Denial part-2
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The lack of an "up-date," after this much time, becomes 'ominous' (and certainly understood) considering the critical condition of Sue's father. .... Then there is the possibility, (if Sue found, that the Daughter would be gone 'overnight' Fri. with a friend) That Sue decided that Fri. night was her time to stay Overnight with Robert.
My first thought is to hope that Sue's father has stabilized from the move to a different facility. (Often a difficult time for a patient in a life challenging condition).
Second Thought? Well, ..... I'll just wait for the report when Steve can spare time to get on.
Cheers, Harry
My first thought is to hope that Sue's father has stabilized from the move to a different facility. (Often a difficult time for a patient in a life challenging condition).
Second Thought? Well, ..... I'll just wait for the report when Steve can spare time to get on.
Cheers, Harry
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Hey all....
Harry - no doom and gloom here - just busy.
Sue did not get home until well after 11pm on Friday night and I admit that by the time she did get home, that my brain working overtime had gotten me quite horny.
I will have to have the presence of mind to somehow take a picture of her when she comes in after being out (though without showing her face, not sure it'd have the same meaning) - when she came in there was no doubt from the look on her face what she'd been doing. It's not that she looks younger - but she has this glow about her and this totally relaxed look to her - the nearest I can relate it to is to how she (or anyone for that matter) looks after getting an intensely good massage. As though all the stress has been squeezed out of her. And if I wasn't horny already, that look on her and knowing why, did the rest.
I won't quite say it was awkward but as we kissed and I hugged her I was torn between feeling hornier and hornier and the knowledge that she wasn't going to have sex with me. I will say that I did want it. It was so many things. She'd changed - it took me a minute to even realize that - but on top of that it was from how she felt - even how she smelled.
I joked with her that I wondered if she was coming home at all and she giggled back that she was tempted when she'd swapped text messages with our daughter earlier but she said she also knew that she'd have some explaining to do if she were to come home too late on Saturday and she giggled and said "next week, however.....". I was actually too busy looking at and hugging her to really register what she'd said. She kissed me again and said she was tired and that if it was okay with me, that she wanted to head up to bed soon. We talked idly about our how our days had been - it was only after a few minutes that I realized that our conversation was unnecessarily subdued with us having the house to ourselves we could talk openly anywhere - but for whatever reason we didn't - we kept it to just the usual as we ate a bit and then cleaned up.
In the bedroom she looked at me and smiled as she began to get undressed. She pulled her top over her head and as I looked at her in just her jeans and bra and it so reminded me of an early picture I'd posted of her from a few years back. I think she took her time getting changed as she seemed to linger in just the bra and jeans for longer than necessary. She giggled at me and said "you can see this part" as she took off her bra. Her breasts looked beautiful with her nipples still looking swollen from what I imagined was earlier activity. She saw me staring intently and she continued "you can see this part too" and she undid her jeans and slid them off revealing just her pink panties - she looked up and smiled broadly that I was just staring at her like that. I think she saw the rising tent in my boxers as her eyes glanced downward and then back up and she smiled even more and even giggled a little bit.
Before I could say anything really she came up to me in just her panties, kissed me and said she'd be back - and she went into the bathroom. I heard some commotion in there and then a few minutes later I heard the faucet running and finally she came out and said she was ready for bed. She stood next to the bed and said "say goodbye" as she pulled her night-shirt over her head. It was my turn in the bathroom next and after I peed and washed and brushed my teeth I thought that I'd not heard her flush the toilet which got me curious. I peeked in the hamper and there was nothing new there but then I saw in the trash a small plastic bag thing and as I picked it up I realized what it was and damn if my cock didn't grow hard as I picked it up. Inside it was a period-pad folded over. I knew what I'd find but I had to look anyway and sure enough, the center of the pad was very wet and a second later the odor confirmed what I'd thought.
I had a raging hardon by now and when I went back out to the bedroom Sue was lying in bed with the TV on and as I lay down next to her she rolled over and told me a little about her night and "how wonderful" Robert was. How they had dinner out first and she glowed that it almost felt like a date. I think she knew she was going to tease me by dragging it out.
As she continued to tell me she also said how she loved that we'd talked so openly the other night and that she knew it wasn't easy for me to admit to what I did. She held my hand and said that she really liked knowing what I was thinking and that hearing it honestly from me both that night and again on Thursday night, that she'd felt much more aware of what she'd been doing when she was with Robert and how she liked knowing that it was because it was what she wanted to do. She said that when they got back to his place - that's when things started to happen. She rolled towards me in bed and asked if I was horny. I was a little sheepish to answer her until she said "it's okay if you are honey - I like that you are" and a second later she said "if you want to take care of yourself while I tell you more, I'd like that".
How could I say no - especially when she said that she'd like it if I did. So a moment later I slid my boxers off and lay there stroking my cock. She got up on one elbow and told me how horny it makes her when she watches me masturbate and with that she continued telling me about her night. I can't remember every single detail she shared as I was kind of getting into jerking off and was letting my mind go from thought to thought as she talked. I loved hearing her tell me how he undressed her and how horny she felt. She said that with each piece of clothing he took off her "I felt like I moved from being your wife to being his lover" until she said how, when he knelt between her legs and she raised her butt off his bed - that as he took her panties off, she said all she could focus on and feel was just how horny she was.
She told me how he likes for her to lie naked on his bed - legs spread "so he can see everything as he gets undressed". She said that she could feel herself getting wet and turned on as he stood at the foot of the bed and took his clothes off - and how, by the time he stepped out of his boxers - that she said "I was ready for anything".
