so im away this wknd & just haven't had time to recently post. i have talked to allie's mom, she's coming back here in 2 months, but i think i've got it way better controlled. i don't think it's a foregone conclusion whatsoever that i'm hooking up with her. i have seen tammy, had a few good times & think i've got her mellowed. i will address more when i get back this wk, but did just talk to him, i know i'm an a-hole & my dialogue was stupid, but gave some insight & rather than debating posting, im in wtf just post it mode.
bill (9:05:08 PM): Hey dude
me (9:05:31 PM): hey man, long friggin time, how r u?
bill (9:06:38 PM): I'm OK. I saw you online last week and signed off just because I just couldn't talk about things.
me (9:06:56 PM): no prob man, what's new?
bill (9:08:24 PM): Dude I feel so marginalized. He's made my wife his fucktoy and I don't know what to do. I've just let it all happen.
me (9:08:44 PM): what do you mean, what's been going on?
bill (9:10:21 PM): So much has that I don't know where to start. But he comes over now on a regular basis to fuck her. And my wife bought me a high-end camcorder for Christmas to film them.
me (9:11:05 PM): kind of like that original video u wanted back so much, rite? i mean it must be to hot to watch afterwards rite?
bill (9:12:38 PM): Yeah dude I jack off every day pretty much looking at it. But it's so fucked up sitting in my apartment with headphones on listening to her tell him she's his cock ***** as he fucks her.
me (9:13:02 PM): but it gets you hard rite?
bill (9:14:21 PM): Yeah I jack off watching it. But I feel like such a loser. I don't feel like a real man. And it's so fucked up because I get off on that feeling.
me (9:14:37 PM): what do you mean?
bill (9:16:00 PM): I mean I was so embarrassed New Year's Eve but when I'm not looking at video and I'm jacking off just thinking, I jack off thinking of that night. I'll expalin.
me (9:16:15 PM): k, yeah, what happened?
bill (9:17:29 PM): We went to a party of one our friends. But she wanted to get fucked by him after the ball dropped. So we went down to the basement and we met him there.
me (9:17:44 PM): k
bill (9:19:25 PM): And he fucked her right near an elevator. And I was so nervous about someone coming down and the door opening. And she stroked my dick and I came once again too quikc like a fucking loser. And then he just came on her face like he owns her.
me (9:19:48 PM): did you video it?
bill (9:20:16 PM): No that's just when were at home and she has to be cool with it.
me (9:20:33 PM): still pretty hot image to jerk to tho
bill (9:20:52 PM): That's not even what I think about.
me (9:21:02 PM): what do u?
bill (9:22:38 PM): He came all over her face and used her thong to wipe it off. And then he hung it up in a laundry area. My wife's thong with his cum on it for anyone to see. It was a black thong and there was a white slab of his cum right in the middle.
me (9:22:57 PM): that's pretty hot too
bill (9:24:22 PM): But we left him and we went back up to the party. I'm talking to everyone like everything is normal meanwhile my wife's thong is paraded on display for anyone to find in the basement.
me (9:24:36 PM): but no one found, rite?
bill (9:25:14 PM): No. I wanted to go back down and grab them but I'm guessing the superintendent or someone in the building found it the next day.
me (9:25:40 PM): so what do you mean, that's what you think about?
bill (9:27:11 PM): Just that I've jacked off thinking about how I was at that party making small talk to friends and meanwhile he had just fucked my wife to ring in the new year and her panties were on display with his cum on them downstairs.
me (9:27:30 PM): did it get you off thinkin of who might find em?
bill (9:28:58 PM): I guess so. I have jacked off alot thinking about it. It was our four month anniversary and two years to the night that I proposed to her. And we were back at the party with him just having fucked her and shooting on her face.
me (9:29:34 PM): anyone at the party know or suspect, she didn't have actual cum on her face when you were back at the party, rite?
bill (9:30:18 PM): No nobody knew but I have wondered if there was a security camera down there. I don't think so but you never know.
me (9:30:39 PM): but the incident gets you hard thinking about?
bill (9:31:15 PM): Yeah I know. Like what does that say about me. I'm just fucked up.
me (9:32:04 PM): no you r not man, not at all, i can so relate, i'd be the same way, it's hot & you've got a hot & daring girl for yr wife, roll with it, enjoy it, it's ok to enjoy it
bill (9:33:21 PM): Dude if people knew I would look like such a fucking pussy. He told me to wipe the cum off her face with her panties and I just did it. And then he put it up for public display.
me (9:33:54 PM): ok, but no one knew, that makes it hot & you've cum thinkin about it alot, yes?
bill (9:34:23 PM): Yeah I have but it still fucks with my self esteem even more.
me (9:34:50 PM): what gets u off thinking about it? like what r u thinking bout jerking?
bill (9:36:18 PM): Just how he called her out of the party as everyone was going off celebrating and fucked her right downstairs. And the way he put her thong up. I don't know I just felt so weak like he totally used her and I just took it. I'm a fucking pussy and I still can't fuck her right.
me (9:36:40 PM): why, what's up with that, i mean, how's sex w/her?
bill (9:37:46 PM): I still can't get my stamina back. I cum within a minute or so and she'll hug me and pat my head and tell me it's OK but I know it's his cock she wants
me (9:37:59 PM): how do u mean?