Becon - thanks for replying. I have considered a live-in lover and if that oppertunity comes along I will definately pursue it. It is the best of both worlds. I could have my cake and eat it too. I am open to having a black lover although I have not found one that is searching for the same things we are. So that has not happened yet. As for being bred, I can't have children so that is a moot point.
Joe - It is always nice to read your postings because you always have an intelligent spin on things.
I do plan on improving my station in life by finding a better lover. I just don't plan on having my cuck finance it in the long term. I don't mind my cuck financing a date or buying me new shoes or a new outfit for a date. I won't seek any financial support if I find a new husband though. If we divorce I plan on doing it for a better man. That also means more successful. That doesn't mean he has to be rich and it doesn't mean I'm gold digging. It just means that I will find a guy that I can have a successful relationship where we would both contribte to our well-being without the financial support of the cuck. Now if I am able to find a man that would like to keep my cuck around with us I would expect the cuck to financially support us. That is different then leaving him, not living with him, but expecting him to send me a check.
If I was able to find a man that was open to my cuck staying with us it would be great. The cuck would be like a roommate, but would be expected to give us all his money. In return he would gt a small allowance, a place to live and all the things that go with that. The cuck would also be our servant. Not a slave, but like a butler. He would maintane the home, prepare meals and that sort of things. Whether the cuck will be involved in our sex will be up to my new husband. Personally I prefer to not have the cuck involved in the sex, but who knows what will happen with that. We have discussed both options.
I love my cuck, but I am not IN love with him. Although we are a team when it comes to running our home and the life we live at the moment, I have discovered how close we have become on a personal level, but how we are not as compatible on an intimate level. I love him with all my heart, but having fallen for another man in the past has made me realize where we really are in our relationship. I would love to find a man that will be open to having my cuck stay on as a roommate/servant, but if I find a man that is a goo fit and I have feelings for; I won't let that little issue stand in my way. My cuck agrees with this view also. Finding this situation would be ideal, but may not be possible. We don't want to let another potential stud slip through our fingers.
Anything I do with a man will take a good deal of time. I don't plan on meeting a guy and divorcing within a couple months. On the contrary, I expect a long courtship. I won't just up and leave my current relationship on a whim. I want to know that it will work and it is what I really want. That will also entail finding a stud that is open to this kind of relationship. Difficult to find.
I have discovered with the past 2 men that I had feelings for that I don't desire sex with my husband. With the first man I even cut my husband off completely from sex feeling that I was cheating on my boyfriend. It only fueled my cuck's desires. He loved it, I liked it, and my boyfriend expected it.
My cuck and I don't want a cuckold wedding. We have discussed this. If I get married again it will be to another (better) man. Although I said I would want my cuck to give me away.
I respect the advice you have given me. It sounds like you have experience. More experience than us. For the time being we stay on our present course of being together. Even though it may sound like we are trying to force it; we arn't. Instead we are living our life together with our fantasies and hopes. If the time comes then we are prepared for what we want to do and how to handle it. Nothing will go exactly according to plan, but we do have a blueprint for our fantasies and our lives.
So we would like to experience it together in the long term with my cuck becoming a roommate, but we both realize that this may not happen. There is also a possibility that it all of this may not happen at all. But we continue our search and enjoy the here and now.