My wife...I mean, boss-wife was very, very pissed at me this weekend. Just seemed to come out of nowhere. Basically, in sum, she's tired of doing all the "thinking" work and having all the responsibilities around the house.
Now, it's not entirely true that she does all the thinking work, but on the other hand she doesn't let me do much of the thinking work anyway.
Last night she vented more and it ended up not sounding good. Of course, I dutifully rubbed her feet while she did so. She didn't seem angry anymore, but frustrated and disappointed when she said she needs to feel "safe," she needs to feel "taken care of," and she needs to have someone reliable. I said, "I'm not totally unreliable." She said being unreliable at any point makes a person unreliable. But she added, "It's not your fault." I have ADD, so I can't argue with that. And then she said, "I'm the one who's stuck with it." It was a "it's not me, it's you" speech.
I took that as a positive. She's not planning a divorce, not planning to throw me out. I desperately don't want a divorce.
On the other hand, wanting to feel safe, taken care or, having someone reliable sounds an awful lot like something you'd write in a personal ad.
Which led me to remember when I told her, "You can have anyone you want as long as you don't leave me." And "You should have two husbands." And I told her these things more than once.
Then it hit me like a icy cold wave of water. If she trades me in on a better model, she might let me stay in the house. But it would be his bed, and I'd never have sex again for the rest of my life.
I feel like we're slowly, inexorably plodding toward a whole new lifestyle.
Now, it's not entirely true that she does all the thinking work, but on the other hand she doesn't let me do much of the thinking work anyway.
Last night she vented more and it ended up not sounding good. Of course, I dutifully rubbed her feet while she did so. She didn't seem angry anymore, but frustrated and disappointed when she said she needs to feel "safe," she needs to feel "taken care of," and she needs to have someone reliable. I said, "I'm not totally unreliable." She said being unreliable at any point makes a person unreliable. But she added, "It's not your fault." I have ADD, so I can't argue with that. And then she said, "I'm the one who's stuck with it." It was a "it's not me, it's you" speech.
I took that as a positive. She's not planning a divorce, not planning to throw me out. I desperately don't want a divorce.
On the other hand, wanting to feel safe, taken care or, having someone reliable sounds an awful lot like something you'd write in a personal ad.
Which led me to remember when I told her, "You can have anyone you want as long as you don't leave me." And "You should have two husbands." And I told her these things more than once.
Then it hit me like a icy cold wave of water. If she trades me in on a better model, she might let me stay in the house. But it would be his bed, and I'd never have sex again for the rest of my life.
I feel like we're slowly, inexorably plodding toward a whole new lifestyle.