I stroked my cock more and more as she started to tell me more. She commented how she hadn't told me all that much about their time together but now after hearing all we talked about openly - that she wanted to share more with me. She told me how she loves feeling his hands on her body and how his tongue and mouth follow where his hands go. From her mouth, face and neck - she told me how he moved down her body and I swear I felt the first spasms of my impending orgasm when she told me how she's no longer embarassed by how wet her pussy is when he starts to lick her.
I think she knew that maybe she was being too graphic with me - she giggled that "I want you to last for a little while longer" at one point and she seemed to change how descriptive she was about her night. And within the next few minutes she told me how he went from licking to mounting her and how she "couldn't wait to feel him" in her pussy. She told me how she watched him as he pushed into her and even giggled at how she always wonders how it fits in her and that he looks so big to her. But apparently he fits just fine because when she began to tell me how they fucked - there was no doubt that she was taking him with no problem. She told me how they changed positions and how she came first when she was on top but how "he waited until I was done" before he rolled her onto her back.
My hand was almost a blur as she told me how she felt being so full from his cock and how she could feel him so deep in her. "Baby, he makes me cum so much when I know he's near" was how she described how she knew him so well. She told me how she could tell he was close and how "I love opening myself up for him when he's ready" - and I knew just what she meant, on he back she can sometimes reach under her and almost pull her pussy further open at times. But it was when she described feeling him cum in her that I too let loose. She seemed to linger on telling me how she could feel him in her, how hot he felt as he came in her - but mostly she seemed to convey how as she could feel him cumming, that it pushed her to orgasm and how she felt it all being so wet and open as they both ground against each other.
Harry - no doom and gloom here - just busy.
Sue did not get home until well after 11pm on Friday night and I admit that by the time she did get home, that my brain working overtime had gotten me quite horny.
I will have to have the presence of mind to somehow take a picture of her when she comes in after being out (though without showing her face, not sure it'd have the same meaning) - when she came in there was no doubt from the look on her face what she'd been doing. It's not that she looks younger - but she has this glow about her and this totally relaxed look to her - the nearest I can relate it to is to how she (or anyone for that matter) looks after getting an intensely good massage. As though all the stress has been squeezed out of her. And if I wasn't horny already, that look on her and knowing why, did the rest.
I won't quite say it was awkward but as we kissed and I hugged her I was torn between feeling hornier and hornier and the knowledge that she wasn't going to have sex with me. I will say that I did want it. It was so many things. She'd changed - it took me a minute to even realize that - but on top of that it was from how she felt - even how she smelled.
I joked with her that I wondered if she was coming home at all and she giggled back that she was tempted when she'd swapped text messages with our daughter earlier but she said she also knew that she'd have some explaining to do if she were to come home too late on Saturday and she giggled and said "next week, however.....". I was actually too busy looking at and hugging her to really register what she'd said. She kissed me again and said she was tired and that if it was okay with me, that she wanted to head up to bed soon. We talked idly about our how our days had been - it was only after a few minutes that I realized that our conversation was unnecessarily subdued with us having the house to ourselves we could talk openly anywhere - but for whatever reason we didn't - we kept it to just the usual as we ate a bit and then cleaned up.
In the bedroom she looked at me and smiled as she began to get undressed. She pulled her top over her head and as I looked at her in just her jeans and bra and it so reminded me of an early picture I'd posted of her from a few years back. I think she took her time getting changed as she seemed to linger in just the bra and jeans for longer than necessary. She giggled at me and said "you can see this part" as she took off her bra. Her breasts looked beautiful with her nipples still looking swollen from what I imagined was earlier activity. She saw me staring intently and she continued "you can see this part too" and she undid her jeans and slid them off revealing just her pink panties - she looked up and smiled broadly that I was just staring at her like that. I think she saw the rising tent in my boxers as her eyes glanced downward and then back up and she smiled even more and even giggled a little bit.
Before I could say anything really she came up to me in just her panties, kissed me and said she'd be back - and she went into the bathroom. I heard some commotion in there and then a few minutes later I heard the faucet running and finally she came out and said she was ready for bed. She stood next to the bed and said "say goodbye" as she pulled her night-shirt over her head. It was my turn in the bathroom next and after I peed and washed and brushed my teeth I thought that I'd not heard her flush the toilet which got me curious. I peeked in the hamper and there was nothing new there but then I saw in the trash a small plastic bag thing and as I picked it up I realized what it was and damn if my cock didn't grow hard as I picked it up. Inside it was a period-pad folded over. I knew what I'd find but I had to look anyway and sure enough, the center of the pad was very wet and a second later the odor confirmed what I'd thought.
I had a raging hardon by now and when I went back out to the bedroom Sue was lying in bed with the TV on and as I lay down next to her she rolled over and told me a little about her night and "how wonderful" Robert was. How they had dinner out first and she glowed that it almost felt like a date. I think she knew she was going to tease me by dragging it out.
As she continued to tell me she also said how she loved that we'd talked so openly the other night and that she knew it wasn't easy for me to admit to what I did. She held my hand and said that she really liked knowing what I was thinking and that hearing it honestly from me both that night and again on Thursday night, that she'd felt much more aware of what she'd been doing when she was with Robert and how she liked knowing that it was because it was what she wanted to do. She said that when they got back to his place - that's when things started to happen. She rolled towards me in bed and asked if I was horny. I was a little sheepish to answer her until she said "it's okay if you are honey - I like that you are" and a second later she said "if you want to take care of yourself while I tell you more, I'd like that".
