So, I've started a new thread since obviously it's no longer a trial-period for us playing with denial.
Sue and I had some comparatively serious discussions last night (before and after sex) about pretty much everything. I think at one point, I touched on all the important things that I'd been wondering about and others.
The obvious one is that we talked about the weekend - sex between us and the next 3 weeks. She came to me and suggested we go upstairs and talk about things so that the weekend ended the way we both wanted. She teased me about my wanting to be sure I had enough sex with her this weekend and this led us into the larger discussion.
I know that some people here doubt that she wanted to have sex with me this weekend or have expressed other doubts about this stuff. Unless she's acting (in which case she should win an Oscar) I have to believe her when she tells me that she feels that the sex we've been having on "our weekends" has been excellent. She even used the words "surprisingly good" and said that she hasn't been able to cum that hard or that much with me unless we've gone away or been alone for a few days. I told her that I felt the same way - that it seemed weird that the less we have it, the more intense it is. She smiled and said that she too hadn't felt this type of desire or even need to feel sexual with me like this in a long time - and she added that she hasn't been able to orgasm as deeply with me in the past as she has this past weekend and back on Memorial Day weekend.
With that as a starting point, I felt very comfortable opening up with her. I told her how hesitant I was about starting all of this but that over the past month I'd become more sure that this really did turn me on. I told her that I find myself incredibly turned on when I thought that (at that point) we'd only had sex 4 or 5 times in the past month and I think my voice cracked a little when I said that I knew she'd been with him like 10 or 11 times. She held my hand tightly and said that it wasn't the amount that was important, but more what it meant for us and that she loved me, maybe now more than ever (her words). I didn't say it then but it also was in my mind that he probably came in her twice most if not all of those times. But we weren't talking about that just yet.
I told her that I was a little concerned about just how much she was seeing him and what she was thinking about in terms of him and what the rest of the summer might be like. She said that she felt like a teenager again when she was with him and giggled that he's as horny as one too. I mumbled something back about that being apparent! She proceeded to tell me that she hasn't felt like this in years. I asked her about seeing so much of him and she said that's why she said what she did last week about their time being more flexible. I again asked her if this was her way of saying she wanted to see more of him - and she giggled and said that it was actually the opposite and she said something like "I need a break too sometimes" and patted her pussy.
That led us into a bit of a discussion where - again - just feeling comfortable talking - she asked me if it bothered me that he came so much in her and it led to her telling me about how she feels afterwards and how sexual it makes her feel to be able to still feel his semen in her the next day or after that. I started to tell her that it turned me on when she continued and said something like "we used to fuck a lot more way back when" and she admitted that constantly feeling his stuff still in her makes her horny and makes her want him all over again. I asked her if she liked or didn't like me going down on her after they'd been together and she said that she loves it when she's in the mood for it but also admitted that sometimes she just wanted to enjoy that feeling just herself afterwards. Eventually this came back to her again asking me if it bothered me that he cums so much inside her. and - with that same feeling of being able to talk to her without worry - I told her that it did turn me on a LOT to know that she was almost always wet from him. She giggled and admitted that she found it to be really arousing. She didn't mention and I didn't ask but the thought of her body absorbing all of his stuff was on my mind.
But she wanted to know about what I was thinking about for us for the next 3 weeks and wanted to hear from me whether I still wanted her to do it. I told her what I've said here many times - that the thought of not having sex with her while knowing she is having sex with her lover is just incredibly overpowering for me. I told her openly that it turns me on so much and that while I know it sounds crazy, that I still wanted to do it. I asked her how she's going to feel only having sex with Robert for all this time. She came close to me and held my hand and said that she hasn't felt this turned on and aroused in so long that she just feels that she wants to do it and "see what happens" and she reminded me that's what we'd agreed to - that we would do this as long as it was still working for both of us. She reached down and felt my hard cock and said "I guess it's working for you!". I told her that it was the hardest thing I'd ever done - to know that "after tonight I won't get to have you again for another 3 weeks". She giggled and said that she felt the same way - that each time we have a spectacular weekend together that she feels some of the same feelings afterwards too - that's when she said that she was hoping that letting me have fun with her some of the time would make it easier for me and make us feel more connected. But she also added that "there are times" when she just wants to "enjoy feeling him for longer".
I'm sure that there's a ton I missed in here - I've been swamped with work-related stuff today that this has taken me all day - a minute here and a minute there - to update.
In short - all is good. As strange as that may sound. She was very relieved to hear that all of this still really turns me on and that I don't mind masturbating more now since we don't have sex all that much. We talked briefly about our "Wednesday ritual" and she says that when she thinks about it - that I cum more now from masturbating than having sex with her - that she finds herself very turned on by thinking about it. How it seems to be almost better for us that this is how it is for now. I had to admit that I did miss fucking her - feeling her pussy - and she said she did miss that with me too - but that she knows that overall, she is far more turned on by all of what we're doing together (and apart) than she has probably ever been.
I'll end this now by sharing that in the midst of all of this discussing, that we found ourselves naked in bed and had almost without realizing it, started to fuck. She thought and was right that after Saturday night, that I might need/want some teasing and taunting - and she let it out when we got down to business. She told me how I'd better enjoy her now because I will be waiting for a longer time. She did tease me that "maybe we'll work something out for Fathers day - maybe you can pull out of me or something?" and she giggled. Damn that really hit me.... I know she said other things but I can't really pin them down right now. What I did want to share was what happened afterwards and the conversation that followed.
