Well, I decided to start a new thread since tonight sort of marks a new phase in our relationship.
To those of you who have followed my other thread entitled Thursdays, you know where I am right now. But since I had some time I thought I'd try to summarize my journey so far....
Last summer on a business trip - my wife Sue gave in to my pestering and to her own curiosity and with the aide of a "care package" that I added to her suitcase - she finally gave in and had sex with a guy named Bill who was in the same class and hotel as she was in. He used condoms with her but she was sufficiently turned on by the entire adventure - AND my response to it that she was open to finding something closer to home.
She had long mentioned a guy named Brad at work who, whenever they were out after work or at a work-related event, he was always sort of hitting on her and had long expressed an interest in her. He is married with kids and they recently had another child (must be close to 1 year old soon if memory serves me correctly). I know from Sue and later from Brad himself that his wife - between the kids and the house - was turned off on sex.
Yes, it was a magical fit - Sue and I were comfortable with him being her next, or rather, first real fuck-buddy. Sue and Brad worked their schedules out so that almost every Thursday they are able to get together. Brads wife and family think he is in a work meeting involving a conference call with people overseas (Japan?) so that explains the timing. It is a legitimate project that Brad is working on but there are, in fact, no such calls.
It did start at first with some occasional lunchtime trysts - sometimes in the back of Sue's van, other times in a quiet park, other times in a motel. Sue and I were very uncertain of all of this at first - but over time, we have both become very accepting of this.
I had, until this past week, been very reluctant to reveal the extent of my cuckold-related desires.
Sue's and Brad's intimacy grew over time - to the point where she, after instructing him, was having him insert her diaphragm and spermicide as part of their sexual fun together. Needless to say - I was NOT at all comfortable with this as I had tried to tell myself all I wanted was them fucking and to not think about more that might be going on.
However, over 6+ months now, I have become more and more comfortable with the whole situation. I have met Brad on more than one occasion and indeed just before Christmas I was invited by them to be there and witness them together. Unfortunately, the intensity of their intimacy during foreplay was just too much for me. Seeing my wife readily and eagerly accepting his fingers and tongue in her pussy was too much for me to sit back and watch. I did encourage them to finish as I really don't mind them having sex - but seeing all of that was just a bit too much for me. With my latest revelations over the past week, I beleive I may be more able to be there next time.
At issue was always the use of a diaphragm and spermicide. This culminated with Sue asking me to "take Wednesday's off" and to leave her alone so she can be with Brad on Thursdays. Her excuse at the time was that if we had sex on Wednesday and she was with Brad on Thursday she would have had the diaphragm in for like almost 48 hours which is a no-no. I feigned reluctance at this - still scared to reveal the extent of my cuckold desires and not necessarily wanting to cross the line between fantasy and reality - but looking back at it now, I had little resistance to the idea and actually sort of looked forward to Wednesdays and what they symbolized.
Late last year the subject of alternative birth-control came up. I had long wanted Sue to have her tubes tied but neither of us wanted her to go through the relatively major surgery that involved. However, she did make an appointment with her doctor to discuss other alternatives and just before New Year she said she'd re-researched IUD's and thought she may be comfortable with that. Sure enough, last Friday she had one fitted.
There were some complications and her doctor recommended alternate contraception for at least 3-4 days. The complications involved her cervix beign irritated and swollen such that her diaphragm wouldn't fit properly and that the spermicide could aggravate the irritation from her cervix dilation to insert the IUD. So, I agreed to use condoms with her for the few days afterwards.
We had a lot of heart to heart talks over this time - both before and after she had the IUD put in and I think we both understood that this would possibly change things for us allowing more spontanaeity.
However, also during this time, these heart to heart talks allowed me to finally relax and sort of admit to her the excitement I felt about her fucking Brad and my confession that I am terribly excited by him cumming inside her and her wanting him to.
This past Monday and Tuesday nights, if I wanted to I could have pushed her and had sex with her with just the IUD as birth-control. I tried to deny my own true desires by using her "irritation" and her concern about having waited long enough for the IUD to be effective and I "gave in" and used condoms with her both nights.
On Tuesday night she asked me "you know what this means - that Brad will be the first" to have sex with her using just the IUD. I told her yes - and I opened up and confessed all to her - that it turned me on to have her have him be "first". I truly wanted her to have that level of excitement as part of all of this.
That is another aspect of all of this - Sue has always said that her arousal and excitement and enjoyment of her time with Brad is ALWAYS linked to my enjoyment of what she is doing. However, both MOnday and Tuesday I saw a side of her that I have hoped to see all along - that SHE actually wants something sexually and not just to please me. She too confessed in a way that she was very excited by what I was telling her I wanted for her.
Last night was our no-sex night but this time it wasn't because of the whole 48-hour diaphragm usage thing - no, this time it was because she knew it turned me on to have to wait for her.
Tonight - it's now 7:30pm and I am SURE that Brad has already put the IUD to the test and that Sue has undoubtedly had orgasm after orgasm. When she does finally come home - hopefully within the next hour - it will also be the first time in 14 years that she will not have used spermicide when a guy has cum inside her. I cannot wait to experience that with her later.
In the meanwhile I am trying to hide my perpetual hard-on from my kids and am trying to avoid getting over-stimulated to keep myself on edge until later tonight.
I am not sure where all this will now lead - my openness and confession of more of the depths of my cuckold desires are a concern but the excitement of it all makes that pale in comparison.
There are others here who say that this is a recipe for disaster for us - that I should be much more of a part of their time together. I don't feel that way right now and I do genuinely believe that Sue is being honest with me when she says that it is just sex and that there isn't much more than that between them. I guess time will tell.