How could I say no - especially when she said that she'd like it if I did. So a moment later I slid my boxers off and lay there stroking my cock. She got up on one elbow and told me how horny it makes her when she watches me masturbate and with that she continued telling me about her night. I can't remember every single detail she shared as I was kind of getting into jerking off and was letting my mind go from thought to thought as she talked. I loved hearing her tell me how he undressed her and how horny she felt. She said that with each piece of clothing he took off her "I felt like I moved from being your wife to being his lover" until she said how, when he knelt between her legs and she raised her butt off his bed - that as he took her panties off, she said all she could focus on and feel was just how horny she was.
She told me how he likes for her to lie naked on his bed - legs spread "so he can see everything as he gets undressed". She said that she could feel herself getting wet and turned on as he stood at the foot of the bed and took his clothes off - and how, by the time he stepped out of his boxers - that she said "I was ready for anything".
I stroked my cock more and more as she started to tell me more. She commented how she hadn't told me all that much about their time together but now after hearing all we talked about openly - that she wanted to share more with me. She told me how she loves feeling his hands on her body and how his tongue and mouth follow where his hands go. From her mouth, face and neck - she told me how he moved down her body and I swear I felt the first spasms of my impending orgasm when she told me how she's no longer embarassed by how wet her pussy is when he starts to lick her.
I think she knew that maybe she was being too graphic with me - she giggled that "I want you to last for a little while longer" at one point and she seemed to change how descriptive she was about her night. And within the next few minutes she told me how he went from licking to mounting her and how she "couldn't wait to feel him" in her pussy. She told me how she watched him as he pushed into her and even giggled at how she always wonders how it fits in her and that he looks so big to her. But apparently he fits just fine because when she began to tell me how they fucked - there was no doubt that she was taking him with no problem. She told me how they changed positions and how she came first when she was on top but how "he waited until I was done" before he rolled her onto her back.
My hand was almost a blur as she told me how she felt being so full from his cock and how she could feel him so deep in her. "Baby, he makes me cum so much when I know he's near" was how she described how she knew him so well. She told me how she could tell he was close and how "I love opening myself up for him when he's ready" - and I knew just what she meant, on he back she can sometimes reach under her and almost pull her pussy further open at times. But it was when she described feeling him cum in her that I too let loose. She seemed to linger on telling me how she could feel him in her, how hot he felt as he came in her - but mostly she seemed to convey how as she could feel him cumming, that it pushed her to orgasm and how she felt it all being so wet and open as they both ground against each other.
I wasn't sure she even knew I'd cum when I did until she finished her thoughts about how she felt and then seemed to focus back on me and cooed in my ear how horny and hot I looked as she watched me milk out the last dribbles of cum. She did tease me about there not being too much cum from me and I quickly reminded her that it'd now been 2x on Wednesday, again on Thursday and now once again and she giggled and said "I keep forgetting he's so much younger than you are" in comment on how often he seems to be able to get it up with her!
She leaned over and started to play with my cum on my stomach again commenting on how horny it makes her to watch me and to see how much I can cum. I thought she was going to feed it to me but instead she kept playing with it - drawing a smiley face with my semen - and she started to tell me that "you know we did it again later on". And that brought a groan out of me. She took my now limp cock in her hand and started to tease me about "will he get hard again" and how "Robert sure was horny again earlier".
She said how they remained naked lying together on his bed - and how sexy she felt like that, lying with her lover after they'd just had sex. She said they teased and tickled each other and that he brought them back a glass of wine as they flipped through the channels on the TV. Apparently he sped by the soft-porn channel that I guess he subscribes to until Sue said "what was that you passed by". She said he was blushing as he went back to one channel that was showing some sort of sex scene with 2 women. Sue said she joked with him that "isn't that every guys dream?" - I was going to say something (as I knew she didn't care for F-F sex) but she said that before he could say anything she said "it's not for me but I know it gets guys horny". They watched until the scene changed and she said it was a guy and a girl. I remember, she described the guy as "greasy" and not her type - but she admitted that watching porn with her lover was a turnon in itself.
Now, to be honest, I was pretty spent - it was well after midnight and here she was - still up and animated and talking to me while still playing with my cum (what little there was). She looked up at me as she took my limp cock in her hand and said "do you want to hear the rest of my night?" and I just moaned back a weak "uh huh" for her to continue. She stroked my limp cock and I have to say it ached a little bit to feel her hand pulling at it so soon after I'd just cum - but at the same time it felt good to feel her hand on it even if it didn't plump up!
She told me how they'd left the bedroom and he'd chased her around the living room while they were both still naked and how he'd pinned her up against the kitchen counter as they ground away at each other - and she had no qualm about telling me "he was hard again" and how he kissed her and how he turned her around and tried to enter her from behind. "I pushed him away and he chased me back into the bedroom". She leaned up against me and kissed me and looked at me very closely and said "we made love for the next hour baby....". I think she wanted to hear my response and when I just said "oh wow - you are driving me crazy with all of this" she giggled and kept stroking my cock which was now a little chubby but far from fully hard and erect. She looked at me and asked "can you cum again?" and when I said "I doubt it" and asked "can I keep on doing this?" (meaning stroking it) and I groaned back "yeah...". She smiled and told me how this second fuck of theirs took a while and how she loved how hard he felt so deep in her the whole time. She told me how dreamy it felt to be lying under him feeling him fucking her - that she seemed to describe floating from one orgasm to another.
