pm for the holiday weekend and they were going to get together for drinks. I was about to say something when she said "maybe you can meet us there and meet him?". She had suggested we all meet in an email and he seemed hesitant but said he wanted to talk to her more about it. I laughed and asked her if she was going to surprise him by having me show up and she said that she would text me and that she thought maybe we'd meet later, like 5pm or something - and that it was just an idea and that she'd ask him more today/tonight.
I asked her if she liked him. She smiled and said "yeah.... maybe...." and a moment later she added "... can't tell yet....". And as I asked her more about why she said "... you know... I have to be turned on by him.... you know.... in bed....". And she again reiterated that she wanted me to meet him first before she got to that point with him. As we talked more I asked her what her thoughts were on that - when did "she" think the first time might happen - and nearly choked when she surprised me and said "maybe this weekend?" and she added "you know, if you are okay with him and he's okay with everything". I asked if that was rushing things and she said that those were just her thoughts and that she obviously hadn't talked with him about them and we both said that maybe he's busy or has plans, etc. But I have to say that it was enlightening hearing her say she had thought about all of this.
So maybe that's something that eventually we'll talk about, I think when she thought about it, even back when we were dating, as I'd said - if she liked you she'd have sex with you. There's more that we talked about that left a part of me is thinking maybe she's feeling conflicted about never saying no to any one who's asked her out since we started all of this? I don't know but it's a thought I have.
But I eventually was successful in turning the conversation back to Paul and I teased her about wanting him to come to our house the first weekend we have it to ourselves (our son is leaving on Saturday morning to head back to school). She giggled and admitted that when she's in-the-mood (and it made me realize that without a boyfriend, she's been trapped in the mom/wife role for a long time now) that she knows what she wants. She turned to me and patted the bed between us and in an instant I knew what she was suggesting. I was horny already and this turned me on even more. I asked her if that's what she's thinking and she said that "I thought it'd be nice" but then later said that maybe it'd be too much for Paul for the first time to be in our bedroom? I joked with her that maybe he'd react better if she just jumped him right in the living room! She giggled at that and said "that would be fun".
I noticed she was rubbing her pussy through her night-shirt - I don't even think she realized it but it made me smile to see her accept her horniness and I told her so. I told her that I loved when she was so horny, she moaned back in agreement.
We talked about what she wanted to do with Paul as I slid my boxers off and she, now openly, pulled up the front of her night-shirt. I asked her what she wanted to do with him. She was quiet at first but then said "he's pretty good looking" and I waited for her to talk more and then she said more quietly "I want him to lick me". I was surprised as she'd never been quite this explicit and then she said something about liking how he looks and then said something like she'd "like to see his face down there". I say it surprised me because despite everything, she's still a little reluctant about initiating oral-sex with a guy, as in asking him to do it to her and I know it is something she finds very intimate (obviously letting him put his tongue into her pussy is!). She told me she just has this desire about him and added "especially after that kiss".
I told her it made me horny to hear her getting worked up like this and she giggled and she told me again how she "hopes he's big" and I teased her that she'll enjoy it if he is! We bantered around back and forth - her looking at me stroking away and at other times me leaning up and seeing her plunging her fingers into her wet pussy obviously thinking about him. She wanted to know if I was turned on like she was and I told her again that I'd missed the fun and excitement of seeing her with another guy and that I thought it was great. She had her eyes closed as she told me how she hope's he's gentle with her at first to get her turned on but then how she hopes he will "really want me..... like Robbie did....". I groaned back at her and told her that I was happy I was going to be a part of it this time.
In the end she went on to tell me how she hoped he'd seduce her and how she hoped he'd "make my panties wet". I encouraged her to tell me about her fantasy view of him coming over and as she told me how she wanted him to feel comfortable with me and how she wants "to be able to have him anywhere in the house..." really turned me on. But when she started to say "maybe he could spend the night..... you know baby.... so it doesn't have to end so abruptly...." My head was spinning and I was on the brink when she said "it'd be nice to sleep with him in our own home" that just did it for me. I know I had all sorts of thoughts and visions of her in our bed with him as well as flashbacks from when she and Don were here that a moment later I think I surprised her by moaning loudly and cumming all over the place. She moaned as she heard me cum and she was quiet herself for another moment as I could feel the motions in the bed and I got up on one elbow to watch her masturbate to her own orgasm which ended beautifully with her plunging at least 3 fingers into her pussy while she pinched and pulled at her own nipples through her night-shirt. I loved watching her as her body relaxed and her breathing slowly returned to normal. She smiled as she turned to me and saw that I'd watched her. She giggled and said "I'm horny thinking about it".
I'm sure there's more but I'm trying to keep this brief. Tomorrow afternoon will be interesting, hoping it all works out.
