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[Alexis]

That was pretty much it for my husband. He became obsessed with black cock, cock size, white girls who SOMEHOW were able to take these huge cocks, and of course...........me with black guys.

He started looking at the internet at this and other interracial sights, and video sights where he watched interracial videos.

Then he had to see it. Not just from behind. See ALL of it. So he went with them to the gym again, and this time he saw it, but in his determination to see it, he wasn't as careful, and the boyfriend caught him looking. The reaction of the boyfriend surprised him. He just kind of stood tall and stuck it out, all 10 or 11 inches of it and smiled at my husband. Then he looked down at my husband's looked back up at him and kind of smiled again. Then he walked out of the shower.

 

[Alexis]

From then on, occasionally at work my husband would see the girl smile at him, but in a different way. He KNEW her boyfriend had said something, but what? Did he think he was gay, looking at his dick and all? Did he tel her how small he was and was she just trying to keep from laughing? Whatever, he felt very humiliated each time he saw her.

Then, his interests kicked up a notch. Somewhere along the line, the interest he had in the cuckolding fantasy faded, and he became more and more interested in the humiliation and the black cocks themselves.

*****He cried during our long weekend as he told me that at that point he started buying lingerie and wearing it as he masturbated to thoughts of not me, but HIM having sex with a hugely hung black guy. He wanted to be the submissive sissy slave "girl" to a black stud. He said that the feelings were so strong that he HAD to do this, and that it wasn't fair to me any longer to keep living his lie. *****

So, everything that I thought, and everything that everyone was kind enough to give me thoughts and encouragement about was true, but it was a little outdated. It seems at the end that my role in this "cuckold thing" with him would have been merely as "bait".

 

[Alexis]

So now I've told everything. Did he tell me everything? Maybe I'll never know.

Two things I wonder about.....

Did I find out that he went here by carelessness with the computer on his part, or did he want me to find it?

Also, has he ever acted on any of his fantasies with anyone else, liked it, and then decided to tell me all this?

Anyway, so that's why we split up. Would I ever want him back? Probably not. Would he ever want me back? Probably not. Lots of water under that bridge now.

So, now that everyone knows what happened, I would appreciate comments and advice. I really am not handling this too well emotionally. I was pretty steeled against the cuckold thing ( boy, doesn't that seem pretty tame at this point compared to where I am now!), but this.......this is really hard. So, I would appreciate anything anyone has to say during this hard time for me.

Just one request.....

PLEASE.....PLEASE.....PLEASE!!!

People like this Mark/Lisa guy, or Lisa/Mark girl or whatever.....let's not debate about if what I'm saying is true. IT IS! Case closed. I can't deal with that shit anymore. I've bared my soul here and for the life of me don't even know why.....probably because I have absolutely no where else to go. So if you want to console me, scold me, advise me, please do. Or just leave a general coment for me. But if your thing is this lame "fact or fiction bullshit", please save it for a different thread. Thank you.

 

[PornoRican]

Sorry to hear about your unfortunate situation. Any consolation to the matter would be that it came out now rather than the lie continue for more years. You can get on with your life now.

What everyone will be curious about is, where do you go from here? Would you try to have an experience with a black man just out of curiosity since you've been introduced under an abnormal circumstance?

 

[Alexis]

I doubt that - i think that's a very mistaken impressions.

The way you describe it he DID have a legitimate interest in you with other men and you with black men which preceded his awareness of the feelings he professes now. if that's true then his interest in you "enjoying the best" was legitimate and not a ploy to manuver himself into position.

also, if he had been in fact manipulating your behavior in some way in order to position himself, the last thing he would have done was wreck that by telling you about it.

More likely, the thing snowballed on him in a way that he himself never anticipated or would have wanted if you'd shown him the future before he got this deep. It might be possible also that all this has tapped into an inner TS situation that he had suppressed but more likely it's a manifestation of "progressive addiction" combining itself with his inferiority issues.

In it's most basic form, there's nothing wrong with his desires, although obviously they have had a negative impact on your lives which is undesirable.


I have another question that perhaps goes beyond what you are prepared to think about at this point:

Having arrived at this unhappy place, and being relatively sure there isn't a reconciliation in the future....would you say that you are more or less likely to consider investigating relationships with black men as a single woman than you would have been under other circumstances?