I thought she might even get me to cum yet a second time - but that wasn't to be. She seemed to wind up more just holding onto my cock instead of stroking it - not that it was hard - as she told me how he finally got off a second time with her. It was quite intense to hear her talk and I wished I'd held off on my earlier orgasm until I heard her telling me all of this as it was truly beautiful to her her tell me how horny she was and how she loved feeling that passion. What seemed different to me was how animated she was telling me - sharing with me. And she said several times that our talk from the other nights had helped her feel better and more comfortable with all of this. It was incredibly sensual to hear her tell me how she hugged him as she could feel his orgasm starting and how she wrapped her legs around his to hold him deep.
From how she described, it answered what I'd found in the bathroom as she said "he left me really messy" and she said that she cleaned up a bit "but more kept on dripping out" so she put a pad in her panties before she left for home.
I hugged her tightly afterwards and told her that I loved her sharing the evening with me this way and she again said how she felt much better "knowing all of this really turns you on". I kissed her and told her that she was beautiful as I went to go clean myself up now that my cum had dried up and gotten sticky. Climbing back in bed I spooned up behind her and even though we didn't have sex together - in some ways I felt closer to her than I had in a while.
Saturday was a bit of a blur for us - the weather was still oppressively hot. Sue went over to pick up her mom and go visit her dad while I sweated my balls off mowing the lawn before taking a swim. Saturday evening was uneventful and very much non-sexy as I think we were both quite spent and pretty much talked out.
Yesterday - we took the big long drive up to Maine - fortunately it's south-eastern Maine so it's not much further than Boston - just more north instead of east - to drop off our daughter for a week with her friend. They'll be back next Sunday. We left about 8am and were there in time for lunch - we spent a little while with them visiting and seeing the area before we headed back home. On our way home we stopped for dinner and didn't get in until after 9pm last night.
It was last night in bed that Sue announced her plans for the week. She didn't really ask me - more that she told me that with our daughter now away for the week - that she was going to spend Tuesday night with Robert. She told me she had it all worked out. Tomorrow morning she'll bring extra clothes with her - and that from work tomorrow, she'll go straight to Robert's place. She spared me the expected details and merely said "I'll spend the night with him and then go to work on Wednesday" and she said "you'll see me later on Wednesday evening after I've gone back to his place after work again". She giggled that "I'll tell you everything on Wednesday night baby" and she kind of moaned at "how much you're going to cum".
It's only now that I'm thinking about it more - that I'm thinking she will leave on Tuesday morning and I won't see her again for over 36 hours.
She seems to have finally come full-circle - maybe as Peak and others have said - maybe I needed to be more honest and open with her - it seems to have made a difference so far. She promised me before she left for work this morning that we'll have lots of time to talk about it tonight.
She leaned over and started to play with my cum on my stomach again commenting on how horny it makes her to watch me and to see how much I can cum. I thought she was going to feed it to me but instead she kept playing with it - drawing a smiley face with my semen - and she started to tell me that "you know we did it again later on". And that brought a groan out of me. She took my now limp cock in her hand and started to tease me about "will he get hard again" and how "Robert sure was horny again earlier".
She said how they remained naked lying together on his bed - and how sexy she felt like that, lying with her lover after they'd just had sex. She said they teased and tickled each other and that he brought them back a glass of wine as they flipped through the channels on the TV. Apparently he sped by the soft-porn channel that I guess he subscribes to until Sue said "what was that you passed by". She said he was blushing as he went back to one channel that was showing some sort of sex scene with 2 women. Sue said she joked with him that "isn't that every guys dream?" - I was going to say something (as I knew she didn't care for F-F sex) but she said that before he could say anything she said "it's not for me but I know it gets guys horny". They watched until the scene changed and she said it was a guy and a girl. I remember, she described the guy as "greasy" and not her type - but she admitted that watching porn with her lover was a turnon in itself.
Now, to be honest, I was pretty spent - it was well after midnight and here she was - still up and animated and talking to me while still playing with my cum (what little there was). She looked up at me as she took my limp cock in her hand and said "do you want to hear the rest of my night?" and I just moaned back a weak "uh huh" for her to continue. She stroked my limp cock and I have to say it ached a little bit to feel her hand pulling at it so soon after I'd just cum - but at the same time it felt good to feel her hand on it even if it didn't plump up!
She told me how they'd left the bedroom and he'd chased her around the living room while they were both still naked and how he'd pinned her up against the kitchen counter as they ground away at each other - and she had no qualm about telling me "he was hard again" and how he kissed her and how he turned her around and tried to enter her from behind. "I pushed him away and he chased me back into the bedroom". She leaned up against me and kissed me and looked at me very closely and said "we made love for the next hour baby....". I think she wanted to hear my response and when I just said "oh wow - you are driving me crazy with all of this" she giggled and kept stroking my cock which was now a little chubby but far from fully hard and erect. She looked at me and asked "can you cum again?" and when I said "I doubt it" and asked "can I keep on doing this?" (meaning stroking it) and I groaned back "yeah...". She smiled and told me how this second fuck of theirs took a while and how she loved how hard he felt so deep in her the whole time. She told me how dreamy it felt to be lying under him feeling him fucking her - that she seemed to describe floating from one orgasm to another.
I thought she might even get me to cum yet a second time - but that wasn't to be. She seemed to wind up more just holding onto my cock instead of stroking it - not that it was hard - as she told me how he finally got off a second time with her. It was quite intense to hear her talk and I wished I'd held off on my earlier orgasm until I heard her telling me all of this as it was truly beautiful to her her tell me how horny she was and how she loved feeling that passion. What seemed different to me was how animated she was telling me - sharing with me. And she said several times that our talk from the other nights had helped her feel better and more comfortable with all of this. It was incredibly sensual to hear her tell me how she hugged him as she could feel his orgasm starting and how she wrapped her legs around his to hold him deep.
