Well, it was an odd feeling lying in bed alone last night knowing where she was. I am actually surprised I slept as much as I did. Of course relieving myself before finally nodding off surely helped. In my head - oh my - if she did half of that I'll be in awe of her.
But this morning - there is no doubt that I soooo miss her being here. I woke up and for a moment had forgotten she wasn't here.
I feel like totally empty inside emotion-wise, I just feel drained that way - my brain went through enough torment last night that I think now, I just want her home tonight - yes, after she has some more time with him this evening, then she'll finally return.
The thought that they are probably getting ready together as I'm typing this does have me horny. I know she'd said she was hoping they'd have a "quickie" this morning and that my baby will be heading off to work all wet from him is incredibly arousing to me to think about. But I also feel this huge void right now with her not around - not seeing her prance around in her panties this morning - I'm realizing too that even that stuff she does for me even if it's for her too. I think I may have been too hasty in my thoughts yesterday that she doesn't "share" with me enough - when I think what I may be feeling is that it is merely changing how she shares with me and such.
I don't know - I just know I feel somewhat unsteady emotionally this morning - which I suppose is a good thing in that it must mean I do care/love her underneath it all. But it's too much for me to try to explain.
Hopefully today will go by quickly at work and we'll be together not too late tonight.
But this morning - there is no doubt that I soooo miss her being here. I woke up and for a moment had forgotten she wasn't here.
I feel like totally empty inside emotion-wise, I just feel drained that way - my brain went through enough torment last night that I think now, I just want her home tonight - yes, after she has some more time with him this evening, then she'll finally return.
The thought that they are probably getting ready together as I'm typing this does have me horny. I know she'd said she was hoping they'd have a "quickie" this morning and that my baby will be heading off to work all wet from him is incredibly arousing to me to think about. But I also feel this huge void right now with her not around - not seeing her prance around in her panties this morning - I'm realizing too that even that stuff she does for me even if it's for her too. I think I may have been too hasty in my thoughts yesterday that she doesn't "share" with me enough - when I think what I may be feeling is that it is merely changing how she shares with me and such.
I don't know - I just know I feel somewhat unsteady emotionally this morning - which I suppose is a good thing in that it must mean I do care/love her underneath it all. But it's too much for me to try to explain.
Hopefully today will go by quickly at work and we'll be together not too late tonight.