My cock was rock hard by now and it was clear that what she'd said hadn't turned me off at all, quite the opposite. Sue was very aware of this and looked at me and said "tell me what you're thinking" as she put my own hand onto my now hard cock. "Does that turn you on to think about? .... Isn't that what you said turned you on, that its sort of the same that turns me on?" and she said "how did you say it, different sides of the same coin?", and again she said "you can tell me baby, I want you to tell me, it'll be okay".
And so I guess it was my turn - as I lay there I could remember things from long ago a bit more clearly - how horny she always was after skiing and how we'd fuck for hours just like we were now - and how even afterwards, we were both still somewhat horny. She was still lying naked next to me and I knew that from how she was lying, that little if any of my cum had seeped out of her, not as she lay with her legs tight together on her side next to me. I became very aware of how hard her nipples were against my arm and chest. She sort of whispered in my ear "come on baby, does it turn you on to think about it?". And so, it seemed almost like a Wednesday night as I lay next to her and started to masturbate. She cooed at how hard my cock had gotten again and how turned on I must be. Finally I started to talk and I told her that it turned me on to hear her telling me about it and I told her that hearing her say it like she did knowing she was serious at points. "Tell me" she said a few times as I talked and so I did. I told her that it scared me but at the same time everything she'd said seemed to be totally what was in my head. I told her that it turned me on to think about it and that after hearing what she'd said, it seemed to turn me on even more knowing that she felt even more from what we were doing. I told her how in my head it had already turned me on that I was using condoms with her but hearing her say that it also made her feel comparatively more from her lover, I admit I was a little embarassed to say that turned me on even more. She held me close and leaned up against me and whispered in my ear how erotic and sexy it was to hear me say that, that it turned me on that she would feel more from her lover than me. I told her that in some ways that made it feel even more intense to me and that it would surely be something that was in my head when the time came and she wanted it. She rubbed her breasts against my arm as she whispered how horny it makes her to look at my cock and think about how I must feel when I think about it "it makes you so hard, that turns me on knowing it really turns you on". She kissed my cheek and then turned my face to hers and she said "it's okay that this turns you on baby".
I moaned back at her that thinking about her only feeling her lover's cock bare in her was something that really turned me on. She cooed and asked me to "tell me more about what you think about when you take care of yourself...". Even though we'd just had sex not more than an hour earlier I was rock hard again and I started to tell her more about the thoughts in my head - some of what I'd posted here earlier but I also seemed to be more at ease talking to her after how open she'd been with me - I guess in my head it seemed like she'd been pretty open so it seemed easier to do the same. I told her that I loved thinking about her wanting sex with her lover. I told her that after she'd told me that she was able to orgasm with Robert, at times, even more intensely than with me, that it really made me horny to think about that and that it made me want to know she was feeling that. I told her that what she'd told me only made me hornier to think about it. She asked me to tell her about what I thought about - I think knowing it was going to get me to cum even sooner. As she held my hand and said sexy things I started to tell her how horny it made me to think about her coming to me and telling me she was getting more serious with her lover. I told her that I liked to think about the escalation of things and how she would make each decision more and more erotic.
Her encouraging moans kept me talking. I told her how horny I was going to be now, more than ever from what she'd told me earlier, about when she may come to me and tell me that she wants to go bare with her lover. I told her that it turned me on so much to think about her telling me the first time when she'd be out with her lover and she'd let him go bare and how she'd come home for the first time with his cum in her. She moaned in response to me and said that she could feel her pussy throb at that moment as I said it and she said how much she's "looking forward to feel another man cum in her" and, picking up on her thoughts from earlier, I told her that it turned me on that she'd "let another guy cum in your vagina and that it'd no longer be just for me again". That made her moan, I think she liked hearing me say the word vagina to her. I told her that I loved the thought of her feeling another guy in her and that what she'd said earlier turned me on that she liked the thought of sharing such an intimate part of herself.
"And?" she encouraged me to continue as she watched me stroking my cock and smearing pre-cum all around as I did so. I told her that it made me even hornier to think about when she may want more. "What do you mean more?" she knowingly asked me. I moaned that it made me crazy horny to think about her maybe wanting to just have her lover cumming in her like she'd asked last summer "... you know, when you asked me to use condoms". "That makes you horny baby?" she asked. I was really getting into it as I'd lost almost all of my inhibition and I told her how in my head she'd have been telling me, like she did when it happened with Robert, that she was liking feeling him cumming more and more in her. I told her that to hear her tell me that she'd like to only have her lover cum in her was something that would signify to me that she is feeling more for him and that she'd probably want to have it go further. I told her that just knowing that would be something that turned me on even more and I told her that even now I look at her sometimes when we're together / having sex and that I'll think about what it'll be like when it's only her lovers cum that will be in her and that it turns me on. She was moaning as I was saying this and she said "I didn't know you thought about it like this....". I told her that I thought that this time, if/when it happens that she is ready to ask me that, that maybe we'd make a bit of a big deal about it and maybe make it into a horny evening for us to share. She looked at me as I as deep into my thoughts and she said "I didn't know this turned you on like this". I moaned my agreement to her and said that I'd often cum to the thought of feeling her bare for the last time for a while and us making the moment something more memorable and meaningful including her telling me that she wants to feel me bare "one last time". I told her that I'd often thought about the anguish and torment of wanting that last moment to last longer knowing what it'll mean when I do cum. She asked me if I thought about this last summer and I told her that it had happened a bit too fast and that I hadn't been able to accept my desires just yet to which she let out the sexiest moan and again I could feel her breasts against my arm and her nipples again so hard.