Yes Will, you are right, and that is why I told all the story. What I meant by being used as "bait" has only to do with what he is into NOW, not what he was into origionally. It was a progression for him. Whether the TS thing and the submissive nature was something he "grew into" or always had and had repressed until now, once again, who knows. But at any rate, the turn on of seeing me with another guy, was something that faded in him long ago. He is, at present, totally into guys, black guys, and being their slut.

As for your question...I am not really thinking about things like that at this point, no. Maybe another time for that one.

 

[Alexis]

Sorry to hear about your unfortunate situation. Any consolation to the matter would be that it came out now rather than the lie continue for more years. You can get on with your life now.

What everyone will be curious about is, where do you go from here? Would you try to have an experience with a black man just out of curiosity since you've been introduced under an abnormal circumstance?

Thank you. Where do I go from here? Wish I knew.

 

[susan]

Thank you. Where do I go from here? Wish I knew.

How bout a career writing fictional novels? =p

 

[Alexis]

How bout a career writing fictional novels? =p

Here they come again, now matter how politely I asked them not to.

You know bitch I'm really tired of you. Why bother coming here at all if you don't believe any of it?

Think you're getting a cheap laugh at someone else's expense or something?

Why don't you just go fuck yourself already. You're probably the only one that would.

 

[susan]

Here they come again, now matter how politely I asked them not to.

You know bitch I'm really tired of you. Why bother coming here at all if you don't believe any of it?

Think you're getting a cheap laugh at someone else's expense or something?

Why don't you just go fuck yourself already. You're probably the only one that would.

Ouch...that really hurt, Wow...now I'll have to write a months worth of posts hoping the good folks here will help me over my trauma.
Really... you're either the biggest drama queen in the world or a balding middle aged guy with a potbelly and a real talent for writing. Either way.. I think Ned has a very good idea. BTW since you said for me to fu** myself, I can only add that IF you're for real, you should of been fu**ing him and indulging his fantasy's, maybe you would still have a husband...IF you're for real :bitch:

 

[MichaelWills]

No where else to go...

I've had my say of real versus fiction.

However, if you think this is the only place to which you can go for advice, you are woefully misinformed. (And the fact that you really would come here for advice and give anyone here serious credibility is a bit scary as well).

If what you have said is true get some genuine professional counseling--from a bona fide marriage counselor, and not just one you pick out of a phone book but someone that has actually helped someone you know. If not for your husband and yourself, just some professional advice for yourself.

A real circumstance such as you describe will do some serious things to your head and thought processes, and the place to go for advice is not reasoning it totally on your own--and certainly not a forum such as this.

What you described has little if anything to do with white women enjoying sex with black men--but instead with a white man with some serious issues.

You cannot control someone else or what they do, you can only control your reaction to what they do.

 

[metalore]

Alexis, the one thing that strikes me as weird about your posts is the parts about the two times your husband saw the black guy in the shower. You really went into detail about the descriptions, and it really seems like you were writing an erotic story intended to get people off. I mean, if this was your husband you were talking about, I don't see how you would feel comfortable going into such theatrical detail about those moments. Is that how he described it? I don't see how a woman who is an emotional wreck would go into such detail about the black man's size. It seems like it should be the opposite, that that would be the part you would be least specific about. I don't know, maybe you were just repeating your husband's words verbatim, but it still seems like you used your own words like in a story.

Two other questions: How did your husband hide his lingerie (and his masturbation sessions) from you? When your husband revealed that he felt he was depriving you of greater sexual satisfaction (i.e. a bigger penis), did you have a desire or curiosity to discover what you were missing?

 

[MsGary]

Will,
Thank you so much for trying to understand these issues and then speaking on them. You have cred on this site and it is great that someone like you is speaking on the fact that there is not just gay and bi. and if gay , you are a ceratin way and if bi you are a certain way. There are probably about 20 or even fifty variations on this. I know you have had issues with me personally in the past. In truth that seemd to increase my popularity on the site. So thanks. My wife is civorcing me now but guess what the last straw was. I totaled her minivan at 5 or 6 miles an hour. go Figure.
Love ya, MISS gary

 

[DE_BBC]

Will,

She can't come back and undermine me- if she is real she will have her husband post and his "join" date is going to have to be 2008 or even sooner. Alexis is painted into a bit of a corner. She can't create a new ID because the join date will ****** her. She could come back and say hubby refuses to post- but that would seem pretty lame.

I'm not sure why you "sigh" when I said the black guy would be swinging his dick all over the place. Guys who are well endowed tend to display their cocks within the locker room. I've been on enough sports teams to know. They tend to stand there naked a lot longer than those who are hung average.