From how she described, it answered what I'd found in the bathroom as she said "he left me really messy" and she said that she cleaned up a bit "but more kept on dripping out" so she put a pad in her panties before she left for home.
I hugged her tightly afterwards and told her that I loved her sharing the evening with me this way and she again said how she felt much better "knowing all of this really turns you on". I kissed her and told her that she was beautiful as I went to go clean myself up now that my cum had dried up and gotten sticky. Climbing back in bed I spooned up behind her and even though we didn't have sex together - in some ways I felt closer to her than I had in a while.
Saturday was a bit of a blur for us - the weather was still oppressively hot. Sue went over to pick up her mom and go visit her dad while I sweated my balls off mowing the lawn before taking a swim. Saturday evening was uneventful and very much non-sexy as I think we were both quite spent and pretty much talked out.
Yesterday - we took the big long drive up to Maine - fortunately it's south-eastern Maine so it's not much further than Boston - just more north instead of east - to drop off our daughter for a week with her friend. They'll be back next Sunday. We left about 8am and were there in time for lunch - we spent a little while with them visiting and seeing the area before we headed back home. On our way home we stopped for dinner and didn't get in until after 9pm last night.
It was last night in bed that Sue announced her plans for the week. She didn't really ask me - more that she told me that with our daughter now away for the week - that she was going to spend Tuesday night with Robert. She told me she had it all worked out. Tomorrow morning she'll bring extra clothes with her - and that from work tomorrow, she'll go straight to Robert's place. She spared me the expected details and merely said "I'll spend the night with him and then go to work on Wednesday" and she said "you'll see me later on Wednesday evening after I've gone back to his place after work again". She giggled that "I'll tell you everything on Wednesday night baby" and she kind of moaned at "how much you're going to cum".
It's only now that I'm thinking about it more - that I'm thinking she will leave on Tuesday morning and I won't see her again for over 36 hours.
She seems to have finally come full-circle - maybe as Peak and others have said - maybe I needed to be more honest and open with her - it seems to have made a difference so far. She promised me before she left for work this morning that we'll have lots of time to talk about it tonight.
No "doom & gloom" intended.
As far as you & Sue, it seems you each are finally at the place where you each know what the other wants. You are feeding each others desires & fantasies.
The "ominous" comment was meant for Sue's Dad in that as you describe his condition and then he being moved, it's always a critical decision the Dr. Has to make at a time like that.
I figured that your 'time off the board' may have been spent with Sue's family, getting 'estate afairs' in order.
Cheers, Harry
As far as you & Sue, it seems you each are finally at the place where you each know what the other wants. You are feeding each others desires & fantasies.
The "ominous" comment was meant for Sue's Dad in that as you describe his condition and then he being moved, it's always a critical decision the Dr. Has to make at a time like that.
I figured that your 'time off the board' may have been spent with Sue's family, getting 'estate afairs' in order.
Cheers, Harry
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Harry - you're so correct - every time they move him there's always been a complication or setback. But this time it seems to have gone okay in terms of that kind of issue. They still think he had some kind of infection with the white blood count and all of that - and they did have him on IV antibiotics. I haven't seen him now in a few days so maybe with him stabilized he'll bounce back. From how I saw him last, he wasn't hooked up to anything but still seemed pretty out of it. I asked about doing another cat-scan to see if anything's changed stroke-wise if they can see that sort of thing and I was surprised that they had and that I hadn't heard - but that was part of the decision to move him, that the cat-scan didn't show any change.
Anyway - that's all, fortunately, that there is on that front.
I re-read the lengthy post I submited earlier - jeez I can ramble on a slow Monday.
Anyway - that's all, fortunately, that there is on that front.
I re-read the lengthy post I submited earlier - jeez I can ramble on a slow Monday.
Steve,
Sometimes a bit of detail is necessary to really understand what is going on. Your relationship with Sue seems to be evolving yet again and I think your post helped a lot to understand that. Besides, a good long post helps to quieten the peanut gallery for a while, or at least get them back on message for a bit! I say that as a peanut myself of course. I'll be on holiday when Sue finally spends the night away. Your account will be something to take the sting out of my return next week. I hope you enjoy it all.
Sometimes a bit of detail is necessary to really understand what is going on. Your relationship with Sue seems to be evolving yet again and I think your post helped a lot to understand that. Besides, a good long post helps to quieten the peanut gallery for a while, or at least get them back on message for a bit! I say that as a peanut myself of course. I'll be on holiday when Sue finally spends the night away. Your account will be something to take the sting out of my return next week. I hope you enjoy it all.
Thanks Peak
I think I've started to post more for others than for myself lately and I need to re-think what I post and how much.
It's really quite interesting to see Sue feeling so much more confident about all of this - less concern from her on making sure it's all okay with me. If that's the result of our openness and my not holding back, then it'll be a good thing. She didn't really give me a choice on her decision for tomorrow night so that's a bit of a new thing too - actually kind of arousing, which I'm sure she knew!
I think I've started to post more for others than for myself lately and I need to re-think what I post and how much.
It's really quite interesting to see Sue feeling so much more confident about all of this - less concern from her on making sure it's all okay with me. If that's the result of our openness and my not holding back, then it'll be a good thing. She didn't really give me a choice on her decision for tomorrow night so that's a bit of a new thing too - actually kind of arousing, which I'm sure she knew!
Steve, years from now when you look back at these posts and possibly share with Sue. you will have a greater appreciation for including more detail then less. Others considering this journey will have greater insights and possibly have greater chance for success then failure because of the "little" details if that matters.