I wasn't sure when she'd started but as we talked about my thoughts about that moment I realized she too was masturbating and when I glanced down I could see she was spreading my cum from earlier all around her now spread pussy and she was plunging her fingers in and out making squishing noises. "It really turned you on using condoms, didn't it?" she said matter of factly and I could hear her breathing becoming heavier and heavier. I moaned back and told her what I may have never said out loud to her - I told her that it made me feel strangely fulfilled to know that she wanted to only have her lover cumming in her and that after hearing what she'd said earlier, that it made me even hornier to know how she felt about my using condoms with her, that it really did differentiate between me and her lover.
She was up on one elbow as I told her how horny it made me feel she started to encourage me to tell her more. "I love you sharing your thoughts with me, you have me so turned on .... I knew this all made you horny but never all of this... Tell me more baby....."
As I said, it was one of those moments when it was was easy to talk openly and I said to her again that it turned me on to know what I was doing as I would put on a condom, but now knowing what she'd told me about just how different it feels to her, that it made me even more turned on to think about it all now. I told her that what she'd said, that at that point was when it really became something more significant to her was a turn on to think back to her having asked me for it and that knowing how she felt all of the end of last year only made it feel strangely more exciting to me.
When she saw I hadn't cum yet I think she realized that there was more to my mental fantasies and that, I guess, there was more I felt I'd wanted to share and she said "what else baby?". Even though I had it in my head so clearly, I was hesitant to tell her. But she knew and a second later she said "Come on baby, you can tell me anything, I told you that" and a second after that she said "is it hard to tell me? I think I know what you're thinking and I know it must be hard to tell me".
It was good that we'd had a bit to drink as even after all of what we'd said and my obscenely hard cock in my hand along with her fingers still moving slowly and deeply in her own pussy - it still wasn't the easiest thing to tell her that I'd even fantasized about the day she might ask me to abstain from sex with her altogether. I heard her moan as I said that it turned me on to think about her wanting more. I told her that just as it turned me on to think of her coming to me and asking me to use condoms with her, that it would also turn me on if she came to me and said that she wanted more from her lover. "what do you mean?" she hoarsely asked me. I took a deep breath and told her that I would almost always cum when I got to the point of thinking about her coming to me and asking me if she can just have her lover using her pussy and that she'd want me to not have sex with her. I heard her loudly groan as I said it and I guess that encouraged me on.
I knew we were just talking and fantasizing and sharing our thoughts but I also knew that as I spoke, the more I said, the more that would probably be put into motion at some point. Yes, it scared me to say it - I even told her that I wasn't sure I wanted to share it all with her but she encouraged me on and said "come on baby, I want to hear it...." when she heard that I was hesitant she said "we're just talking and getting sexy now baby, if any of this happens you know that they'll all be things we come to deciding together....". That did make me more at ease and at the same time I felt that familiar throb start in my balls and cock and as I said, even thought I'd cum pretty heavily in her earlier, my cock was more than ready to deliver again, I could feel that heaviness and I could feel the urge almost at a crescendo. I told her that just as our earlier "ceremony" for the last time I would have her bare was something that really turned me on, I took a deep breath and struggled to tell her that at times thinking about her asking me to not have sex with her again was enough to set me off. I think she was as horny as I was at that moment with her own voice barely eking out "mmmm baby" at times.
I told her that her earlier wish to have this "affair" with her lover was something that excited me and that while I wasn't sure about the emotional depth she was looking for, that I was totally turned on by her wanting to possibly only have sex with him. She moaned that it turned her on too. I don't know how I was talking to her at this point, I think I was just sharing the thoughts in my head because with each thing I said which soon became more grunts than talking and yet still turned me on even more. I told her that just thinking about how she must feel when she'd come to me and want to talk about this next step - that thinking about what she's feeling, totally turned me on. I was struggling to find the right words, I was struggling just to speak coherently, but I finally said to her that while it might be something I feared, that if she wanted it, that I wanted to give it to her. I told her that I knew that if she was willing to come to me and ask me for that, to be exclusive with her lover, that it would be the most difficult easy decision to make. I could tell from her own labored breathing that she too was close and I told her that I hoped we'd be able to have another special time together when we both might talk about and then possibly act it out for real. I told her that the thought of her only spreading her legs for her lover and that she might only have sex with him was a huge turn-on to me to think about. I was so close to cumming as I kept talking and told her that knowing her lover would be the only one to make her cum and feel her body as she let go I knew I just needed to hear a little bit more teasing / taunting from her. She was moaning and her fingers were still making squishing sounds as she started to talk "oh baby, when the time comes I promise I'll make that last time good for you.... maybe I'll even let you have your last time in me be bare, would you like that?". She must have seen my hand start to move more intently or she must have felt me start to tremble as my orgasm built up because she had the consciousness to lean over towards my ear and to whisper in this sexy voice "how would that be? would that turn you on to know it'd be your last time feeling me with your cock?". I couldn't answer her any more and I'm not sure how she was even able to focus herself but when she said "you'd never want to pull out of me, would you baby?".
Wow - that did it for me - just like on a Wednesday night - hearing her talk to me so explicitly, so openly and so comfortably, wow - it just struck me - I heard what she said and in my head I could almost "see" the moment - me plunging into her, all the more excited by feeling her bare one last time - I could see myself trying to make it last and at the same time trying to go harder/faster/deeper and fighting that urge knowing I would not win. Maybe hearing her say to me "come on baby, enjoy it one last time" - feeling myself fighting between wanting to let it gush into her and wanting to try to last longer until, finally, I can't hold back any longer.
