Well I will clear a FEW things up...
Ive been posting on NUMEROUS forums- however not a single forums seems to fit my exact scenario- mainly because it deals with heartbreak and this sexual fantasy intertwined in one. Then add insecurities into the mix and you have a strange creature, known as myself.
From the outside- i am a normal healthy human. I am fit, in shape, work hard in school, have a bright future in front of me. Reality is, I am a happy person when 1) I am not tied down to any girl, or 2) I am in love with someone. I hate being in the middle...
Why did I post here on cuckold? Well I believe the psychology behind it is very interesting. If you read my original post- i clearly state what my issue is... I don't feel like my relationship is very "typical."
If my relationship with my girl was steady and passionate as ever, then I feel like i'd do the cuckold thing as you guys describe. I may be uneasy about it at first, but I am sure I'd be okay with it over time...
You guys keep mentioning age- and i respect your opinions as you guys have more experience than I do (I assume). I am 25- and she is 19. My question is- based on what you guys say about being young, is it impossible to make it work with younger girls? aka between 18-25? By the way you guys talk about it, it seems that its impossible to make a relationship work past the "honey moon" phase of a relationship with this age group. I'd hope "some girls" out there could prove this theory wrong.
A side note- My girl and I got together this weekend (as I stated) and things were amazing- truley amazing. We made out, had sex, did dates, had some serious talks, and talked about how we felt. Again, in person, we are an amazing couple- its when we dont see eachother things get weird. I just dont know whether to believe her when she says "I am sorry, I know I hurt you. I was just so hurt that I did those things to you (made out with another guy). I want to make things work between us cus I miss how we used to be. I love you so much." She stated that- crying and all. I dont wanna be the fool to believe her words only to get burned by her again- or should I just trust her words?
If I do trust her words- how do i manage to keep this relationship good? Do I act more distant? Give her space? Make her realize that I am not going to be at her every beck and call? Or do I go back to being so in love with her and putting her on a pedastal?
I guess thats a lot of questions from me. Sorry for the long post- i just have so much on my mind- I just dont wanna be hurt again- and i WANT to trust her words about being sorry- i just dont know if I am able to.