Sue and I had some comparatively serious discussions last night (before and after sex) about pretty much everything. I think at one point, I touched on all the important things that I'd been wondering about and others.
The obvious one is that we talked about the weekend - sex between us and the next 3 weeks. She came to me and suggested we go upstairs and talk about things so that the weekend ended the way we both wanted. She teased me about my wanting to be sure I had enough sex with her this weekend and this led us into the larger discussion.
I know that some people here doubt that she wanted to have sex with me this weekend or have expressed other doubts about this stuff. Unless she's acting (in which case she should win an Oscar) I have to believe her when she tells me that she feels that the sex we've been having on "our weekends" has been excellent. She even used the words "surprisingly good" and said that she hasn't been able to cum that hard or that much with me unless we've gone away or been alone for a few days. I told her that I felt the same way - that it seemed weird that the less we have it, the more intense it is. She smiled and said that she too hadn't felt this type of desire or even need to feel sexual with me like this in a long time - and she added that she hasn't been able to orgasm as deeply with me in the past as she has this past weekend and back on Memorial Day weekend.
With that as a starting point, I felt very comfortable opening up with her. I told her how hesitant I was about starting all of this but that over the past month I'd become more sure that this really did turn me on. I told her that I find myself incredibly turned on when I thought that (at that point) we'd only had sex 4 or 5 times in the past month and I think my voice cracked a little when I said that I knew she'd been with him like 10 or 11 times. She held my hand tightly and said that it wasn't the amount that was important, but more what it meant for us and that she loved me, maybe now more than ever (her words). I didn't say it then but it also was in my mind that he probably came in her twice most if not all of those times. But we weren't talking about that just yet.
I told her that I was a little concerned about just how much she was seeing him and what she was thinking about in terms of him and what the rest of the summer might be like. She said that she felt like a teenager again when she was with him and giggled that he's as horny as one too. I mumbled something back about that being apparent! She proceeded to tell me that she hasn't felt like this in years. I asked her about seeing so much of him and she said that's why she said what she did last week about their time being more flexible. I again asked her if this was her way of saying she wanted to see more of him - and she giggled and said that it was actually the opposite and she said something like "I need a break too sometimes" and patted her pussy.
That led us into a bit of a discussion where - again - just feeling comfortable talking - she asked me if it bothered me that he came so much in her and it led to her telling me about how she feels afterwards and how sexual it makes her feel to be able to still feel his semen in her the next day or after that. I started to tell her that it turned me on when she continued and said something like "we used to fuck a lot more way back when" and she admitted that constantly feeling his stuff still in her makes her horny and makes her want him all over again. I asked her if she liked or didn't like me going down on her after they'd been together and she said that she loves it when she's in the mood for it but also admitted that sometimes she just wanted to enjoy that feeling just herself afterwards. Eventually this came back to her again asking me if it bothered me that he cums so much inside her. and - with that same feeling of being able to talk to her without worry - I told her that it did turn me on a LOT to know that she was almost always wet from him. She giggled and admitted that she found it to be really arousing. She didn't mention and I didn't ask but the thought of her body absorbing all of his stuff was on my mind.
But she wanted to know about what I was thinking about for us for the next 3 weeks and wanted to hear from me whether I still wanted her to do it. I told her what I've said here many times - that the thought of not having sex with her while knowing she is having sex with her lover is just incredibly overpowering for me. I told her openly that it turns me on so much and that while I know it sounds crazy, that I still wanted to do it. I asked her how she's going to feel only having sex with Robert for all this time. She came close to me and held my hand and said that she hasn't felt this turned on and aroused in so long that she just feels that she wants to do it and "see what happens" and she reminded me that's what we'd agreed to - that we would do this as long as it was still working for both of us. She reached down and felt my hard cock and said "I guess it's working for you!". I told her that it was the hardest thing I'd ever done - to know that "after tonight I won't get to have you again for another 3 weeks". She giggled and said that she felt the same way - that each time we have a spectacular weekend together that she feels some of the same feelings afterwards too - that's when she said that she was hoping that letting me have fun with her some of the time would make it easier for me and make us feel more connected. But she also added that "there are times" when she just wants to "enjoy feeling him for longer".
I'm sure that there's a ton I missed in here - I've been swamped with work-related stuff today that this has taken me all day - a minute here and a minute there - to update.
In short - all is good. As strange as that may sound. She was very relieved to hear that all of this still really turns me on and that I don't mind masturbating more now since we don't have sex all that much. We talked briefly about our "Wednesday ritual" and she says that when she thinks about it - that I cum more now from masturbating than having sex with her - that she finds herself very turned on by thinking about it. How it seems to be almost better for us that this is how it is for now. I had to admit that I did miss fucking her - feeling her pussy - and she said she did miss that with me too - but that she knows that overall, she is far more turned on by all of what we're doing together (and apart) than she has probably ever been.
I'll end this now by sharing that in the midst of all of this discussing, that we found ourselves naked in bed and had almost without realizing it, started to fuck. She thought and was right that after Saturday night, that I might need/want some teasing and taunting - and she let it out when we got down to business. She told me how I'd better enjoy her now because I will be waiting for a longer time. She did tease me that "maybe we'll work something out for Fathers day - maybe you can pull out of me or something?" and she giggled. Damn that really hit me.... I know she said other things but I can't really pin them down right now. What I did want to share was what happened afterwards and the conversation that followed.