More later....
To those of you who have followed my other thread entitled Thursdays, you know where I am right now. But since I had some time I thought I'd try to summarize my journey so far....
Last summer on a business trip - my wife Sue gave in to my pestering and to her own curiosity and with the aide of a "care package" that I added to her suitcase - she finally gave in and had sex with a guy named Bill who was in the same class and hotel as she was in. He used condoms with her but she was sufficiently turned on by the entire adventure - AND my response to it that she was open to finding something closer to home.
She had long mentioned a guy named Brad at work who, whenever they were out after work or at a work-related event, he was always sort of hitting on her and had long expressed an interest in her. He is married with kids and they recently had another child (must be close to 1 year old soon if memory serves me correctly). I know from Sue and later from Brad himself that his wife - between the kids and the house - was turned off on sex.
Yes, it was a magical fit - Sue and I were comfortable with him being her next, or rather, first real fuck-buddy. Sue and Brad worked their schedules out so that almost every Thursday they are able to get together. Brads wife and family think he is in a work meeting involving a conference call with people overseas (Japan?) so that explains the timing. It is a legitimate project that Brad is working on but there are, in fact, no such calls.
It did start at first with some occasional lunchtime trysts - sometimes in the back of Sue's van, other times in a quiet park, other times in a motel. Sue and I were very uncertain of all of this at first - but over time, we have both become very accepting of this.
I had, until this past week, been very reluctant to reveal the extent of my cuckold-related desires.
Sue's and Brad's intimacy grew over time - to the point where she, after instructing him, was having him insert her diaphragm and spermicide as part of their sexual fun together. Needless to say - I was NOT at all comfortable with this as I had tried to tell myself all I wanted was them fucking and to not think about more that might be going on.
However, over 6+ months now, I have become more and more comfortable with the whole situation. I have met Brad on more than one occasion and indeed just before Christmas I was invited by them to be there and witness them together. Unfortunately, the intensity of their intimacy during foreplay was just too much for me. Seeing my wife readily and eagerly accepting his fingers and tongue in her pussy was too much for me to sit back and watch. I did encourage them to finish as I really don't mind them having sex - but seeing all of that was just a bit too much for me. With my latest revelations over the past week, I beleive I may be more able to be there next time.
At issue was always the use of a diaphragm and spermicide. This culminated with Sue asking me to "take Wednesday's off" and to leave her alone so she can be with Brad on Thursdays. Her excuse at the time was that if we had sex on Wednesday and she was with Brad on Thursday she would have had the diaphragm in for like almost 48 hours which is a no-no. I feigned reluctance at this - still scared to reveal the extent of my cuckold desires and not necessarily wanting to cross the line between fantasy and reality - but looking back at it now, I had little resistance to the idea and actually sort of looked forward to Wednesdays and what they symbolized.
Late last year the subject of alternative birth-control came up. I had long wanted Sue to have her tubes tied but neither of us wanted her to go through the relatively major surgery that involved. However, she did make an appointment with her doctor to discuss other alternatives and just before New Year she said she'd re-researched IUD's and thought she may be comfortable with that. Sure enough, last Friday she had one fitted.
There were some complications and her doctor recommended alternate contraception for at least 3-4 days. The complications involved her cervix beign irritated and swollen such that her diaphragm wouldn't fit properly and that the spermicide could aggravate the irritation from her cervix dilation to insert the IUD. So, I agreed to use condoms with her for the few days afterwards.
We had a lot of heart to heart talks over this time - both before and after she had the IUD put in and I think we both understood that this would possibly change things for us allowing more spontanaeity.
However, also during this time, these heart to heart talks allowed me to finally relax and sort of admit to her the excitement I felt about her fucking Brad and my confession that I am terribly excited by him cumming inside her and her wanting him to.
This past Monday and Tuesday nights, if I wanted to I could have pushed her and had sex with her with just the IUD as birth-control. I tried to deny my own true desires by using her "irritation" and her concern about having waited long enough for the IUD to be effective and I "gave in" and used condoms with her both nights.
On Tuesday night she asked me "you know what this means - that Brad will be the first" to have sex with her using just the IUD. I told her yes - and I opened up and confessed all to her - that it turned me on to have her have him be "first". I truly wanted her to have that level of excitement as part of all of this.
That is another aspect of all of this - Sue has always said that her arousal and excitement and enjoyment of her time with Brad is ALWAYS linked to my enjoyment of what she is doing. However, both MOnday and Tuesday I saw a side of her that I have hoped to see all along - that SHE actually wants something sexually and not just to please me. She too confessed in a way that she was very excited by what I was telling her I wanted for her.
Last night was our no-sex night but this time it wasn't because of the whole 48-hour diaphragm usage thing - no, this time it was because she knew it turned me on to have to wait for her.
Tonight - it's now 7:30pm and I am SURE that Brad has already put the IUD to the test and that Sue has undoubtedly had orgasm after orgasm. When she does finally come home - hopefully within the next hour - it will also be the first time in 14 years that she will not have used spermicide when a guy has cum inside her. I cannot wait to experience that with her later.
In the meanwhile I am trying to hide my perpetual hard-on from my kids and am trying to avoid getting over-stimulated to keep myself on edge until later tonight.
I am not sure where all this will now lead - my openness and confession of more of the depths of my cuckold desires are a concern but the excitement of it all makes that pale in comparison.
There are others here who say that this is a recipe for disaster for us - that I should be much more of a part of their time together. I don't feel that way right now and I do genuinely believe that Sue is being honest with me when she says that it is just sex and that there isn't much more than that between them. I guess time will tell.
More later....