This is your journey and we are thankful for what you do share with us here in this forum.
This is your journey and we are thankful for what you do share with us here in this forum.
Steve,
You have been posting this diary for a long time now. You started it for a reason and some of that may still drive you, but I'm guessing, not much now. Along the journey you must have gathered some new inspiration, momentum. Looking back you and Sue have come a long way (I'll ignore the pun) and your ability to articulate your dreams and worries have kept the peanuts enthralled and locked in. We are the tick birds on the Rhinoceros. We offer some small help, at a distance. If we are medicine, you can reduce the dose now. Post a little less if you want to. Do the peanuts want that? Of course not. However, I'm sure they do want what is best for you.
You may not see it that way but you are going through a lot at the moment. Dads are not supposed to get upset when the children leave the nest. But they do. You are offering huge support to Sue with her father and trying not to show her it hurts somewhere when she turns to Robert for escape. The sex you can cope with. The emotional escape I suspect was not expected. On top of that you have just bared your soul to Sue. The risk paid off but I'm guessing that the unexpected consequence of denial you are enduring is not the orgasm with Sue but the closeness of making love. Something that can't quite be found in your teasing and masturbation sessions you otherwise enjoy so much. It all leaves you feeling a little alone at times. Maybe 5 weeks is too long at the moment. Not for the sexual release but for the closeness. If I'm anywhere near right, your only solution is more talk with Sue. After Wednesday though. I suspect waking up with someone who doesn't love her will take some of the shine off the memory of the great sex of the night before.
You have been posting this diary for a long time now. You started it for a reason and some of that may still drive you, but I'm guessing, not much now. Along the journey you must have gathered some new inspiration, momentum. Looking back you and Sue have come a long way (I'll ignore the pun) and your ability to articulate your dreams and worries have kept the peanuts enthralled and locked in. We are the tick birds on the Rhinoceros. We offer some small help, at a distance. If we are medicine, you can reduce the dose now. Post a little less if you want to. Do the peanuts want that? Of course not. However, I'm sure they do want what is best for you.
You may not see it that way but you are going through a lot at the moment. Dads are not supposed to get upset when the children leave the nest. But they do. You are offering huge support to Sue with her father and trying not to show her it hurts somewhere when she turns to Robert for escape. The sex you can cope with. The emotional escape I suspect was not expected. On top of that you have just bared your soul to Sue. The risk paid off but I'm guessing that the unexpected consequence of denial you are enduring is not the orgasm with Sue but the closeness of making love. Something that can't quite be found in your teasing and masturbation sessions you otherwise enjoy so much. It all leaves you feeling a little alone at times. Maybe 5 weeks is too long at the moment. Not for the sexual release but for the closeness. If I'm anywhere near right, your only solution is more talk with Sue. After Wednesday though. I suspect waking up with someone who doesn't love her will take some of the shine off the memory of the great sex of the night before.
Peak - I agree - there is a bit of loneliness - especially right now after Sue just went off to work.
We talked last night and she said that after last week that she feels comfortable, now, telling me things that she wasn't earlier.
She asked me last night if I was going to be okay when she's away tonight. I've noted that she didn't ask me if I was okay with her going - more that she asked if I was going to be okay while she was with him. And she again mentioned how after our talks that she feels much more at ease telling me that she "wants to be his tonight" and later on that, and she used these words exactly, that she "wants to get fucked tonight". She did cup my cock and balls and told me that I should enjoy myself tonight but to "save some for me on Wednesday".
I am still very aroused and turned on by all of this - but as you pointed out, some of the reasons that brought me here in the first place seem to have now become more, almost our "norm". I still get hard at the passing thought of her with Robert or whoever else but I do think the sense of urgency that I felt in posting here in the beginning may have faded or diminished a bit.
Still - I cannot deny that I had a huge hard-on this morning after I came out of the shower and she was prancing around the bedroom in just panties as she looked at clothes was to bring with her. On the one hand - the idea that she was packing a bag to spend the night with her lover - that totally turned me on. And I admit that I even gave her some feedback on her choices of lingerie, telling her that the black camisole went nicely with the skimpy black panties she'd chosen. She did put a night-shirt in the bag but even I doubt she'll be wearing it. And my emotions ran to the other side as she stood in the bathroom collecting all of her makeup and hair accessories she'll want tomorrow morning. I tried not to think about it but this is going to the the longest time they've been together and - I'd be lying if it didn't give me at least some concern. She saw me - I guess looking forlorn and she came over and hugged me and reminded me again that "it's just sex" and that she'll be back here tomorrow night with me. And again, she promised to "share all the details" with me - as that's one thing she's felt relieved about since our open talk - that she "knows" what turns me on and that she now feels she's confident enough to do stuff that she wants, confident of my support.
That said - I have to say that I'm sitting on the edge of the knife-blade. If I think about her spending the night in the arms of her lover - yes, okay - I admit it - I get the willies. Yes, there's still an undenyable sexual thrill that I get and it is what I mainly dwell on when I think of her. Not the sexy emotionally charged small-talk that must obviously follow their passion - but I absolutely get excited when I think of her in bed with him - beneath him as he fucks her and she undoubtedly responds. And yes, I'll admit that the idea of her waking up with him and possibly having a morning-session with him before work just has my mind racing. That she might go off to work freshly fucked is something that I haven't thought of with her in a long time and my god - if that is what happens, by tomorrow night I'll be bursting at the seams.
