Perhaps I've had nothing new in the past to post as something that truly affected me vs. merely recapping our somewhat unusual sexual relationship.
But I am now reminded why I posted here in the first place as right now I am still trying to fully digest everything that happened last night.
Robert pretty much knows everything that's going on. She's told him more recently after he started to ask her if he was her first lover. She said that I did/do still have a health issue but that he now knows that I am okay with what she's doing - and he knows that I know she spent the night with him.
The openness that started last week has really struck her and she's now feeling comfortable and confident in what SHE wants and that the way I'd described how I felt, it made her realize that she doesn't always have to do things that exactly mesh with what I may want.
I didn't know where she was going until she said that she didn't like what we were currently doing and that it wasn't working for her. I was happy as she shared sort of some of what I'd said about how I felt less involved. I was all ears and she said that while she was enjoying this "denial-thing" (as she calls it), that she didn't like it being governed by the calendar. As she said "I don't want the calendar dictating when we do and don't have sex". I wasn't sure what she was saying until she said that there had been times - yes, when she's come home after being with Robert - that she'd like to have been more intimate with me. I told her that she could have always done that and she giggled that "yes, now I know that" but at the time she felt bound by our agreement as she thought it was something that I wanted. I was all psyched as she said that she still wanted to tease me and yes, deny me.
But then the conversation went in a direction that I didn't expect.
She said to me that she wanted to change how we play with the "denial-thing". And she proceeded to tell me that she doesn't want me to cum in her. I was speechless. She told me how this was something "she wanted" and that it wasn't forever or anything - mainly she said that she wanted that for "nights like tonight, when I want to be with you too". She slid over next to me and acted all sexy and continued to tell me that she's felt this way for a long time that she wanted to try this when it was right and that it feels right now. She told me "I've been telling you this for a while too" and she proceeded to tell me again how much she liked watching me. And she cooed in my ear about "you even told me that it turned you on too" - and I know I had said it to her, she wasn't wrong.
A moment later she reached into her purse and pulled out a small 3-pack box of these Durex Bare condoms that are really really thin. She said "these are the best" and she held me and said that this meant a lot to her.
We talked for quite a while - I can't say that I am totally in favor of this but she convinced me to give it a try. I can't possibly quickly share all that we talked about but one thing she did say was that she wanted this to be something I did for her - in terms of both using them but also for me to not always question or ask or try to avoid using them. She asked me that - when we are going to have sex - that she'd like for me to just assume that I should use one unless she says that I don't and that she didn't want me to continually ask (pester was the word she used) to try to not. She held my hand and said "it's going to turn you on just the same way when you get to feel me again" and how this way she gets what she wants too.
So yes - at about 10pm last night after all of this talk and after her getting naked and sharing both herself and details from her time with Robert (yes - she shared everything but again restricted me to the outside of her pussy only) - I didn't know if she'd wanted me to masturbate (I was surely horny enough) or if she wanted me to fuck her and use a condom. She looked up at me when it was time and asked "do you want to try one out?". It was either use a condom or not feel any more of her pussy and masturbate. I smiled at her and said okay.
But I am now reminded why I posted here in the first place as right now I am still trying to fully digest everything that happened last night.
Robert pretty much knows everything that's going on. She's told him more recently after he started to ask her if he was her first lover. She said that I did/do still have a health issue but that he now knows that I am okay with what she's doing - and he knows that I know she spent the night with him.
The openness that started last week has really struck her and she's now feeling comfortable and confident in what SHE wants and that the way I'd described how I felt, it made her realize that she doesn't always have to do things that exactly mesh with what I may want.
I didn't know where she was going until she said that she didn't like what we were currently doing and that it wasn't working for her. I was happy as she shared sort of some of what I'd said about how I felt less involved. I was all ears and she said that while she was enjoying this "denial-thing" (as she calls it), that she didn't like it being governed by the calendar. As she said "I don't want the calendar dictating when we do and don't have sex". I wasn't sure what she was saying until she said that there had been times - yes, when she's come home after being with Robert - that she'd like to have been more intimate with me. I told her that she could have always done that and she giggled that "yes, now I know that" but at the time she felt bound by our agreement as she thought it was something that I wanted. I was all psyched as she said that she still wanted to tease me and yes, deny me.
But then the conversation went in a direction that I didn't expect.
She said to me that she wanted to change how we play with the "denial-thing". And she proceeded to tell me that she doesn't want me to cum in her. I was speechless. She told me how this was something "she wanted" and that it wasn't forever or anything - mainly she said that she wanted that for "nights like tonight, when I want to be with you too". She slid over next to me and acted all sexy and continued to tell me that she's felt this way for a long time that she wanted to try this when it was right and that it feels right now. She told me "I've been telling you this for a while too" and she proceeded to tell me again how much she liked watching me. And she cooed in my ear about "you even told me that it turned you on too" - and I know I had said it to her, she wasn't wrong.
A moment later she reached into her purse and pulled out a small 3-pack box of these Durex Bare condoms that are really really thin. She said "these are the best" and she held me and said that this meant a lot to her.
We talked for quite a while - I can't say that I am totally in favor of this but she convinced me to give it a try. I can't possibly quickly share all that we talked about but one thing she did say was that she wanted this to be something I did for her - in terms of both using them but also for me to not always question or ask or try to avoid using them. She asked me that - when we are going to have sex - that she'd like for me to just assume that I should use one unless she says that I don't and that she didn't want me to continually ask (pester was the word she used) to try to not. She held my hand and said "it's going to turn you on just the same way when you get to feel me again" and how this way she gets what she wants too.
So yes - at about 10pm last night after all of this talk and after her getting naked and sharing both herself and details from her time with Robert (yes - she shared everything but again restricted me to the outside of her pussy only) - I didn't know if she'd wanted me to masturbate (I was surely horny enough) or if she wanted me to fuck her and use a condom. She looked up at me when it was time and asked "do you want to try one out?". It was either use a condom or not feel any more of her pussy and masturbate. I smiled at her and said okay.