Your points about people not jumping into the deep end right from the start are vaild ones. But don't you think Alexis' husband is doing just that? He's never had sex with a man (at least he's not admitted to it), and yet suddenly he wants to be a sissy cuck for some black stud. It seems pretty quick. It would be one thing if he and Alexis were in the lifestyle and this evolved over time- but that's not the case.

Anyway, I'm sure 90% of this forum would agree with me that Alexis is fake. Of course 90% of the people on this forum are also fake LOL

I think that 90% might be a bit high...especially when you consider that not all of the people posting here are actually looking to hook up.

..but I will say this after a number of years of being here I've only met 2 couples that I met here in real-life, and they both turned out to be long term play partners.

 

[mark2619]

Bring It ON

 

[5inchwhite]

ummm bring what on mark?

 

[Alexis]

Well, hello again everyone. Glad to see all my friends here missed me so much while i was away. LOL

 

[Alexis]

By the way....I think everyone would love to hear from him. Since he's been on this forum for a long time his nickname would have a join date that would be earlier than your join date. This would go along way to convincing most of us that you are legit.
So have soon to be ex-hubby post a little something.

Very good idea. Oh, by the way, do you know what a separation is? DUH! You want me to HAVE him post something. lol

BTW thank you for coming up with this sure-fire way to prove I'm legit AFTER I no longer see hubby except to SCREAM at each other and not during a time when I could have done something like that.

But then again you wouldn't have wanted to undermine all the small minded people who love to call me a liar, would you have.

Don't worry though, I'm sure susan or mark or susan/mark or any of a host of others would have blown a hole in that too.

So just keep on hating!

 

[Alexis]

Alexis, the one thing that strikes me as weird about your posts is the parts about the two times your husband saw the black guy in the shower. You really went into detail about the descriptions, and it really seems like you were writing an erotic story intended to get people off. I mean, if this was your husband you were talking about, I don't see how you would feel comfortable going into such theatrical detail about those moments. Is that how he described it? I don't see how a woman who is an emotional wreck would go into such detail about the black man's size. It seems like it should be the opposite, that that would be the part you would be least specific about. I don't know, maybe you were just repeating your husband's words verbatim, but it still seems like you used your own words like in a story.

Two other questions: How did your husband hide his lingerie (and his masturbation sessions) from you? When your husband revealed that he felt he was depriving you of greater sexual satisfaction (i.e. a bigger penis), did you have a desire or curiosity to discover what you were missing?

Yes I described it the way he told it to me. Am I too descriptive, not descriptive enough, the beat goes on and on and on ... geez. WOW, I GUESS SHE MUST BE LYING!!!

Don't know don't care how he hid what he had or what he did from me.

Only thing I would be curious to discover is how many of you that come to this thread for the sole purpose of belittling me are one and the same person. Strength in numbers I guess.

 

[Alexis]

Well since I suggested we "hear" from her hubby- since he's a member of this forum- Alexis has gone silent.
She is a fake.
So this black guy had 10"-11" of cock hanging down when he was in the shower? That has to be the BIGGEST cock in the world. Flaccid the thing is hanging at 11"- WOW! It must grow to at least 16".
Yeah right.
This is total bullshit. How do I know? If some guy had 11" of cock (soft) hanging between his legs, hubby's first look wouldn't have been from behind. That black guy would've been swinging that thing all over the shower and locker room for everyone to see!!

Will-

No the husband (fantasy husband) isn't Gay, he is most likely bi-sexual but strongly leaning towards Gay.
Do you have an interest in sucking the black cocks of the men who fuck Eve?
Do you clean up after them?

Wow!!! I hadn't responded to your stroke of genius idea in TWO WHOLE DAYS!!! That obviously proves I'm a fake. NO wait, could that just prove that I have a life to try to get back on track and maybe I was TOO FUCKING BUSY to post on this site. No, couldn't be that, I must be a fake.

You know if you and Susan aren't the same person, you are just as fucking stupid.

 

[Alexis]

Bring It ON

Oh, did I say stupid? Sorry mark, i forgot to mention you.

 

[Alexis]

Other than all that, have a real nice weekend.

 

[mark2619]

Don't be sorry Alex its all good BTW Alex if you want the fine people of the this room to even remotely believe your a woman you may want to talk like one. You curse like a drunken sailor for one. I feel sorry for you dude. God Bless