The train has a new engineer
Steve, In view of recent developments, I thought it appropriate to look back a bit at some things you have written and mostly, some quotes from Sue, that you have posted:
Condoms
05.21.2012: “Sue said she "hated condoms" and both Frank and I chimed in with "we know!" at the same time which made us all laugh.”
This is not the first time this has come up. In fact, it is a ‘constant’ throughout your narrative, that Sue dislikes being fucked with the use of a condom, and the sooner she can dispense with them, the better.
9.15.2012: She said, "if you really need to, would you use a condom?"
10.01.2012: “I honestly didn't know if she was serious or just teasing me. "I was really turned on with Frank all week,.... " and then she added, "or, like I told you before I left, maybe you could use a condom?"
10.18.2012: “In our build up to my second time last night, she asked me how I felt about, not just cumming in her, but also not fucking [her] too. I asked her whether she wouldn't miss both and she quickly replied, "it's just us talking" and then added, "but I'd think there would be someone who'd 'fill in for you” ..... She started to just talk, she said, "I mean on one hand you could still fuck me and maybe just pull out at the end". She paused for a second and then said, "or, I guess maybe you could use a condom if you didn't want to pull out.””
‘Don’t want you to cum in me’
04.23.2010: “And then she said it, she said something that drove me wild, she said, "you know Don doesn't like you to cum in me!
06.25.2012: "It turns you on doesn't it?" "that I don't want you to cum in me?" “
10.15.2012: “I asked her what she's thinking and she said that, maybe 3 or 4 times a year, that she'd like to get away and let herself go sexually. She held my hand, and said in a serious voice, "I'm going to not want you to cum in me then," and she proceeded to say, that she was now sure that this all turned me on, and she wanted to confirm that, and I agreed. I know it sounds crazy to be talking like this but at the time and even now, looking / thinking back, I'm okay with it.”
11.11.2012: “"I just don't want you to cum in me, until I go away with Frank, you know that, we talked about it ..... I thought this [using condoms] would be better for you than having none at all"”
Another man
10.25.2012: “"what if I find someone, ‘kind of like Don,’ who wants some of what he was asking me for?" [for you not to cum in me] Before I could answer she added, "I know neither of us were ready for that back then," and with a hesitation in her voice she added, "but I think I may be [ready] now.””
“I asked her, "what are you thinking," and she looked at me and said that she was thinking, that she'd like a lover who wanted her, "more exclusively," and that while it was a ‘turn off’ when Don had 'demanded' it from her, that she now thought it might be exciting, if 'she' had a lover who wanted her more [exclusively] than Frank does, and she looked at me and said, "how are you going to feel if you have to wait longer to have me?"”
“She giggled and said, "of course you'll still get to have me sometimes." ..... "you know, it's been over 25 years, that you've been cumming in me,” ..... “Maybe, a little break wouldn't be so bad." ..... "you’ll be horny while you wait, knowing someone else was enjoying my pussy instead of you, won't you?"”
(Emphasis mine, harry)
All of that, to say this:
If Sue dislikes condoms so much, why is she proposing that you use condoms exclusively for sex with her? (2 weeks, for now) (later .....?)
I suggest that it’s not just to be kind to you, (although that would be part of it, since she loves you) but to get you to accept what she believes will be inevitable, when she has a lover “like Don” that will want to have her, exclusively “bare” and exclusively “clean” for him.
Bear in mind that: "of course you'll still get to have me sometimes." didn't tell you how often.
There is also the matter of you, “not cumming in me” [her] which comes up every Wed. Night. I suggest that could be ‘programing’ you to satisfy yourself, ‘by hand’ when your needs get too great. (think Pavlov’s dog psychology)
This is a new train you are on, Sue is driving now, and like Dana said, I don’t know if you can stop it any more. Sue knows you too well. She knows what buttons to push, she knows what turns you on. Most of all, it is her pleasure she is fulfilling, yours is now incidental.
Sue may be waiting until, “after the holidays’ to seriously look for her, (“someone, ‘kind of like Don,”)” but that’s not saying she will keep her eyes shut until then, nor that she hasn’t met someone already, and just not, ‘tried him out’ yet.
As before, when you have experienced an escalation, this will certainly be an exciting time for you. I am not saying that there are, red flags all over the place, I'm done with that, but you have to know, that after all the time that you have wanted Sue to, “want this for herself,” she has obviously arrived there. She is now the engineer. You are still her husband, but pulling the emergency chain, just may not work anymore!
Cheers, Harry