So, I'm a bit stoic right now and am going to sign off here and head into work. The house being empty except for me right now has an ominous feel to it - one I'm sure I'll have to deal with later tonight. I do think, that perhaps her feeling more calm and confident sharing details of their time together - as she did when she came home Friday night - is something good for us. I know that she felt very comfortable sharing that with me - something I haven't felt from her in a while - as if she felt she had to hide or diminish what she's been doing with Robert.
More later.
We talked last night and she said that after last week that she feels comfortable, now, telling me things that she wasn't earlier.
She asked me last night if I was going to be okay when she's away tonight. I've noted that she didn't ask me if I was okay with her going - more that she asked if I was going to be okay while she was with him. And she again mentioned how after our talks that she feels much more at ease telling me that she "wants to be his tonight" and later on that, and she used these words exactly, that she "wants to get fucked tonight". She did cup my cock and balls and told me that I should enjoy myself tonight but to "save some for me on Wednesday".
I am still very aroused and turned on by all of this - but as you pointed out, some of the reasons that brought me here in the first place seem to have now become more, almost our "norm". I still get hard at the passing thought of her with Robert or whoever else but I do think the sense of urgency that I felt in posting here in the beginning may have faded or diminished a bit.
Still - I cannot deny that I had a huge hard-on this morning after I came out of the shower and she was prancing around the bedroom in just panties as she looked at clothes was to bring with her. On the one hand - the idea that she was packing a bag to spend the night with her lover - that totally turned me on. And I admit that I even gave her some feedback on her choices of lingerie, telling her that the black camisole went nicely with the skimpy black panties she'd chosen. She did put a night-shirt in the bag but even I doubt she'll be wearing it. And my emotions ran to the other side as she stood in the bathroom collecting all of her makeup and hair accessories she'll want tomorrow morning. I tried not to think about it but this is going to the the longest time they've been together and - I'd be lying if it didn't give me at least some concern. She saw me - I guess looking forlorn and she came over and hugged me and reminded me again that "it's just sex" and that she'll be back here tomorrow night with me. And again, she promised to "share all the details" with me - as that's one thing she's felt relieved about since our open talk - that she "knows" what turns me on and that she now feels she's confident enough to do stuff that she wants, confident of my support.
That said - I have to say that I'm sitting on the edge of the knife-blade. If I think about her spending the night in the arms of her lover - yes, okay - I admit it - I get the willies. Yes, there's still an undenyable sexual thrill that I get and it is what I mainly dwell on when I think of her. Not the sexy emotionally charged small-talk that must obviously follow their passion - but I absolutely get excited when I think of her in bed with him - beneath him as he fucks her and she undoubtedly responds. And yes, I'll admit that the idea of her waking up with him and possibly having a morning-session with him before work just has my mind racing. That she might go off to work freshly fucked is something that I haven't thought of with her in a long time and my god - if that is what happens, by tomorrow night I'll be bursting at the seams.
So, I'm a bit stoic right now and am going to sign off here and head into work. The house being empty except for me right now has an ominous feel to it - one I'm sure I'll have to deal with later tonight. I do think, that perhaps her feeling more calm and confident sharing details of their time together - as she did when she came home Friday night - is something good for us. I know that she felt very comfortable sharing that with me - something I haven't felt from her in a while - as if she felt she had to hide or diminish what she's been doing with Robert.
More later.
Well, despite staying late at work, I am now home and it is almost 7pm and I have the house to myself.
It's a rather weird feeling. Yes, aroused. But also feeling very edgy and, I guess, annoyed in a way.
I was thinking on the way home today that I think I know what is bothering me lately. It's that this has become something that didn't involve me. Indeed her detailed recap last Friday was the first of "details" that I'd heard in a relatively long time. Even this time tonight - there was little teasing or building me up as she has in the past - instead she more or less "announced" it and has now gone off for the night.
I am hoping that building on last Friday, that tomorrow evening, there will be an outpouring of details and more that will continue on our newest trend since opening up to each other. If it does not, then I will surely begin to speak up about this being absent. And it's not just sharing it with me through her words - but I suppose that with our denial-pact in place for another 3 plus weeks the options are limited - but I'm hoping she'll return with some new things we can do together to bring back maybe some of the newness and edginess I think I'd felt earlier.
No matter - even without it, I do still thoroughly enjoy what we are doing just as I know how our time together will be when it does happen next - so while I may be professing displeasure above, it is still far outweighed by the arousal and intense thoughts and feelings I now have for her.
Sue did text me earlier and amongst concerned thoughts for me, she also shared that there were leftovers in the fridge for me and a few beers too. I'm sure I'll find myself back here later tonight but I may head out and visit some friends or do something else rather than stay here and undoubtedly give in and jerk off when I do want to wait till tomorrow night to share with her.
It's a rather weird feeling. Yes, aroused. But also feeling very edgy and, I guess, annoyed in a way.
I was thinking on the way home today that I think I know what is bothering me lately. It's that this has become something that didn't involve me. Indeed her detailed recap last Friday was the first of "details" that I'd heard in a relatively long time. Even this time tonight - there was little teasing or building me up as she has in the past - instead she more or less "announced" it and has now gone off for the night.
I am hoping that building on last Friday, that tomorrow evening, there will be an outpouring of details and more that will continue on our newest trend since opening up to each other. If it does not, then I will surely begin to speak up about this being absent. And it's not just sharing it with me through her words - but I suppose that with our denial-pact in place for another 3 plus weeks the options are limited - but I'm hoping she'll return with some new things we can do together to bring back maybe some of the newness and edginess I think I'd felt earlier.
No matter - even without it, I do still thoroughly enjoy what we are doing just as I know how our time together will be when it does happen next - so while I may be professing displeasure above, it is still far outweighed by the arousal and intense thoughts and feelings I now have for her.
Sue did text me earlier and amongst concerned thoughts for me, she also shared that there were leftovers in the fridge for me and a few beers too. I'm sure I'll find myself back here later tonight but I may head out and visit some friends or do something else rather than stay here and undoubtedly give in and jerk off when I do want to wait till tomorrow night to share with her.
Far2 - yep, looking at the clock and seeing it's now almost 9pm. I'm sure if they're not back at his place yet that they're on their way.
In a way, I'm excited for Sue. She did seem really up for this when I think about how she sounded. But even with our new "openness" she still seemed reluctant to tell me what she was looking forward to. With her father somewhat stabilized, at least for the time, and with our daughter away - I don't blame her for wanting to get away for the night. And yes, I'm sure that later tonight I'll succumb to the thoughts and visions in my head. And then after that, I suspect I'll lie awake thinking about her and getting horny all over again.
Anyway - I"m off to find something else to tinker with, other than my cock for now. lol.....
In a way, I'm excited for Sue. She did seem really up for this when I think about how she sounded. But even with our new "openness" she still seemed reluctant to tell me what she was looking forward to. With her father somewhat stabilized, at least for the time, and with our daughter away - I don't blame her for wanting to get away for the night. And yes, I'm sure that later tonight I'll succumb to the thoughts and visions in my head. And then after that, I suspect I'll lie awake thinking about her and getting horny all over again.
Anyway - I"m off to find something else to tinker with, other than my cock for now. lol.....
I finally heard from her. I was feeling kind of antsy the later it got - but I knew better than to text her. I was pleased when she texted me about 30 or so minutes ago and said "Hi honey, hope you're okay and tonight wasn't too bad for you. Can't wait to see you tomorrow. Love you." I know it wasn't much but it also meant she took the time out to send it despite whatever else she was doing so I like knowing she thought about me.
As I'm typing this I'm thinking that I have no idea what she told him about what I think she's doing tonight. Perhaps she's told him more of the truth?
Far2 - yeah - I've said that before. For as much of a jerk as he turned into, he did bring a crazy dimension to things at the time and I think was one of my first times where despite the angst, I began to enjoy denial - I admit it was incredible to see her almost submit to him and what he wanted. And I think it turned her on to be pushed like that too. And, as others here have said too - maybe someone older than her would also give us a different experience. For as much as I enjoy the denial aspect - I have thought about what a true 3-some poly-type situation might be like. I'm not sure how Sue would feel about that but it's an interesting thought.
I'll end here. The thoughts of her, now being midnight, probably settled in for the night. Yes - I'm sure if things went well - probably naked and spooned up next to him. I'm sure she's worn him out tonight and is probably pleasantly satisfied from him. Perhaps she's comfortable enough with him as she was in the past, to stay with him while she's still wet and filled from him. Now that thought has me at full mast so it is now that time once again for me to enjoy as best as I can while keeping the positive "up" thoughts in the forefront.
It's strange to say it but I'm happy that she's spending the night with him. I am sure that being doted upon by a younger hunky guy is something that will keep her going for the future. Perhaps, as Peak said, tomorrow morning may not be as wonderful as she's planned in her head when maybe the emotions or lack of become apparent.
I will also say that I am both pleased and a bit puzzled at my somewhat relaxed attitude tonight. Sometimes I wonder if this isn't like a drug and you don't develop an immunity or tolerance for it so that it becomes more of a norm? Should I be more upset, annoyed, concerned that she's spending the night with him? I'm not but a part of me thinks I should be. Have I become numb to it? I don't know - but while it doesn't get me upset - it does get me horny to think about. I have the video up that I previously posted that looks like a very young Sue and it's ready to click play.
If I can't sleep - I'm sure I'll be back.
As I'm typing this I'm thinking that I have no idea what she told him about what I think she's doing tonight. Perhaps she's told him more of the truth?
Far2 - yeah - I've said that before. For as much of a jerk as he turned into, he did bring a crazy dimension to things at the time and I think was one of my first times where despite the angst, I began to enjoy denial - I admit it was incredible to see her almost submit to him and what he wanted. And I think it turned her on to be pushed like that too. And, as others here have said too - maybe someone older than her would also give us a different experience. For as much as I enjoy the denial aspect - I have thought about what a true 3-some poly-type situation might be like. I'm not sure how Sue would feel about that but it's an interesting thought.
I'll end here. The thoughts of her, now being midnight, probably settled in for the night. Yes - I'm sure if things went well - probably naked and spooned up next to him. I'm sure she's worn him out tonight and is probably pleasantly satisfied from him. Perhaps she's comfortable enough with him as she was in the past, to stay with him while she's still wet and filled from him. Now that thought has me at full mast so it is now that time once again for me to enjoy as best as I can while keeping the positive "up" thoughts in the forefront.
It's strange to say it but I'm happy that she's spending the night with him. I am sure that being doted upon by a younger hunky guy is something that will keep her going for the future. Perhaps, as Peak said, tomorrow morning may not be as wonderful as she's planned in her head when maybe the emotions or lack of become apparent.
I will also say that I am both pleased and a bit puzzled at my somewhat relaxed attitude tonight. Sometimes I wonder if this isn't like a drug and you don't develop an immunity or tolerance for it so that it becomes more of a norm? Should I be more upset, annoyed, concerned that she's spending the night with him? I'm not but a part of me thinks I should be. Have I become numb to it? I don't know - but while it doesn't get me upset - it does get me horny to think about. I have the video up that I previously posted that looks like a very young Sue and it's ready to click play.
If I can't sleep - I'm sure I'll be back.
